Chapter 115 Do it one time
Things weren't planned but Kan eventually saw himself on the bus with none other than Sabrina who looked like a bigger mess than when he first met up with her at the bus stop close to his house. However, he couldn't deny that the sheer sight of beads of sweat dropping down her neck and then heading into her cleavages made something in his pants kick.
Over and over again, using the excuse of sightseeing, Kan would peak at her cleavage to see the wonderful badonks that bounced along with the movement of the bus. She seemed distracted in her thoughts the entire time and from what Kan had observed, this had been so since he met her. He asked her what was wrong the first time and it was what led them to the market.
He wasn't keen on asking again before he had himself committed to something else he didn't plan for. Already, he was already far from his lane as he had deviated twice! He had told the gang he would be back as soon as he could but at the moment, he was on his way to a hot healer's house.
"Haven't been to this part of the city before. You came all the way from here to come give me back my card?!" Kan asked, completely astounded by her generosity. He knew while in the hospital, their jobs included being nice and making the patient comfortable. But what she had done had just proven that it was HER thing. A part of her that wasn't due to training or an oath, that was if they even took one.
"Yes. This place is somewhat like the hub of the city in relation to Elves. I find them quite... peaceful and generous people, you know?" Sabrina said to Kan.
"Right, peaceful and generous they are," Kan responded but that was because something else ran through his mind.
'I even forgot she's not an Elf!" Kan thought as he glanced at her over and over again, trying to find out a stand out feature about her other than her lovely looking breasts that were packed criminally tight behind the shirt she was wearing. He assumed they were serving a life sentence and dreamed of granting them amnesty at least for the period he was around Sabrina.
He couldn't brush aside a particular thing about her which was her unnatural smile. Aside the fact that she was the first person he was taking note of to have dimples but not just any kind, two on either sides of her cheeks, she was something of a face card herself. He admitted his healing probably sped up with her present.
'I can't believe I'm going through all of this just to have him. I have tricked the poor guy into following me home. Look at him, so gentle and clueless! If only he knew that I had this all planned. If only I know what is wrong with me but I don't!! I'm going too far and I know it. Yet I can't stop!!' Sabrina stole a glance at Kan as she thought about this. Her face reflected the turmoil going through her mind.
Her eyebrows furrowed and her fingers passed between a bag kept intertwining with one another in a nervous dance. 'Drugs won't work. I tried to even sedate myself to sleep with all kinds of potions but this fire in me keeps my eyes wide awake like a guard on duty. I just need him to do it one time. One time and then that's it!!' Sabrina steeled her resolve as she drifted away into her thoughts once again.
'Damn, I can't believe Ellie has grown to love me so much in such short period. I honestly do wish she can see that I'm more than just for her. My duty is simple and I'm happy carrying it out,' Kan thought as well as the bus moved on.
[I don't think that's the issue here. It's not about your allegiance with Errose. No, that's not what is stopping you from loving her back as equally as she does. There was a reason I asked you yesterday if you love her. The thing is I'm in your mind. I can see your thoughts and every time she comes into that space, that little part of your mind that's as bright as the sun, a fog covers her way, not letting her go through]..
[You seem guarded against something. It's like the minute other things that I still can't figure out with you because somehow you know things I don't know which shouldn't even be possible. what is the problem, Kan?] Hela asked.
"It's nothing and you should probably stay out of the foggy parts. There's something called privacy and if it isn't clear to you, it's probably because you are not supposed to see it in the first place!!" Kan retorted, a little charged with his response.
[I see. So it's as I calculated. You are hiding things from me. How that is what I'm yet to figure out but I can guarantee you this. I may not be able to see all your thoughts and memories but I can tell your emotions and how you feel. At the moment and since the beginning when we binded, all I see beneath all of these playful, perfectly perverted mind of yours is pain and truama. Is it your mother who has wrecked this much damage?] Hela pushed yet again to discover what Kan seemingly was hiding.
"What you see is nothing more than the past. Everyone has a past and there are wonderful sides as well as painful parts. You wouldn't know this of course because you are a program. The past is called the past for a reason and that's because it's meant to remain in the past. Let it remain there, Hela" Kan responded.
[If you insist. So tell me then, what do you plan with the hot healer?!] Hela quickly jumped to a different topic, its tone sounding even more alike.
"Nothing...I just need to drop this off and go do something about the gang" Kan said and then while thinking about it, a smile crossed his lips and almost like a practiced routine, he and Hela began to laugh simultaneously.
[That was a good one!!] Hela quipped.
[But
you aren't serious, right?] It added.