Chapter 169

In the ward, it was as quiet as death.

She looked out of the window. There were some birds chirping on the windowsill, but there was no life in her eyes.

"I'll pour you a glass of water, and you can drink some water." He said, she didn't answer, but when he brought the water to her, she hit the bottle on the ground with a wave of her hand, and the water flowed all over the floor.

"Don't think too much, when you are well, go home --" he tried to say something to ease her, but she closed her eyes.

Fei an Chen and Fang Yiru looked through the glass window at the scene in the ward, very worried.

"How do I feel like something's going to happen to me!" Fang Yiru said uneasily.

"It's going to be okay, it won't be!" Fei Anchen patted his wife on the shoulder and comforted him.

She woke up, but he couldn't say anything. He didn't know what to do. He just waited quietly.

After more than ten minutes, she asked, "you did that, didn't you? It was you that night, wasn't it? "

He was speechless.

"Why don't you tell me? Why not? Do you think it's interesting? "

"No, I don't know -" he wanted to explain, but his language was so pale and powerless.

She closed her eyes and said, "I don't want to see you again!"

"Xu Shiyuan -" he took her hand and she shook off.

"You have played enough games, Wang Zixuan, you go! I don't want to see you again She turned to look out of the window, but everything out of the window was so hazy.

"Xu Shiyuan, I love you, please don't, don't drive me like this -" he pleaded.

"I don't want to see you again, I don't want to hear another word from you!" Her tone of voice was so resolute that there was no room for relaxation.

At this time, the family came.

The people were overjoyed, but the poetess did not have the strength and spirit to speak.

"Just wake up, wake up!" Wang mofeng said to Fei an Chen, "where is the doctor? Have you seen it? Does it matter? "

Fei an Chen then repeated the doctor's words, and the people were relieved.

At this time, facing so many people in front of her, Shiyuan didn't know what she should think. She didn't know what was wrong with her life? That night changed too much. What have you been doing in the past ten years? The murderer who has been looking for is actually his pillow man, but he still fell in love with him and had children with him?

What's going on?

She now hopes that the time can go back to that night, she can go home earlier, don't drink the drink with psychedelic drugs, don't meet Wang Zixuan, don't be with him. If that's the case, will you be happy a lot? Will there not be so much pain and sadness?

Life is so ironic! She didn't know whether her life was a tragedy or a comedy or a farce? In sadness and joy, the performance is such a farce!

She didn't listen to what others said. As she closed her eyes, the door of her heart closed heavily.

Everyone was afraid to affect her rest, so they all went out and left Wang Zixuan alone to guard her side.

How to face such a murderer who ruined his life? She doesn't know.

He was once so deeply in love and hurt so much that today -

he sat alone in the outer room, facing her bed, so that she could be seen at any time, but she did not have to see him.

Her reaction, to some extent, was in his expectation. Because he still knows her. If not, how could he have concealed her for so many years? But it was because he knew too well that he was so afraid that she would leave.

Without children, without the ties that can connect with their feelings, can he still keep her?

In the afternoon, Ding Haonan came and brought her a bunch of dark blue roses. It was more blue than the color of the sea. It was the kind she gave him at that time. Seeing Wang Zixuan sitting outside, Ding Haonan sat with him for a while, but they didn't say a word.

After a long time, Ding Haonan asked, "it hurt you that day!" Wang Zixuan shook his head with a bitter smile.

"Go home and have a rest! It's been several days, and you can't make it. Let me take care of you for a few hours today, and you'll come back in the evening! What about? She needs someone to talk to now, and you're obviously not the right person! " Ding Haonan patted Wang Zixuan on the shoulder and said, "don't worry, I'll listen for you. When she's relieved, it will be Xu Shiyuan who quarrels with you!"

Wang Zixuan looked at her on the doctor's bed and said, "thank you, Haonan!"

"It's OK!" Ding Haonan said with a smile that they walked to the hospital bed together.

"Hey, look what I brought you?" Ding Haonan took the flowers out from behind, said with a smile, and then put them into the vase for her.

Wang Zixuan said to her, "you sit down for a while. I'll go home and come back in the evening." He wanted to kiss her on the forehead before going, but she turned her face, and he left like that."Very strong! How brave you are Ding Haonan moved a chair and sat down beside her.

"You know, don't you?" She asked, and he nodded.

Silence for a while, Ding Haonan asked, "what are you going to do?"

She sighed and said, "I want a divorce!"

He was stunned at first, and then said with a smile, "don't talk nonsense! Divorce is not a casual thing to say. You think it's a family game. " However, looking at her serious eyes, he asked, "do you think clearly?" She nodded heavily.

"Why?" He asked.

"From that summer on, my time seemed to have stopped completely. I don't know if I'm afraid or sorry. I never dare to tell anyone about it, even my best friend.

Do you know how many nights that scene appeared in my dreams? Every time I wake up, I sit up crying, and I don't know how long it will take in the bathroom.

I hate that dream, I hate that person. I don't want to say what my life would have been like without that. I just know what I've become after that.

I can't accept the confession of someone I like. My life seems to be disrupted. Wang Zixuan and I met for many years, just want to face the past.

I wanted to find the person that night, but I didn't know anything. I found out that it was Wang Zixuan, the one I love the most. You tell me, how should I face Wang Zixuan? Can I take it that it didn't happen? " She said stop and stop, as if to pour out all her years of depression.

Ding Haonan listened and was silent.

After a long time, he said, "if it was not Zixuan, but someone else, what would you think?"

He looked at her and said, "Zixuan has made a mistake. I don't want to defend him. I understand your mood and your pain for so many years. But what if it wasn't Zixuan but someone else? "

He pauses for a moment and says, "I hate that kind of man who rapes girls, so does Zixuan. Although I don't know why he chose to be with you at the beginning, maybe like you, he just wanted to indulge himself, but, I think, in the face of you, his mood must not be relaxed. Especially when he's in love with you. "

She was silent.

"Shiyuan, I want to tell you that I am very sad that you have experienced such a tragic event; I admire you for your efforts to come out of such a shadow and have a healthy and happy heart for so many years. No child, the pain is not only you, but also Zixuan, as well as all of us.

However, after all, life is your own experience, no matter how hard life is, only you can bear it. Zixuan he loves you, you also love him. No matter what your marriage is, it is a fact that you love each other. In this case, why not give everyone a time and space to think calmly? "

"I'm not you, I'm not Zixuan, I can't experience your feelings personally. I just say these words as a bystander, as a friend of the two of you.

So if you want to leave him, whether it's separation or divorce, I won't comment. If you make up your mind, I will support you! Just, I don't want you to give up your feelings, give up your marriage. Xu Shiyuan I know is a strong and rational girl

He finished and looked at Shiyuan quietly.

It was so quiet in the ward that the nurse came in to change her liquid and went out.

"Don't you think I should get divorced?" Asked Shiyuan.

"The road of life is only a one-way street." He said.

She said with a faint smile: "in fact, after sleeping these days, I wake up and find that my head is much clearer." He looked at her and listened to her.

"In the past, I was always clinging to that night, imagining the reverse of time and dreaming of another life. However, you are right, life is just a one-way street, only to go in one direction, whether it is right or wrong, can only keep going, while walking and thinking. Perhaps, knowing the truth of the past, on the contrary, liberates me. I don't have to be persistent, I don't have to fantasize

"In the past, I always fell in love with him, doubting myself, feeling uneasy, worrying about gains and losses. But later, I don't want to let myself feel troubled by such feelings. I don't want to think about whether he loves me or not, why he is with me. It seems that there is nothing in my life except love him, and nothing is worth pursuing. I didn't think of divorce in a moment of excitement. Our marriage is not what I expected, even though I love him. It may be a good thing for both of us to separate completely. We all need an opportunity to think, to think about the past, to think about the future. "

Ding Haonan looked at her and fell into deep thought.