Chapter 353

"I --"

"You think! It's also your feelings for so many years. She's very poor now. As a woman, she can't give birth normally. I also deeply remember your decision to commit suicide. It's precisely because she would rather whisper than tell you about her pregnancy and almost lost her life, so you feel more guilty when you think of these. I also admire Yao Meng's courage and use her own courage Life is a bet to keep you, and I don't want to drag you with guilt. She loves you very much. Qin Yizhao, if she tells you everything when she commits suicide, will you turn back? "

"Things have passed, and the past can't imagine everything with false Tathagata!" Qin Yizhao's decibel increased, but to Zhu Ruiyan, everything is so empty and has no courage to support.

"And between you, because she stayed for three years and did so many things for her, maybe I didn't show up. Maybe a few months ago, she returned home to find you. As long as she was willing to sacrifice a little, maybe you will get back together!"

"No, it's not like this!" Qin Yizhao looked like a wounded animal at this time. "Yanyan, the end is the end. You can't think of me like this!"

"I don't want to think of you like that?" Zhu Ruiyan laughed at herself. "You know, Yizhao, you dreamed last night. You shouted the name of Yaomeng. Just last night, I didn't want to mention these things because I was waiting for you. I was waiting for you to say these things!"

"My name is Yaomeng?" Qin Yizhao's sleep state is really bad recently, because some scenes always flow out of his mind, but he can't control dreaming. When he heard Zhu Ruiyan say to himself, for a moment, he felt that he was really an asshole and he was ashamed of Zhu Ruiyan!

Zhu Ruiyan continued to talk about her, ignoring Qin Yizhao: "Yizhao, you don't have to be angry, you don't have to feel sorry for me, and you don't have to worry about my body. I'm really not as fragile and vulnerable as you think. I thought that as long as we love each other, we can face all accidents, but I forget that the deeper we love each other, the more we can't tolerate any sand. The sand in your heart is too big for you to take out Come out, so you choose to escape, but the guilt is always in your heart. If I don't know these things, I can still live happily with you, but I know. I can't hold this sand in my heart. It makes me very uncomfortable and my heart hurts! "

"No, Yan Yan, it's just a kind of guilt, it's guilt!" Qin Yizhao insisted.

"But you know, this kind of guilt will become the fuse before us, because you have brought your emotions into our lives, and I can't stand your emotions. You don't have feelings for her, but you've been running away and unwilling to admit it. You've been in love for so many years, how can you not have a souvenir of love, don't you? The reason why you're so angry about this You are angry with me because you are helpless and angry. Without me, you can openly make up for your guilt for her and even be responsible for her. It is because of my existence that you can't do anything, because you don't want to hurt me, and you don't want to be a heartless man! "

"Do you think so?" he asked in a rhetorical tone, his voice trembling involuntarily, wrapped in a layer of imperceptible fear, "I am such a person in your heart? Is such a person not trustworthy? Is my feelings so weak?"

"It's not that you don't deserve my trust!" Zhu Ruiyan shook her head, "Qin Yizhao, I know very well in my heart that you have no love for her as you did in the beginning. If you can count the score, you love me nine points now, but you still keep this love for her. Why is it one point? It is because of the guilt in your heart, and this guilt will always exist. If you find that I am not what you imagined, what do you think of Yao dream This debt will only get deeper and deeper. When we pass the hot love period, you will only be disappointed with me, and the contradiction between us will get deeper and deeper. Finally, we may go our separate ways! "

"Yan Yan, you have no sense of security!"

"Probably! If she didn't have the problem of ectopic pregnancy ligation now, your feelings would have passed, but now we have to face all the things of Yaomeng ligation. I think this is the test of God's feelings for you and me. You are very guilty, but as for me, to tell the truth, I really mind you being with me with guilt for others In fact, I know you're not wrong, but I can't let go of it. We've only been together for more than a year, but we've experienced too many things. Even so, there are still many things we need to run in. In the past, I've been patient with your bullying towards me. In fact, we didn't violate each other's bottom line, but today, your guilt about Yao Meng happened to touch me I have violated my bottom line, but the love I want is pure without any defects. I need you to trust and be honest with me 100%, but you have reserved one point for me. Maybe this point is not enough to prove anything in your opinion, and you may think it is deserved, but this is my bottom line for love. Just like you accused me of eavesdropping today, I do eavesdrop But on the other hand, if I didn't eavesdrop, would you tell me all this? "

"Yes!" he nodded.

Zhu Ruiyan smiled: "are you going to tell me for a while? When I'm well, you're telling me, aren't you?"

"Yes!" Qin Yizhao nodded. "I really hesitated. Should I tell you, but I don't love her. I know there is only guilt after this, and I can't help myself not to feel guilty. I don't want to escape this responsibility!"

"You say Qin Yizhao is just guilty, not love. You don't want to escape, but I see only four words in your eyes. You're not happy!"

"How can you make me happy after all kinds of trivial things?"

"Then you're upset because of you!"

"I --"

"You know, because you have too many secrets in your heart, you will naturally become very upset!"

"Yan Yan, how did you become like this?" now Zhu Ruiyan stands in front of Qin Yizhao like a stranger. He misses the gentle Zhu Ruiyan at the beginning. At this time, Zhu Ruiyan really says everything aggressively.

The smile returned to Zhu Ruiyan's cheek again. Zhu Ruiyan said in a deep voice: "You're right! After all, your feelings still come first, your feelings come first, and we met later. Do you remember that I asked you to leave Yao Meng's group photo with you? Qin Yizhao, I didn't care, because I thought you had nothing, but when I heard you say you're guilty, I found that I don't mind. In fact, I mind very much! I think of you and her In the past, I would be sad. At first, you and my parents, and now I go to Yaomeng. Your ex girlfriend is ligated because of you. How can we cross these gaps? I now understand and understand why your mother and Tong Meng are so psychologically distorted, because women can't tolerate sand in their feelings and can't be generous! "

"Yeon Yeon!"

"Will you listen to me? Since you want to feel guilty all the time, I'll stay with you. I don't want to end our marriage so hastily. I can't change anything. Just in the future, we all control our feelings and don't have any intimate dissolution. I won't say divorce or break up. I know how long Yaomeng will be happy on that happy day How long you don't feel guilty and how long we are happy. If she is not happy, we won't be as close as before. Can you accept it? It's the best responsibility for you and me, Yao Meng! There's nothing else I can do. Anything involving the love of two people can be forgiven generously. Only such things, I want love to be pure. If not, we'll be quiet Wait, wait until it's over, you can feel guilty, and I'll feel guilty with you, but you can't be ambiguous with her. That's all I can do. I can't be generous. I don't blame you, but I can't let go. I'm sorry, I'm a woman with a small belly and Chicken Intestines! "

"Yan Yan -" Zhu Ruiyan's words made Qin Yizhao feel more guilty about her.

Qin Yizhao stepped forward and walked towards Zhu Ruiyan step by step.

He walked forward, and Zhu Ruiyan took another step back: "I made it very clear, Yizhao, I think you should understand what I said. I hope you can respect my decision!"

"No more intimacy? I'm really speechless. I don't know whether this is punishing me or you!" Qin Yizhao said word by word.

Zhu Ruiyan took a deep breath and said, "Qin Yizhao, I think we should all calm down and give each other a chance to breathe!"

He still insisted on approaching her. This feeling made Zhu Ruiyan very uncomfortable.

She even heard her heart break.

"I know I am very calm now, and you are the one who is not calm!" Qin Yizhao said. Finally, he stopped at a distance of 30 cm from her.

"Qin Yizhao, don't you think it's funny? Who isn't calm? I haven't been angry from beginning to end. You've been fluctuating decibels. Are you still the mature and steady Qin Yizhao?" she maintained an unprecedented calm, but he has been distorted by him. This man makes her cry and laugh.

"Yan Yan, sometimes I really want to strangle you!" he said carelessly, in a lazy tone. In fact, he was too angry to say a word.

"All right!" said Zhu Ruiyan: "I want to tell you, Qin Yizhao, women are not what your men think. You can hide your guilt and stay with me, but as a woman, I can't accept it! Therefore, we all pay equal price for this guilt. We'll wait for her to find happiness together. If you can't wait, go to Yaomeng. You can make up for it yourself After all, I can do it for you! "

She clasped her hands.

Qin Yizhao was stunned. After a while, the light in his eyes darkened and his face sank.