CH 19

Gu Yingjie was reluctant.

What she said did have some truth to it. Such a possibility exists.

But it is only a possibility.

There is another possibility.

If they loved each other, perhaps the feelings would grow deeper and deeper, she would build up her confidence in her boyfriend again, she would have a healthy mind to face life as if she hadn’t been hurt before. And he will protect her, take care of her, and will spoil her. Maybe they won’t break up and they can love each other for a long, long time ……

There are a million possibilities for the future, and she only thinks of the worst one.

He had to oppose her.

“Qin Yufei, it’s not right for you to think that way. Broken hearts happen every day, and there are many people who are worse off than you were in the past. If everyone was like you, unable to let go, wouldn’t the world be finished? Things have been so long ago, you should give yourself more opportunities. You went to the United States, isn’t it to say goodbye to the past  and start over? Then why not make an effort to try, people should look forward to move on, rather than always use the past to punish themselves. What is the point of living with yourself like this?”

“Hey, Gu Yingjie, don’t you reason with me oh. I’m most annoyed by this.” Qin Yufei really want to take fried fish fillet throw him, “I am a superficial white rich girl, can not experience such a profound philosophy of life. There are a lot of people who are worse off than me, so what? They are not me, and I am not them. Is this a misery competition? Who is more miserable than the others will gain points? What can I do if I get extra points? I am not in their lives, they are not in my life, why do I care how miserable others are? They are sad about theirs, I am not happy about mine. I went to the United States just because I wanted to go, what is goodbye to the pain ah? If you want to see the starlight, then look at it, and remember because of that bastard, I was so angry and ran , and saw the ugly starlight, suddenly I wanted to see it again, so I went. I just did what I wanted to do, it’s that simple. Don’t try to sentimentalize me with the philosophy taught by gym teachers. Things that would make me sad, I don’t want to do. That’s just it.”

Gu Yingjie was stunned, she said it fiercely, and actually, it seems quite reasonable.

“Do not say what love ah, life ah, hurt ah, actually you are also a superficial womanizer, don’t pretend to be serious. You like to fall in love, and I’m afraid of falling in love, so I don’t want to fall in love with you. That’s it.”

Gu Yingjie was choked again and could not say anything for a long time. Wait, why is it that he and she are both superficial, while she is a “rich white girl”, the term given to him is “womanizer”, shouldn’t he be “rich and handsome”? Okay, okay, that’s not the point.

Gu Yingjie fixed his mind, and finally found the right focus: “You can’t never fall in love, how old you are, you always have to have a boyfriend, will always need to get married and have children. It’s not me it will be someone else. In that case ……”

He didn’t finish before she cut him off, she understood what he was going to say. “I don’t feel that way about anyone else, so it can’t be you.”

She said it without thinking, but he understood it.

There’s no feeling, so you won’t be hurt. Not in love with that man, so do not have the mood to suspect him, and would not care. This way the two people can live in peace and respect each other.

Gu Yingjie opened his mouth, still want to say something. But his mind is now empty, suddenly become stupid, he does not know what to say. What she wants is actually that kind of relationship and life? His heart aches.

Heartache, but unable to say it. She is sharp-tongued, defeated him, but also made a mess of herself. He seemed to see her face with a sweet smile with someone embraced her and they’re dancing together, incredibly cheerful and arrogant, but the heart is pale and cold.

This made him very angry, very angry.

For a long time, Gu Yingjie found his voice, “So, you deliberately asked me out to tell me that you like me, but don’t want to have a relationship with me and don’t meet with me again?”

Qin Yufei nodded, paused but then said, “There’s one more thing.”

“And?” Gu Yingjie laughed coldly. Really got a belly full of fire from this woman.

“If that’s all, then there’s really no need to ask you out specifically to tell you. But there are some things that I really need to say to be clear, otherwise, I really can’t help it. Gu Yingjie, I really have tried before.” Qin Yufei squeezed her hands, “I have tried, Gu Yingjie.”

Thinking of her not returning text messages or calling and not giving him a good attitude, Gu Yingjie sneered again, “I know, you did try very hard.”

“It’s not enough.” Qin Yufei’s voice got a little choked up, the way he sneered at her made her heart feel bad. But she still had to finish her sentence. “Gu Yingjie, let’s delete each other’s phone numbers from our phones, so that we really won’t be in touch anymore.”

So cruel? Gu Yingjie glared at her.

Qin Yufei was glared by him and her eyes slowly turned red. “Let’s delete it, okay?”

Her tone was soft, her look was pitiful, and she was different from her arrogant and domineering look just now. This was the first time she faced him with such a low profile, as if she was begging him.

Gu Yingjie did not say anything and was still glaring at her.

“I… I’ll delete mine first.” Qin Yufei took out her own phone, pulled up his number in front of him, stared down at the number for a second, and then, tapped delete.

His name and number disappeared.

Qin Yufei’s heart ached for a moment, she thought it would be a simple matter. It was indeed easy, just pressing a button, a super simple action. But when it came to pressing it, she found it a little tough. Fortunately, she accomplished it.

Qin Yufei stared at the phone screen and suddenly thought that there were still two text messages lying inside the draft text message box in her phone that had not been sent.

“Gu Yingjie you took too much to eat my stomach hurts.” “Gu Yingjie I have a stomachache.”

Qin Yufei don’t know why, tears suddenly fell down.

Gu Yingjie was dumbfounded, actually cried?!

“It’s really bad for you to be like this.” Gu Yingjie drew a tissue to wipe her tears, she looked away and drew a tissue herself.

Gu Yingjie withdrew his hand, not wanting to grant her this unreasonable request, not at all. Such a naive and boring request, childish and ridiculous, thought it was a child hosting a family dinner? What is this, a meal to set a number deletion ceremony,  the breakup education?

But she lifted her eyes to look at him, her eyes were red, her nose was red, and her eyes contained tears.

She actually cried in front of him for this!

He took out his cell phone and slapped it in front of her with a heavy “pop”: “Delete it yourself!”

Qin Yufei took the phone, wiped away tears, really began to look up the number, really deleted it. After deleting, silently put the phone gently in front of him.

“Satisfied?” He asked her.

She nodded her head and sniffed her nose.

“Bye!” He got up, took the phone and left. Just no more texting and calling her, just no more contacting and no more meeting, who’s care? He is so womanizing, he has a bunch and a bunch of girlfriends, will he lack a girlfriend?

Gu Yingjie  self-mocking while striding out.

Out of the restaurant door, he turned back, through the floor to ceiling glass to meet the eyes of Qin Yufei. Just now it was in this position, he also looked at her like this, he felt affection for her, and now, still in this position, he can only see her one last time?!

All the things related to her all flashed in his mind this second. They quarreled, he did not like her, she lost her temper, they drank a lot and talked a lot, then accidentally got into bed, she took him to see the starlight, she told him her story, someone asked her to dance, she smiled at him proudly. She avoided him, gave him an attitude, she dropped her plate and hid behind him, she said Gu Yingjie I want to eat ketchup ……

“Gu Yingjie, I think I like you a lot.”

Like him, so it can’t be him, her boyfriend can’t be him, her husband can’t be him, her child’s father can’t be him because she’s afraid to fall in love!

F*ck!

Gu Yingjie looked at Qin Yufei and saw the look in her eyes, yes, she looked at him with such eyes. She was right, she did like him, she liked him very, very much.

Gu Yingjie snapped back and walked into the restaurant again, walking up to Qin Yufei.

Qin Yufei was surprised that he had returned, she was at a loss for words and tilted her neck to stare at him blankly.

He leaned down, nose to nose with her, and said viciously, “Qin Yufei, this time I’ll do as you say. However, the next time we meet again, if you still love me and still look at me with such eyes, then you must be my girlfriend!!!”

Whatever her reason, screw her fear of falling in love, screw the womanizer. If you like each other, you have to be together! It’s natural and righteous! It’s the right thing to do! Everything else is shit!

After he finished, without waiting for her reaction, he turned around and walked away.

This time, without looking back, he walked out of the restaurant, walked to the parking lot, unlocked the car and left.

He gave her a chance, just this once.

Qin Yufei sat frozen in the restaurant, completely dumbfounded.