Chapter 293

"But you can't." Lan Xi suddenly opened his mouth and said in Xiao Yunyi's mind, "you can't do anything. You can only listen."

"Yes." filled with bitterness, Xiao Yunyi said expressionless, but only he knew how painful it was.

"On the night of your engagement, I was drunk in my room. At that time, I decided to leave you, but I didn't do it in the end. Then, I left. For the first time, my heart was full of reluctance, but I forced myself to be cruel. Because I knew that no matter what I did, I couldn't be with you."

"The first time I knew you were leaving, I panicked. I don't know why, but I know I can't lose you. So I immediately sent someone to find you. Fortunately, they found you back. I don't know what to say to you. I can only vent my anger. I'm sorry for hurting you that day. Later, I realized that venting and hurting are stupid."

In silence, Lan Xi remembered the embarrassment given by Xiao Yunyi that day, smiled bitterly and said, "in fact, when they brought me back, I was reluctant and happy at the beginning. Maybe I still had nostalgia for you at that time, but later they became angry."

With a long sigh, she continued, "maybe the first reason why we become like this today is that we communicate too little, and there are too many problems between us. Countless problems pile up and don't solve them. They accumulate in our hearts and become a cancer. On the day this cancer is broken, we will..."

Xiao Yunyi didn't answer Lan Xi's words. He knew what she meant and changed a topic. He continued, "It happened that day. After I finished talking with muyaran, she pestered me to the coffee shop. I don't want to explain why I went out with her, because it's a fact. No matter how I explain it, it's useless. I just want to say that I really don't want any opposite sex around you, including Lan Yang. I don't like his presence. But I know it's impossible, but the more so , the more reluctant I am. "

As if remembering the scene of that day, Xiao Yunyi's eyes became distant. As soon as he went in that day, he saw Lan Xi sitting opposite Chi Mohan. They looked like an ordinary couple. Xiao Yunyi didn't know what they were talking about at that time, but he could see the trust and dependence on the people opposite on Lan Xi's face.

"Especially when I saw you smiling so happily at Chi Mohan and you said you would entrust revenge to him, I was really angry, but I was also a little sad. Why can't you believe me? Why can't you entrust me with something so important to you?"

"Do you really think I didn't think so?" Lan Xi's eyes were full of complexity, "I wanted to entrust this matter to you before, but you may not realize how busy you are and how many times you and muyaran appear at the same time. Every time you appear together, you will appear in the media and watch them guess when you will get married... Each time is a heavy blow to me, making me soberly realize my identity again and again , how dare I give you something so important to me. "

"In the final analysis, it's still the reason for insufficient trust, isn't it?"

"Yes, and more than that." Lan Xi asked without hesitation. "Do you want to continue talking? Or do you want to continue listening?"

"I think so." Xiao Yunyi's answer was firm.

"But that's all in the past."

"However, the past is the main reason for our current situation. I want to hear all the things you wanted to tell me before, but I didn't hear for various reasons. I also want to hear your voice."

"OK." he nodded silently. Lan Xi agreed to his request. He continued to recall his previous mood and feeling according to that pattern, and then converted it into language to Xiao Yunyi.

Although Xiao Yunyi looked at his expression and was worried, as if he was afraid of remembering bad things, Lan Xi wanted to say that there were few things worth remembering for her in the past. However, there were enough pain between them, and she was used to it. Let her bear the pain.

It's said to open her heart, but how can it be? People's heart is always the most complex and unclear. Even if she says it now, she feels different from her original feeling. Now when she thinks of the past and talks about the past, Lan Xi has a sense of telling stories, which is what Xiao Yunyi is most afraid of. He is more afraid of Lan Xi's emotions than sadness Peel it off.

According to this way of communication, the two continued until Lan Xi talked about her suicide.

"In fact, I didn't want to commit suicide at first, and I didn't want to leave you that day at first. To tell you the truth, before you came back, I contacted Chi Mohan and asked him about Lan Yang. I think that's what you said at that time. When he returned to Chi Mohan after you had a fight with Lan Yang, he was already injured, but he was still injured He didn't tell me. He just told me that he was fine. It was because they were in good condition that I was relieved. I was more determined to leave you. But... "

"But you just made up your mind and didn't decide when to leave, but then I did something like that to you, so you decided to leave at that time?" looking at the person opposite, Xiao Yunyi nodded silently. Xiao Yunyi didn't know what to say.

Who is to blame? Blame Lanxi or blame yourself. He didn't control what he did to Lanxi. If it were him, his reaction might be stronger than Lanxi. With a bitter smile, Xiao Yunyi suddenly felt that Lan Xi's reaction was very strong. At that time, she decided to leave immediately, and later she didn't hesitate to commit suicide

Like a sigh, Xiao Yunyi said slowly, "in fact, after I had a fight with Lan Yang that day, I went to the bar alone and drank a lot of wine. But I still remember what happened after I got drunk last time, so I took Chen Ming and Lu Zihao over this time, but I didn't expect that they were so frustrated and were finally exploited by others." Seeing Lan Xi casting a puzzled look at himself, Xiao Yunyi quickly said, "I'll explain to you later. It's a little complicated."