Chapter 174

They didn't speak to each other anymore. Those elegant and quiet didn't want to think of it and thought it was the most unbearable. The most painful past. But from these things mentioned by Lin Ziyu. Those are not unbearable, even beautiful.

"You can rest early today. These things will be discussed later." Lin Ziyu is going to help her up from the sofa and see what she looks like at the moment. Whatever you have to say later. Is it happy or painful. He doesn't want to go on.

Ya Jing grabbed his wrist fiercely and looked at him with tearful eyes. Said, "I don't want to rest. I want to know everything after."

"Ya Jing, your current state is no longer suitable for listening. It takes time to retrieve this memory. Since it is in your heart, you have long recognized that it is an unbearable memory. It is a memory that makes you extremely painful, you can't think of it at the same time. That will cause great stimulation to you." Lin Ziyu explained anxiously to her, He knows. Ya Jing's heart is full of curiosity about those things now, but he can't let her remember all the experiences of those things at the moment.

"I can. I want to know those things, I have to know. I don't want to let nightmares surround my heart again. It's really too painful." Yajing's eyes beg a little. She has never been so eager to recall that period, which made her very painful.

Lin Ziyu shook his head. He really couldn't agree to Yajing's request at the moment. He said softly, "tomorrow, tomorrow I'll tell you what will happen later. Now I'm your psychologist. You must obey my arrangement. Now you're not suitable to continue listening, okay?"

"But I want to know. I can't wait for tomorrow. I really, really want to know." Ya Jing's tears rolled wantonly on her face. She was really curious. That memory was what she feared most before, but now it has become what she expected most.

"Ya Jing..." Lin Ziyu called her name helplessly, and his heart softened again.

Ya Jing saw that he was still reluctant to say more. Then she got up fiercely and tried to pick up the book beside him. Since Lin Ziyu is still unwilling to say more, she can only read it by herself.

"Yajing, you can't do this." Lin Ziyu said something to stop her, and reached out to grab the book in her hand. Fortunately, fortunately, his action was relatively fast. Before Yajing had time to look through it, he had robbed the book back.

"Lin Ziyu, that's what I forgot. I have the right to know the truth." Yajing couldn't help yelling at him. Tears kept pouring out of her eyes. Those sad emotions couldn't help it anymore.

"OK, I'll tell you everything. I'll tell you everything you want to know." Lin Ziyu finally compromised. Whether it was because Yajing's words were reasonable or he couldn't bear to see her tears, anyway, at this moment, he completely lost his principles.

Lin Ziyu gently held her shoulder and asked her to sit on the sofa again. He looked at her very seriously and said very seriously: "Ya Jing, listen carefully. In this process, if you feel any discomfort, you must tell me that you can't bear it and recover some memories that you feel are unbearable. It's a very painful thing. Originally, it's a long process, but you want to recover in a short time, so you must not be too excited, Ming Is it white? "

"I know that I will try to control my emotions, and I will tell you when I feel uncomfortable. I can promise you what you said. Now can you tell me all those things?" Yajing can promise him anything now. As long as she can know what those things are, no matter how much pain she suffers in her heart, she is willing.

Lin Ziyu sighed a long sigh, and then opened his book again. What he recorded above was said by Yajing herself in the process of hypnosis.

"You agreed to his proposal. Later, you changed your job, began to have your own fame and became a little star..." Lin Ziyu's voice was very soft and said every word very seriously. His eyes always switched between the book and Yajing, but in his heart, he always had a feeling of fear.

Ya Jing frowned tightly. She tried to find it in her memory, but she couldn't remember anything related to what Lin Ziyu said at the moment. She still didn't remember those things.

"After entering the entertainment industry, because of the pressure of the company, you concealed that you had a fiance, and he didn't care very much. You had a good time. Later, you went to work in other places. You went to the airport together. That day, it was raining heavily. On the way to the airport, you..."

"There was a car accident, he died and bled all over the ground..." Ya Jing seemed to think of something. She said this in pain. The memories she had always wanted to forget became particularly clear at the moment.

Lin Ziyu subconsciously clenched his fist. His heart suddenly began to tense. He felt that Yajing was about to remember.

"And then? You were with him, right?"

Yajing looked at him in pain and gently rubbed her forehead. She felt that there was a feeling that it was about to crack. She said softly, "later... I left..."

"Where have you been?"

Yajing kept crying and her body couldn't help shaking. She tried to recall that on that rainy day, when a car accident happened, the picture became clearer and clearer. Yajing felt that she couldn't bear it. She hugged herself tightly with her hands and curled up in the sand hair.

With the things Lin Ziyu said, Yajing felt that she slowly remembered. The things she felt painful and always didn't want to recall were clear in her mind little by little, which slowly bred her inner guilt.

Lin Ziyu patted her on the shoulder, tried to give her some comfort, and said softly, "after the car accident, you left. Where did you go?"

Ya Jing kept shaking her head and choked, "I left him..."

"Yajing..."

"I left him, I didn't save him, I didn't care about him, but left selfishly. On that rainy day, he looked at me helplessly and watched me leave." Yajing seemed to think of what happened after the car accident. Her inner guilt made it difficult for her to breathe and breathe at the moment.

Lin Ziyu held her hand tightly, kept explaining and said, "you didn't save him. You wanted to save him. You wanted to find someone to save him, so you left. Do you remember?"

Yajing stretched out her hand to hold her head and cried out in pain. Then, she seemed to think of all things. She leaned limply on the sofa, and tears gushed out of her eyes. The things she wanted to forget were not unbearable, but beautiful.

"Do you remember?"

"I wanted to find someone to save him, but when I went back, he was dead. He looked at me like that and left before his eyes. He thought I gave up him, but I didn't. I wanted to save him, but I was late, so even when he died, he thought in his heart that I gave up him." Yajing finally remembered those forgotten past events, She thought they were unbearable, but now they are both sweet and painful.

Lin Ziyu patted her shoulder gently, and her eyes couldn't help moistening. Yajing finally remembered everything now, but her appearance now is more worrying than before.

"He didn't blame you..."

Ya Jing kept shaking her head and said, "he's blaming me. He hates me. Even at the moment of death, what he shows in his eyes is hatred."

"It's because you can't accept the car accident, so you subconsciously tell yourself again and again that you haven't had a car accident or even a fiance. You let yourself forget that memory because you watched your favorite die in front of you in order to save you..."

"Stop talking..." Ya Jing reached out and covered her ears. She didn't want to listen any more. All her memories were too clear. She completely remembered those sweet past and painful moments. It turned out that those unbearable past events in her heart were her own guilt about that matter.

Lin Ziyu hugged her dearly, and her tears had already begun to turn in her eyes. Ya Jing felt how painful she was at the moment. Although he couldn't feel it, he felt no worse than her.

Ya Jing's mood gradually calmed down. From beginning to end, she remembered all things. It was precisely because she couldn't accept the car accident and felt guilty about it in her heart that she forced herself to forget, put all her thoughts on work and forbid herself to talk about feelings.

At eleven o'clock, Lin Ziyu patted her gently on the back and said, "Yajing, it's getting late. Have a good rest today."

"When I took someone back, he was dead. The direction of his eyes was where I left. He was really blaming me..."

"It's not your fault. Your intention to leave is not to abandon him, but to find someone to save him. You shouldn't blame yourself in your heart. His death has nothing to do with you."

Ya Jing kept shaking her head and continued in a hoarse voice, "but he thought to death that I left him and left by myself."

"You can't use your cognition to judge what he thinks in his heart. He loves you so much and is willing to keep your identity secret for your career. Even when the car accident occurs, his subconscious action is to save you, so he never blames you. He loves you. You can't think of him so narrowly, okay?"

"But..."

"Yajing, just because you feel remorse and guilt, you let yourself forget this memory. But think about it. He loves you so much, how can he blame you? You've always trapped yourself in that narrow space."

Listening to Lin Ziyu's words, Yajing cried even more. She felt that what he said at the moment was not unreasonable. Even her remorse and guilt decreased, but she couldn't control the sadness of losing her favorite.

That night, Yajing didn't sleep until the early morning, and Lin Ziyu was always with her. The past was revealed one by one. The things Yajing feared most were never unbearable and bad memories. It was a sweet past.

Because of the car accident, Yajing lost her favorite person. She once thought that her favorite person hated herself until she died, so she forced herself to forget that thing. Therefore, every night in her sleep, the man who can't see her face is her favorite person.