Chapter 173

Yi yuanze rushed to the hospital. When he entered the ward, Meng Yunhan had fallen asleep. She is really a little tired. Looking at her lying on the hospital bed, her face was very pale. Yi yuanze frowned tightly and slowly sat beside her, holding her hand with heartache.

For so many days. Meng Yunhan pretended to be very strong. Although Yi yuanze wanted to blame her for not cherishing her body. But whenever the anger comes to my mind. But in a moment, she was very tired and sad. Completely watered out.

Towards evening, Meng Yunhan woke up. At that time, Yi yuanze had fallen asleep beside her hospital bed. Meng Yunhan moved his body slightly upward. Obviously, his action was not very big, but he still woke him up.

"Are you awake? Is there anything else uncomfortable?" Yi yuanze's voice sounded a little hoarse. The eyes were also red. At this moment, Meng Yunhan realized it. When he is busy for so many days, Yi yuanze is just like himself. I haven't had a good rest at all. I even have to worry about myself.

"Sorry..." Meng Yunhan said these three words very softly. Her voice was extremely hoarse. With her red and swollen eyes, people couldn't help but feel pain.

Yi yuanze sat by the hospital bed. Reach out and hug her shoulder tightly, and then let her lean on her shoulder. He said, "what's your apology? You didn't do anything wrong..."

She didn't do anything wrong. Meng Yunhan recited these words in her heart. Did she really do anything wrong? But why in her own opinion, she seems to have done a lot of things wrong. Even for so long, nothing has been done right.

"Yuanze, actually I..." Meng Yunhan frowned tightly. He clearly wanted to tell the things he had hidden from him in his heart, but those words were hard to say after they came to his mouth.

Yi yuanze looked down at him slightly. Seeing her look very embarrassed, he gently rubbed her shoulder and said, "well, it's okay. Now those things that make you sad have been handled. All things will pass. Don't be sad."

Meng Yunhan kept nodding in his arms, and then stopped talking. Although she would feel remorse and uneasiness in her heart, now under such circumstances, she seems to have no right to choose.

"Let's go home. I just asked the doctor. She said that you have been too emotional, too tired and haven't had a good rest in recent days, so you fainted. I suggest you have a good rest these days."

After hearing this, Meng Yunhan moved away from his arms in a panic and asked nervously, "you asked the doctor about me. What else did she say?"

Meng Yunhan was suddenly a little nervous at the moment. She was afraid that Yi yuanze already knew something he shouldn't know, so at the moment, even her voice seemed a little urgent.

Yi yuanze raised a smile on his face and looked at her now very nervous. He actually wanted to laugh. He reached out and gently pinched her cheek and said, "don't worry. The doctor said that you just didn't rest well. There's no big problem. Look how nervous you are."

Seeing that he still didn't know about the child, Meng Yunhan couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief in his heart. A very relaxed smile appeared on his face and said, "let's go home. You haven't had a good rest these days. Go home today and have a good sleep."

Yi yuanze nodded slightly, then helped her down from the bed, hugged her tightly, slowly walked out of the ward and went home.

Although the hospital has not been criticized by those public opinions, the impact caused by that matter is not small. Gu Jing has been spending the night in the hospital these days. He has too many things to be busy. Although he doesn't have as much to do as Meng Yunhan as the president, he still needs to deal with the situation in the operating room and patients.

Lin Ziyu almost goes to Yajing every night to help her with hypnotherapy. Although they are still a little sad, they don't mention it.

During these hypnosis, Lin Ziyu found the secret hidden in Yajing's heart. Those painful memories were displayed in front of Lin Ziyu little by little. At that time, he found that the seemingly careless person in front of him had an extremely dark world in his heart.

Five times of hypnosis treatment made Yajing open her heart a little bit. Every time she recalled those past events, she was very painful, and the sweat on her forehead kept seeping. That was the memory she was afraid of, but it was also the culprit affecting her life.

"Are you okay?" Lin Ziyu handed her the handkerchief. At the moment, her forehead was full of sweat. Every time after their treatment, Yajing was very painful. Although Lin Ziyu was distressed, he really wanted to help her out of that dark corner of her heart.

Ya Jing shook her head slightly, then stretched out her hand to cover her face. These days, the memories of the past are becoming clearer and clearer, and she sometimes wakes up from her nightmares. Originally, she thought that everything would be better as long as she spoke out the unbearable past events in her heart, but now she found that when those past events are more and more clear in her heart, She was even more frightened.

"You said before that you forgot a memory, which was the most painful and unbearable memory, right?" Lin Ziyu asked her softly, frowning tightly, and her heart would beat violently at this moment.

When Lin Ziyu first gave Yajing hypnotic treatment, Yajing told him that the root of her pain was that unbearable memory, but she didn't remember it. No matter how hard she tried, she couldn't remember it. That memory was like a person covered with a veil and kept chasing her in the dark night.

Ya Jing looked up at him slightly, nodded and said, "yes, I forgot a memory, but it seems that I haven't forgotten. Although I don't remember those things, I always feel that they are right in front of me. I can't get rid of them. No matter how hard I try, I can't remember or get rid of them."

Lin Ziyu patted her on the shoulder and said, "maybe you didn't forget that memory. You forced yourself not to think of it, because it's not so beautiful. You remind yourself again and again in your heart not to remember, to forget, so in your subconscious mind, you forced yourself not to think of it, not really forget it."

"What do you mean?" Yajing didn't understand a word of what he said at the moment.

Lin Ziyu continued to explain and said, "it simply means that you haven't forgotten anything."

"But I can't remember what happened to me before I met Qi mu..."

"It's not that you can't remember, it's that you don't want to remember. Whenever you want to recall those things, your brain will have a sense of self-protection, which makes you stop there and don't think deeply. It's you who subconsciously tell yourself that you have forgotten, so now you feel that you have lost a memory. In psychology, it belongs to self hypnosis."

Ya Jing frowned tightly and tried to make herself understand what Lin Ziyu said at the moment. After thinking about it, she said, "Self Hypnosis? You mean, I told myself subconsciously that I forgot that memory, so I just didn't want to think of it?"

"Yes, you subconsciously tell yourself that you forgot that memory. Over time, you will form a memory in your mind, that is, you really forgot that memory. For example, it is like many people running red lights. Many of them will feel that I left because there were no cars around at that time. I didn't affect the traffic and the traffic It didn't cause a car accident, so I was right to do that. The reason why they thought that was through self hypnosis, they told themselves subconsciously that he was right to do that, so that they wouldn't feel guilty. "Lin Ziyu seriously explained to her that he didn't know where to start about Yajing's inner secret, To help her completely solve her problems.

Ya Jing nodded vaguely and said, "I don't care why I don't remember those things. Now I just want to know what those things chasing me like nightmares are?"

For Yajing, she doesn't want to know how she forgets those things. She just wants to know what she is afraid of thinking about in her heart.

Lin Ziyu looked at her somewhat embarrassed and asked, "are you really ready to accept those unbearable past events? Maybe we can wait a while..."

"No, I want to know that I don't want to be awakened by those terrible things in my sleep every day. I want to know what the things I hypnotized myself to forget are..." Yajing looked at him firmly. She has her own perseverance in this matter. What's more, she has chosen this road, so there is no reason to escape.

Lin Ziyu looked at the book in his hand, sighed slightly and said, "I'll tell you a little bit. If you think you can't bear it, tell me, and I'll stop immediately."

Ya Jing held her hands tightly and put them uneasily on her knees. Her body curled up slightly and trembled uncontrollably.

"When you were twenty-two years old and graduated from college, you made a boyfriend..." Lin Ziyu spoke in a very low voice, and his eyes kept switching back and forth between the book and Yajing. He needed to pay attention to Yajing all the time.

"When you started falling in love, you were very happy. Do you remember his name?"

Ya Jing frowned tightly and tried to recall it in her mind, but she couldn't remember it. Then she shook her head slightly and said, "I don't remember I made a boyfriend, let alone his name."

"It's all right. Then listen to me. After two years together, he took you to other places. You rented a house, had a job, planned your future together in your heart. He proposed to you at the top of the ferris wheel. You..."

"I promised..." Yajing suddenly opened her mouth and said this in pain. She seemed to have seen such a picture in her mind.

Lin Ziyu looked forward to her and continued, "what happened later? Do you remember? After you agreed to his proposal..."

"I don't remember. There are only some fragmentary memories in my mind. I don't remember what happened later." Yajing covered her face with both hands. She looked very painful. Now she didn't know what Lin Ziyu said. She didn't know anything except the fragmentary memory on the ferris wheel. She couldn't even see the man's appearance.

Lin Ziyu gently patted her on the shoulder and put the book in his hand aside. He didn't want to go on. Now his elegant and quiet appearance is really not suitable to continue to recall those past events.