Chapter 216: Dearie's question and Ayda's answer

"Can we calm down for a moment?" With Longinus leaving the tent, I could speak a bit more openly.

It wasn't that I didn't trust that man. By thinking calmly, I could see how he went for the extra mile in everything I asked him for. To this point, ever since the moment we met back at the foothold of the northern federation's capital, I have yet to be disappointed by him. But that didn't mean I could be as open with him about certain things as I could be with Dearie alone.

Simply because she was the only other person in this entire world if not in all the worlds I visited so far, that was aware of the existence of that bastard God.  By a stretch, Ayda could fall into that category as well, but her experiences with that wannabe God were limited to what she heard in my stories.

Thinking about it like that, even my relationship with Ayda couldn't compare to this randomly born relationship I had with Dearie in regards to knowing that bastard God.

"Calm down? I would rather if we were to start heating up a bit," Dearie smiled. She tugged gently at her own shirt, instantly making it press tightly against her body. And from what I could see, there was no invention like a bra in this world, allowing me to gaze at the two pointy elements that protruded through her outerwear.

"Listen, the reasons why I didn't want to sleep with you didn't change at all." Rather than allowing the girl to sweep me with her actions, I closed my eyes and turned my back to the girl in order to at least save myself from the excruciating torture of keeping my eyes away from the sights she was offering me. 

"Oh, come on!"  Dearie raised her voice a bit, only to suddenly sink in herself before casting a glance towards the entrance. "I know that you are in a heat just like me," she added in a softer voice, clearly attempting to keep the things we were talking about away from the ears of Longinus and anyone else tasked with guarding her tent.

"Does that change anything?" I asked with a serious expression on my face. "If we were to judge our actions only by what our bodies want and what they do not want, the entirety of the human race would long go extinct." I shrugged my arms, not even daring to imagine such reality.

As someone who visited many worlds in my lifetime, I couldn't help but turn a little bit philosophical whenever I started thinking about matters like society or moral rules.

Because ultimately, who I was to make any statements regarding those complex problems?

That's why, the only thing that I could say for sure, was my own opinion over things that I thought long and hard about. Anything I would say about topics I wasn't interested in would be just the simple knowledge that I somehow acquired by watching stupid or educational videos on the most popular streaming service on earth.

In other words, outside the few things that I knew a lot about, all my knowledge was pretty superficial.

But that didn't mean I didn't form my own thoughts about the problems that touched my situation directly. And the problem of whether it was okay to sleep with other women, even with the approval of the one I cared the most about, was something that still plagued my thoughts to this day.

"I understand. But can't you give me just this little luxury?!" Dearie suddenly snapped, not caring for the volume of her voice anymore. 

"I understand that you burdened me with not only managing this entire continent but also conquering it in the first place. You are helping out as much as you can, so I can forgive that." Dearie finally had enough, starting to list off all the things that weighed on her soul.

"But there is a lot more to that. I know I have no right to say it now after I openly rejected your potential advances back in that place," her words suddenly stopped as she bit her lips. For a moment, underneath the facade of a wise queen, a face of a normal girl, terrified of her burdens appeared.

Sadly, it flashed only for a moment, before Dearie's usual face returned to its rightful place.

"I understand that what we are doing right now, was intended to be the job of our kid. I understand that both conquering and managing have to be done for your mission to be fulfilled." Dearie continued to speak, not caring in the slightest about my attempts to say something.

"I'm burdened with all of this stuff, and I want to at least forget myself for a moment with someone who did so much for my sake, even if my wellbeing was never on his mind." From Dearie's voice, I could tell that her rant was reaching its conclusion. It was reaching the moment where all the useless chatter that she was engaging in right now would be cast aside, allowing the true intention of her words to surface.

"Listen, my mission," I attempted to say something once again, prompted to do it by the flashing green of the entire notification window. Formerly, only the names of the specific subquests would flash whenever they would near fulfillment but now…

Now the entire window was flashing ever since it first popped up.

"All I'm asking from you is just a bit of relief. Is that really too much to ask for?" Dearie asked while lowering her head. It appeared that ranting out so much left her tired… But also relaxed.

"First, it's good that you threw that all out of your mind." Forcing my entire self back from getting excited, I approached the girl before placing my hand on her head. "It's better to just say all your doubts and problems aloud rather than allowing them to fester and rot you from the inside."

The words I just said were no different from what I thought about before. Just a superficial knowledge, superficial ability to use nicely-sounding words in order to put forth an encouraging statement. But that wasn't equal to me not meaning what I just said!

"Second, I'm sorry to break it down to you, but it seems that my last mission reached its fulfillment criteria. As for now, all my duties in this world are over." This was the harshest part of what this girl needed to hear. Because just as she pointed out how much I was helping out, I had to tell her that my help was no longer guaranteed.

"WHAT?!" As much as I didn't want to look at her face, when Dearie shouted suddenly like that, my eyes automatically wandered over… And her reaction was just too precious. 

"It's like I said. Don't ask me what those criteria were since I can only guess." I replied while shrugging my arms. That was the reality of the system missions. Now that I finished the mission it assigned to me, I could freely go in and out of this world at my own convenience, not to speak about all the rewards I would get from clearing the missions.

But I didn't dare to check what kind of benefits the system had in store for me. Not now. Not when I was dealing with a girl who opened herself up so much to me.

"Okay, okay, let's calm down," Dearie said, taking several deep breaths. "Are you going to leave now?" Her question quickly followed.

"Yes. Only for a moment to restock my weapons and calm down my wife. In fact, it will take me an hour or two tops." Given how Dearie allowed me to see her fragile side, I decided to be honest as well. "So it's not like I'm going to leave you with all that mess yet, it would go against what I believe a man should do and how a man should act."

For a moment, a silence ensued. Just from a single look at Dearie's face, I could tell that she had no idea what to say right now.

"I will be going then." Given how she didn't have anything else to say to me, finishing my mission here seemed like the best idea for now.

"Wait a moment," the queen suddenly called out. "Can you do me one favor once you return?"

Her face changed. A single glance at her soul only confirmed that this girl somehow found a new source of determination, turning dead-set on achieving some kind of objective.

"Sure, as long as it's not too much," I attempted to say, only to stop when Dearie authoritatively raised her hand to stop my words from flowing.

"Good. I want you to go back and ask what your wife thinks about your struggles. I want to know what she thinks about you fucking with me." Dearie's tone was now steadfast. There was no hint of hesitation or doubt in her voice nor in her face.

Even despite just how ridiculous this request was.

"I can do that, give me just a moment." Worried that further, even more, the disturbing requests would be made if I wasted my time in this world, I quickly called forth the gate before stepping right back to earth.

Thankfully, I had quite a lot of leeway in terms of the time-freeze of the system. And just as expected, as soon as I appeared in the familiar surroundings of my basement, Ayda was in exactly the same position as I remembered she was when I left.

"Huh?" Her surprised face was enough to cast away all the exhaustion I racked by working hard in the other world.  "Ah, sorry, that startled me a bit."

Hearing this strange confession, I couldn't help myself but ask.

"Startled? By what?" Taking a step forward, I grabbed Ayda's hand. Just this small token of affection was enough to send a wave of comfort through my body and mind alike.

"You know, you just moved towards the doors and in the next moment you were facing me aga…" Ayda stopped her sentence midword. Her fingers entangled with mine, as she pulled on my hand and brought me into a close embrace.

For a moment, I thought that she finally realized how long it was for me ever since I last saw her. But when her delicate hands suddenly pushed me away, I realized that something happened.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

"You have the galls… No, that's not it." Ayda started to lecture me, only to stop her words in the middle of a sentence once again, before raising her hand to her mouth and biting on the nail of her thumb. Then, her eyes moved back on me.

"Dear, I don't know the details, but your soul is like an open book. You met a girl in that other world, you had a chance to go at it with her, but even with my approval and encouragement… your doubts and morality still stopped you from doing her and spreading your glorious bloodline." Ayda said before leaning her head over her shoulder in a cute way, "am I right?" she added, pushing this unpleasant question on me.

"Yeah." If there was anyone in the entire world that I could be perfectly and entirely honest with, it was this girl. Just like I refused to sleep with Dearie because of my wish to remain loyal to her, I didn't dare to lie or even hide the truth from Ayda for the very same reason.

"Good. Now, get your ass back to that place and just impregnate her!" Ayda shouted, but without even a hint of anger in her voice. Rather than that, it was the strange tingle in her soul that made her look like a mother depressing over the naivete of her child.

"Listen. I know you have your doubts. I know that in this world, marriage is meant to be between two people and two people only." Ayda said as she moved forward, wrapping her arms around my shoulders before pulling me into a hug.

"But that's something created to uphold the society that developed in this place." the warmth of her embrace was broken by the cold tone of her words. "One day, you might need help from that place. We don't know what's coming tomorrow," Ayda said, before pushing me away once again.

"And that's why, you will go back to that place, fill whoever that girl you met there to the brim with your seed and leave only when she is confirmed pregnant," Ayda added with a serious expression on her face. Her hands still on my chest, she started to move forward, pushing me towards the doors.

"Don't worry, though." Her lips suddenly curved up. A the same time, a veil on her soul that made it slightly hard to read her emotions dropped, allowing me to notice that there wasn't even a hint of jealousy or anger in her. "Once you go back, I will give you a night that will make you forget about all the other girls you will ever fuck in your entire life!"