Chapter 87

Xu Qichen stood in the same place, this familiar and strange land seemed to hold his legs firmly, so that he could not step out. He can only look at the man sitting on the bus stop chair, looking at his black and white eyes.

Xia Zhixu just said that he did all this just to feel the feeling of being liked by himself.

What does that mean?

The fall of the truth came so suddenly that Xu Qichen almost lost his most basic judgment ability.

He just thought his brain was in a mess and didn't know what was going on.

I'm not dreaming.

"I don't understand..." Xu Qichen frowned and his voice was weak.

"I know you don't understand." Xia Zhixu smiles and points to his oblique front, "when I first saw you, you stood there. To tell you the truth, I was so stupid when I was a child. Now when I look back, I fell in love with you at the first sight, even I don't know. When I was a child, I accepted the basic law of heterosexual attraction, which made me think that I just wanted to be friends with you when I was excited. "

Xu Qichen's heart moved, and his chest seemed to be a dry well for a long time. Suddenly, the sound of running water came out.

What he was saying was completely beyond his comprehension.

At first glance, I fell in love with

Joy seems to be separated from his consciousness, they somehow occupied his body, filled with every cell, when he did not respond, he fell into the mood.

But how could it be?

It's something he can't even think about.

"Also in this place, you said, you don't want to be friends with me anymore." Xia Zhixu took a deep breath, as if trying to come out of the painful memories, "in fact, do you know? I've thought about that for a long time. Every minute I'm with you, I'm struggling. Do you want to say it? Just say it. But I'm too timid. I'm afraid you'll run away if I make a mistake. "

He bowed his head and pretended to be relaxed. "I think, as long as I don't expose this layer of paper and rot those words in my stomach, I can at least occupy a more intimate identity, accompany you all the time, go to college with you, watch you realize your dream, find someone you like, get married, have children, and I can drive to pick up your children for you when you are busy leave school. That's what I thought

Xu Qichen's fingers began to shake uncontrollably.

Xia Zhixu's voice choked, "I can really hold back, I can only be friends."

As long as you can stay by your side, it doesn't matter who you are.

I'm not that greedy.

"But God didn't even give me such a hope. He ruined everything while I was away." He wiped his face, stood up and walked to Xu Qichen, only a step away.

He gave him a smile, just like when he was young, his little tiger teeth were shining in the sun.

His tone was solemn.

"I'm 25 years old. Up to now, two fifths of my life has been spent on liking you. Rounding off, it's half my life. Originally, I was not prepared to tell you these words. I didn't want to disturb your life. But since I met you at the last classmate party and talked to you for a while, I couldn't sleep all night. Even if I was too tired to sleep, it was all you in my dream. " He laughed at himself, "I'm afraid that if I go on like this, I'll get some disease."

Looking at Xia Zhixu in front of him, Xu Qichen's heart seems to have been gripped, which is painful.

He never thought that Xia Zhixu, whom everyone looked up to, would become like this for him.

"People always say that time can cure everything. That's what people advise me."

He dropped his eyes and shook his head, "but I don't think, if so, he is also a quack. He gave me the wrong medicine, which made me more and more helpless. Later, I thought that maybe the reason why I became like this was that I never got it, because I was unwilling. So I wanted to borrow your consciousness and use these virtual characters to approach you for more than ten minutes to feel the feeling of falling in love with you. Even if it's fake, even if you just do tasks, it's enough. When I get what I want, I can come out. "

"But I was wrong." His voice is getting lower and lower, and the disguised ease is beginning to rout. "It's wrong from the beginning. People are greedy. They want a second time when they get one. They don't want to end it. They're not even satisfied with having you only in the virtual world."

"I finally understand that I've been suffering for so many years. It's not because I didn't get you that I'm not reconciled. It's because you like me, and I just want to be with you. I..."

He raised his head and looked at Xu Qichen.

"I love you."

Finally, he said what he wanted to say for ten years. Xia Zhixu thought he would feel relieved.

But now he found out that he didn't feel his wish had been fulfilled. Instead, he began to feel uneasy, as if he was still looking forward to something. After all, in so many virtual worlds, he got a lot more than he imagined.In case

In case.

Xu Qichen suddenly lowered his head and began to laugh.

I can't stop laughing.

Xia Zhixu has some doubts. Is what he just said funny.

The uneasy mood became more and more intense.

"We are a pair of idiots."

Deaf and blind, still so stubborn.

Groping in the dark for so many years, looking for the person is clearly each other.

Xu Qichen approached half a step.

There was a lump in his voice.

"Hold me."

Xia Zhi Xu Leng in situ, everything is beyond his expectations.

Is that just in case, really there?

Xu Qichen raised his head and looked into his wet eyes. He stretched out his hand and pulled Xia Zhixu's arms.

"Hold me."

Xia Zhixu, who has been holding back the flood of emotion, holds him in his arms. He has a lot of words to say, but they are all blocked in his throat and can't speak.

Do you like me, too?

Do you really like me?

How can you like me

He buried his head in Xu Qichen's neck.

Xu Qichen's hand trembled slightly and hugged Xia Zhixu's back. He sucked his nose and his voice was soft.

"You should not know that Lin ran, Mu Yao, song yuanyan and Su Lin are all based on you. I have no love experience and can't write a good love story. The only thing I can refer to is my feelings for you. However, I thought that I would never be able to do it in my life, so the ending of every story was so miserable that I was cheated into this ghost system by you and felt that it was the punishment given to me by the readers. "

Feeling that the body of the person who hugged him was stiff, Xu Qichen rubbed his neck, "rounding, I only loved one person in half my life."

His breath lingered gently around his side neck, like some kind of comfort.

"His name is Xia Zhixu."

Xia Zhixu's brain has a moment of blank.

It never occurred to him that what he had been playing carefully was himself.

"Hey, I didn't cry. Why are you crying?" Xu Qichen patted him on the back and chuckled, "I didn't tell you if I knew."

I'm 25 years old and I can cry.

Xia Zhixu rubbed his shoulder, "what you said never counts."

What a grudge. Xu Qichen pushed him, "then you should have never heard of it."

"It's impossible. If you don't admit it, I'll ask 0901 to tune out the video for you until you admit it." He laughed and showed his teeth. "When you go back, you have to tell me again."

This fool, crying and laughing.

Xu Qichen's ears were a little hot. He lowered his head and laughed awkwardly.

Suddenly found himself under the collar, hiding a beginning is the summer word of the chest tag.

Turn over the neckline, and there are three words on the name plate.

Xia Zhixu.

"This..."

"This is my last bit of selfishness." Xia Zhixu covered his name plate and laughed a little embarrassed, "don't look." Then he took his hand and said, "before going back, can you accompany me to a place?"

"Where to?"

Xia Zhixu smiles and doesn't speak. He just leads him into the campus where countless memories are stored.

There is no one here. They don't have to worry about anyone's eyes or hide. Instead, they hold each other's hands frankly, put down their bad feelings and uneasiness, and re accept this place that has been sealed in their hearts for a long time.

"You made all this?" Xu Qichen looked at Yinglin near the entrance to the school, and marble steps, each of which coincided with his memory, "it's amazing."

"I came back many times, many places are different." Xia Zhixu sighed, "so I can only rely on my memory to restore."

Xu Qichen never went back to Jingjian.

Although he knew that after he left, there were many clarification posts on the bar, and many people came forward to help him explain, the experience of that month made him unable to summon up the courage to return to the place that had given him a lot of warmth.

Unconsciously, Xia Zhixu took him downstairs to the teaching building. He said with a smile, "Xu Qichen, we have to go back to class."

He seemed to be waiting for something, standing in the same place, after a few seconds, he yelled, "0901, hurry up."

0901 voice suddenly appeared: "sorry, the audio just failed, I repaired it."

"Cut the crap..." Xia Zhixu cleared his throat and repeated, "classmate Xu Qichen, we want to..."

The bell of the class suddenly rang, so loud that it completely covered his half sentence.Xu Qichen was amused by him and couldn't stand up. "I can't see that you are still a formalist."

Xia Zhi and Xu Qiang tried to clean up this stupid AI's heart. "We'll calculate this later..." He took Xu Qichen's hand and led him to the fourth floor.

Two people were standing in front of the classroom door at the end of the stairs.

Looking up, the door sign of the classroom says class 13, grade one of senior high school.

He put his hand on Xu Qichen's shoulder and pushed him to the fifth row of the four groups he once sat in. "Classmate, this is your seat. Please sit down."

Xu Qichen sat down obediently, looked up with a smile, saw him go to the podium, cleared his throat, and looked under the stands with his eyes, as if he were really full of students.

"Hello everyone, my name is Xia Zhixu." He turned and wrote down his name on the blackboard.

"Although my name is not as elegant as Xu Qichen's, there is a saying about it." He smiled as like as two peas, and turned around and took chalk.

Stroke by stroke, seriously in Xia Zhixu next to the three words, wrote the other three words.

"Xia is Xia who knows Xu, Xu is Xu Qichen's Xu."

The dust floating in the air outlined the shape of light, and the light coming straight from a corner of the window brightened his brilliant face inch by inch.

"That's my name."

It's also my destiny.

I am Xia Zhixu. One day, I will meet you and know you.

I have you.

Xu Qichen tilted his head, staring at Xia Zhixu's eyes, "who allows you to introduce yourself like this, Xu Qichen doesn't agree."

Xia Zhixu came down from the platform, patted the chalk dust on his hands, and sighed falsely, "Alas, you've really changed. If you did, you would not dare to look at me."

Then he sat behind Xu Qichen.

Every day, he looked at the man in front of him, watching his shoulder blades peeping out from under his white shirt, like butterfly wings, stirring his heart.

Xu Qichen was also a little embarrassed. He didn't look back. Just like he did ten years ago, he clearly tied his heart to the back seat, but he didn't dare to look back easily.

His voice came from behind, "classmate Xu Qichen, you are so good, so excellent, all over the body are good, there is a little bad."

Xu Qichen chuckled and did not speak.

"Why don't you ask me what's wrong?" Xia Zhixu pinched his back neck with a smile, "not modest at all."

"What's wrong, then?"

See Xu Qichen handed his steps, Xia Zhixu immediately said with a smile, "lack of a boyfriend."

What. Xu Qichen half lowered his head and his ears were hot.

Like a middle school student.

Xia Zhixu cleared his throat and said seriously, "classmate Xu Qichen, would you like me to be your boyfriend?"

Xu Qichen stares at a small gap on the edge of the table.

"I'm serious."

My heart beat so carelessly that I missed a beat.

"If you want, turn around and look at me."

The dazzling green window is the instigation of summer cicadas.

Xu Qichen took a deep breath and turned his head.

But he was half propped up on the desk behind him.

Surprised to let him open his eyes, see his near eyelashes slightly tremble, like a brush opened the curtain, revealing that pair of deep black pupil.

He has tried many kisses with this man under different skins, with soft rubbing and warm blending.

But never before has it throbbed like this.

Just the soft touch of his lips, with a little unexpected, but his heart seemed to be taken away by him.

Xia Zhi Xu Song opened him and gave him a hug across the desk.

"This first kiss, ten years late to send out." He bowed his head and kissed Xu Qichen in the ear, "but I don't feel sorry at all. Even if you are 50 years late, you are my first love

Xu Qichen's eyes were sour, so he had to smile to cover up, "it's clearly your secret love."

"You're in secret love, too." Xia Zhi Xu loosened his hands and flicked Xu Qichen's forehead. "They are all cowards. Don't tell anyone."

Childish. The corners of Xu Qichen's mouth kept rising.

Although they really missed a lot, how could they know if it wasn't for fate and if they didn't separate these years.

It turns out that I really have to be you.

"Go back." Xu Qichen looked at his eyes, amber pupil flashing light, "let the past Xia Zhixu and Xu Qichen end here."

He stretched out his hand, gently stroked Xia Zhixu's face, from his eyes, slowly sliding to the mandibular line.

"I want to hold the real you."Xia Zhixu grabs his hand and nods.

"OK, let's go back."

In an instant, the scene around him melted into tiny dots of light. Xu Qichen closed his eyes. He felt that he was probably infected by Xia Zhixu. He was worried about gain and loss. He even felt a little scared at this moment.

Will it be? All this is just a dream.

0901 voice suddenly appeared, "stripping the subject of consciousness, the system is closed."

There was a short electric sound in my ear, only three times.

Xu Qichen felt some pain in his head. He raised his head and found that his workbench was in front of him. Suddenly, his eyes were exposed to strong light. He was not used to it.

He was trying to rub his eyes, but found that he was still wearing his new glasses. He took off his glasses and looked down carefully. Then he found that there was a small metal disc on the leg of the metal mirror.

The voice of 0901 suddenly came from his ear. Xu Qichen was startled to find that he was wearing the earphone that came with glasses.

"Mr. Xu, please come downstairs."

Downstairs?

Xu Qichen stood up suspiciously, shook his head, "the system is shut down, do I still want to listen to your command?"

0901 tone calmly replied: "please don't blame me, I am also under command."

Pretty good at throwing the pot.

Xu Qichen opened the door, spring night, the temperature is not too high, he wrapped his coat, put the key press the elevator.

"Will you always be in the headset?"

0901 answer: "Mr. Xu, I will have a new form in the future. Of course, the past data will be kept for backup."

Xu Qichen coughed and said, "I hope you can destroy some backup."

"I'm sorry, Mr. Xu. As you know, I don't have such authority."

Ding, the elevator door is opened. Xu Qichen went out and asked, "what are you doing to get me down here? It's four or five o'clock in the morning. It's scary..."

Before he finished speaking, a tall figure appeared in front of him. Step by step, he came out of the dark shadow of the tree. He had the same earphone hanging around his neck.

Xu Qichen Leng in situ, "how can you be here?"

How did he get here so late?

Xia Zhixu came over and stood in front of Xu Qichen, "it's my first time to use this system. I'm afraid of any accident, so I rented a house in your community in advance."

He took off Xu Qichen's earphone and touched his ear, "is it cold?"

The cool fingertips gently touched the hot ears. The real exchange of body temperature gave him a wonderful psychological effect. He felt his nerves tense. Xu Qichen shakes his head. Mingming has experienced so much in the virtual world together, and has done all the things that should be done and shouldn't be done. However, when the real person stands in front of him, he still feels embarrassed.

"Do you want to go up Have a cup of coffee or something? "

Xia Zhixu laughs, "we look like lovers who just started dating."

"Don't go up." Xu Qichen's heart began to burn, "then you come..."

What did you come to me for?

Or, what should we do now?

God. He really felt like he was 15 years old now. He didn't know anything and he was confused about everything.

Xia Zhixu grabs his hand and drags him to run as before. Xu Qichen seems to be used to it, so he pulls him until he gets into the car.

"Where are you going?"

Xia Zhixu started the car and said, "go to a place I dream of taking you to."

Xu Qichen looked at him suspiciously, but Xia Zhixu didn't go on. He just grabbed his hand silently, put it on his lips, and kissed his fingers and the back of his hand.

And then across the handbrake, side past.

Xu Qichen closed his eyes.

But found that things are not what he thought, Xia Zhixu is close to himself, head down, seriously help him fasten his seat belt.

"All right."

Xu Qichen's Adam's Apple moved. He felt extremely embarrassed for his mistake just now. The car slowly drove out of the community. Xia Zhixu's hand still grasped him, and the pulp of his thumb gently rubbed his knuckles.

Xu Qichen pretends to be sleepy and wants to use sleep to cover his heart palpitation. Xia Zhixu sees his head askew in the past and helps him lower the back. Originally, he pretended, but before he entered the system, Xu Qichen stayed up late. As soon as he relaxed, he felt very sleepy. He pretended that he really went to sleep.

It seems that he didn't sleep for a long time, but he was awakened by Xia Zhixu. Xia Zhixu's hand gently touched his face and whispered his name. Xu Qichen subconsciously grasped his hand and opened his eyes difficultly.

"Have you arrived yet?"Xu Qichen didn't get enough sleep. He was not very happy. He didn't know that Xia Zhixu had to run around with him when he just came back. He had to lead him to where he was.

Xia Zhixu saw that he was not awake. He helped his body up and sat down. He stood beside the car, held him and gently touched his back. Xu Qichen put his head on his stomach, hummed twice, and soon pushed him away.

"What's the matter?"

Xu Qichen rubbed his eyes, "your stomach is tough and uncomfortable."

Xia Zhixu laughed, "this is my abdominal muscle, not my stomach. Well, we have to go up. " Then he took a wool hat from the back seat of the car and put it on Xu Qichen's head. He pulled the edge for him and had his hair cut. "I just woke up and couldn't blow. It's easy to have a headache." After finishing the hat, Xia Zhixu gave him a kiss on his forehead across the wool. "Let's go."

Xu Qichen's eyes are not as good as before. This time he went out in a hurry, didn't take his glasses, and looked at everything vaguely. It was even more obvious when he just woke up. He could only let Xia Zhixu lead him to an elevator door.

"Where are we going?"

"You'll see in a moment."

Soon, the elevator arrived. Xia Zhixu pulls him to a door. Xu Qichen has some doubts and looks at him. But Xia Zhixu says to him with a smile, "ring the doorbell."

Who are you visiting?

"I thought it was your home..." Xu Qichen raised his hand and rang the doorbell.

Suddenly found that his ring finger more than a ring.

He looked at it stupidly, thinking it was his own blindness.

"It's my home." Xia Zhi, Xu Xiaodao.

In the door came a middle-aged woman's voice, "so early in the morning, who is it?"

"Mom, it's me. Open the door."

Mom

Xu Qichen turned the ring on his hand and blinked.

And then I wake up.

Mom???