Chapter 238: Jealous again

Cassius pov

I kept running a hand in her hair to soothe her when she continued crying in my arms. It did not look like she was crying because of a particular reason, but all the pain that she had hid in her heart burst at once.

Otherwise as proud a lady as she was, I had never expected her to behave like that. I must have ignored her. But it's not about her, I used to ignore all the women around me. No matter how smart or beautiful they were, I was a loyal married man.

Even after marriage, i always thought that i was trying to protect her, who would have thought that i have hurted her this much in the process.

I sighed looking at the sleeping girl in my arms. Did she continue to love me all these years, even when I was married and could never be hers? Was that the reason that she married me? Did she love me when she got married to me and I was the one who killed her love for me as she declared?!!

Suddenly I felt very cruel in my own eyes. Looking at her face, that has marks of dried tears on her face and my wet sleeves. I have never seen her this unkempt, yet she looked most innocent to me now.

I had always thought that she was a strong hearted girl and could hear anything. That she was not affected by anything at all. But now that her facade was shedding she was still a young innocent girl hidden in the shell of a villain!

I gently brushed her hair and moved them from her face. Taking her in my arms, I gently laid her on the bed. I kept looking at her eyes that had turned puffy.

How much time had passed when I finally covered her with the blanket. I moved close and gently kissed her forehead. Then I took the pillow and other blankets and walked towards the sofa.

Setting my bed, I laid down but sleep was far away from my eyes. Her words kept ringing in my ears, had she waited for hours just to meet me? If only I would have known all this before she married me because she loved me not because I was the archduke, then our story could have been different! We could have been a loving couple but now I had lost everything as her affection for me had died.

No matter how I justify my action there was no denial that she had been treated unfairly and I knew that I did not deserve her forgiveness.

How much time had passed when I saw her turning in the bed. I closed my eyes when I felt that she could wake up any moment. My eyes felt burning and itchy yet I kept still to make her feel that I was still sleeping.

I heard her footsteps as they were coming closer. 

"Cassius, Cassius" she called and I moved as if I was still asleep.

"Mmm" 

"Your highness, maids would be here anytime. I request you to sleep in bed. Your actions could be misunderstood" she requested and i slowly opened my eyes and nodded.

I walked up to bed and she bent to take the blanket from there and adjusted the cushions of the sofa. It felt like we had been doing some crime the way she behaved! 

didn't everyone was already aware of our broken relationship, what was there much to hide!

"Why don't you sleep a bit more, your eyes are still looking red." she replied once she was done with it and i nodded, i did not have any strength to argue for now.

I laid down on bed and god knows when I fell asleep. When I woke up no one was there except two maids that were standing in the corner.

"Your highness" they both greeted me as one bent to put on my sleepers and the other stood in front of me waiting for my instructions.

I realised it was already noon. 

"I would like to take a bath first" i replied and they both nodded and i walked into the bath area, thank goodness, my clothes arrived in the evening. Wearing other clothes was discomforting.

I heard a pale of laughter when I walked out of the room. My steps increased the pace to get a part of it. I wanted to be part of her happiness now, to be the reason for her smile. Maybe it would help in lessening my guilt.

But when I reached there my jaws clenched and my face hardened. My palms turned into a fist when I saw the happy family laughing and enjoying themselves together. On the head seat was sitting Monique, and on the sofa was James and Marianne, with Killian. While on the other side were Marianne's knight and her so-called friend, D.A.M.I.E.N.!

"Oh my, Dami, did you really say so.. I wish I could have seen their faces." said Mari, in between her laughter which she was having a hard time controlling.

"Not only that, I even heard one of the most foolish questions by the other party who asked me to prove that the stairs that go to the first floor could be used to come down too. Can you believe it?" he said and i could say that was the most lame joke i had ever heard yet they all laughed like it was the most funny incident.

"I wish i could come with you there and see everything with my eyes, but i am afraid i would laugh at their faces so much that i could be the next one to be in the scrutiny of everyone" replied Marianne and James just shook his head.

'Why! James was so strict and nasty with me. Now why was he behaving so docile as if he never felt angry when someone tried to come close to his sweet little sister. Huh! They all were partial i say'