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I feel that Cheng Ruojun still has a little bit of love for me, if I can make Cheng Ruojun's love for me deepen, then maybe I can avoid getting beaten up, and maybe when I leave him in the future, it can also make him feel a little more painful.

He looked at me, not with his usual feral ferocity.

However, Cheng Ruojun just stared at me. I noticed that the panic in his eyes increased.

"You bitch." "Do you want me to fuck you so badly?"

I was still smiling. I didn't show the usual humiliated pleading, but I ran my fingertips across his lips and said softly, "Yes."

I saw his pupils contract, and the next second I was turned over, and he hit me hard, and then he was inside me.

I was kneeling on the bed like a dog, clutching the sheets with both hands. I gritted my teeth and squeezed out three words, "I love you."

Cheng Ruojun's movements instantly became lighter, but he still continued.

"I love you." I suddenly remember when we first met. He was so gentle then, but why are we like this now?

Cheng Ruojun was no longer pressing down on me, his hands reached out from behind as if he was going to hug me.

"I love you." For a moment, I couldn't even tell if I was really sad or acting. It was obvious that the reason I did that was to make Cheng Ruojun pity me, but I also got into the act.

It turns out that Cheng Ruojun didn't reach out to hug me, but to pinch my chin. He turned my head around and faced him in an awkward and strange manner.

I discovered that he was different from his usual angry self. His eyes were still like that of a wild beast, as though he would tear me apart in the next second. However, I also found a trace of pity and emotion in his eyes.

"You're lying." He was cold, but his usually steady voice was shaking.

"I... Love you. " I hugged Cheng Ruojun in this shameful and awkward position.

Cheng Ruojun's body was trembling, like a child who had lost him in the rain, and was drenched all over.

I remembered that he had told me that his parents were only controlling him, and that he was controlling me in this way. His life up to now had been a sad one, but my sympathy for him had been worn out by the usual beatings.

Cheng Ruojun pushed me away, his deep eyes staring at me, his eyes filled with suspicion.

I smiled at him.

However, he turned around and walked away. His appearance when he left was a little awkward.

The door slammed, and I sat on the bed in a daze.

Due to Cheng Ruojun's brutality just now, the wound that had just healed started to hurt again. I even started to doubt whether I would be able to be discharged tomorrow.

However... The Cheng Ruojun just now was very interesting.

I've never seen him like this. He was gentle and kind in the past, he could give me anything I wanted, and now he's rough and cold and possessive, but he's panicked. I've been with him so long, I can see that.

I got up from the bed naked and went to the bathroom. Hot water was running down my skin, and I slowly applied myself to the rose-scented bath. My fingers circled my skin, and I hummed a tuneless song.

"Hahaha …" When I thought about Cheng Ruojun's condition just now, I couldn't help but to hold my head and laugh.

My laughter was crazy, and I wanted to stop myself, but it rushed out of my throat. It was so strange.

In the past, I had always felt that Cheng Ruojun was a god that could not be resisted. Even though I had already made the preparations to leave him, I still had the determination to die.

When I used to treat him with sincerity, he couldn't tell. He tortured me, beat me, and went to bed with other women.

But today I used a fake smile, fake expression, fake tears, he panicked, he was touched by me.

He wasn't worth it.

I stood up, wiped myself clean, and looked at myself in the mirror. The skin on my face was as white as paper, without a trace of blood, and there was a tinge of blue in it. Even my lips were dry, but my eyes were shining.

I used to look confused and innocent, but now I don't. I know what I want.

I will not lose to Cheng Ruojun, I will act out a show for you in the future. If I can exchange this feint for your sincerity, it will be the best, I will make you sad, I will ruthlessly stomp your heart on the ground, just like how you did to me.

I took a look at the scenery outside the window. There were no stars in the dark sky, and my heart was as free as it ever was. I suddenly wanted to share my joy with someone.

I dialed Xia Ze's number, and the call immediately connected. Whether he was still awake, or had some telepathic connection with me, he had been waiting for me to call.

"Xia Ze?" I spoke softly.

"I miss you." Xia Ze said, his voice was soft, as though he was acting coquettishly. I really like him like this.

"Me too." I looked out the window at the stars and said, "I was very happy today, just when Cheng Ruojun was about to hit me again, I suddenly hugged him and said I love you, he seemed to be scared, and then he left, I think I caught onto Cheng Ruojun's weakness."

I wanted to be praised by Xia Ze, and I wanted to share my happiness with him. But when I finished speaking, Xia Ze became silent, and all I could hear was his soft breathing.

My heart started to panic. At this moment, I started to realize that maybe I shouldn't have said these things to Xia Ze, but Xia Ze would be unhappy to hear me say them. Does that also mean that Xia Ze actually loved me a lot?

"Do you love him?" Xia Ze finally opened his mouth.

"Of course I don't love him." "Everything I said to him was fake. Everything I'm doing now is for the sake of escaping from Cheng Ruojun."

Xia Ze quietly laughed and said, "Why would I ask such a question? Because of you, I have become unlike myself."

When I heard Xia Ze's words, I immediately grabbed onto the phone tightly. His words that were filled with pain had touched my heart.