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My heart suddenly let something rush in. I felt extremely uncomfortable. How could someone as proud as him say such words?

Was this still the same high-spirited Emperor, the same him, so arrogant that he didn't care about anything?

I still care about him, he said, so weakly, even so quietly.

In his heart, I was really so important, I just thought I was someone who didn't matter, I didn't know, my heart hurt even for his weakness, I had thought of everything, I might meet him again, and he would be disdainful of me, but I didn't think he would be like this, like a child needing warmth, need to give him some courage.

That face, buried in my back, was covered in a thin layer of clothes, and its breath was so hot and humid.

I let him hold me still and closed my eyes. I didn't know what to do.

I thought I didn't love him, I didn't care about him, because he wouldn't want anything to do with me, and I'd rather he hated me than he was so small.

"Zhiqiu." he called softly.

"Mm, Your Majesty, you …" I wanted to ask him what he wanted to say, what he wanted to say.

However, he interrupted him. "I just want to call you Zhi Qiu, Zhi Qiu."

Don't call me that, take off that cold and hard dignity of disguise, I don't want to see the weak him, this will make my heart hurt and ashamed. I betrayed my body and my heart, but I couldn't. In the end, I betrayed him, and he didn't kill me.

"Zhiqiu." he called softly again. In short, in this dark forest, he was like a lost bird. Before the sun set, he could not find his home. I sighed softly and closed my eyes and pressed them against his chest. I smelled the wine and heard the bitterness in my heart. What is love?

"You care about me, don't you?" he asked again.

This time, I didn't think about anything else, and for no reason at all, I nodded. I'm sorry.

He let go of me, sighed heavily, leaned against the tree, and said quietly, "You go back."

But I bit my lip and couldn't see what he was thinking in the darkness.

He stood up and said, "Then I'll go back first."

He returned with complicated thoughts in his mind and turned around to look at the dark forest. His heart was filled with sorrow and heaviness.

How much like a dream, he would never be like this, I would rather he was still cold and proud at the start, arrogantly looking at me, punishing me, mocking me.

The next day, I went to the forest of the Cold Palace with a feeling of uneasiness. There was nothing there, just the same as always. The bottles of wine were nowhere to be seen, so I took a deep sniff at the bottom of the tree and found that there was still a faint smell of alcohol.

I don't know how much more he'll drink after I leave and no one stops him.

I sat down, and this time it was my turn to sigh.

The forest was very quiet. I don't know why I kept thinking about those words, 'You must know Qiu, you still care about me, so you can pretend that you care about me'. I covered my ears to prevent myself from hearing it, but the sound still came out from the ground.

When I went back, I found myself bored by the needlework I was doing. I went out again and stood, and for some reason I hurriedly stuffed something into the basket. I didn't show it, so I sat down and said, "Why, I want to drink water."

She smiled and said, "Miss, you're thinking the same thing. I'll go get some water."

As soon as she went in, I went to rummage through the sewing basket and saw those cute little shoes. When she came out with some water, I proudly waved it off and said, "Hur Hur, the reason, it turns out you are doing this."

Her face turned pale. "Miss."

"Such small shoes, why are you hiding?" Can you wear such big shoes now? I remember when I left him, his feet were so small.

The reason why the cup in my hand slipped and fell to the ground. I was startled. "Why? What happened? Are you alright? Alright, I won't randomly flip through your things next time. You treat me so well, haha."

He lowered his head to pick up the broken cup. His expression was ugly. Perhaps because he was too excited, he was able to get the broken fragments of the cup in his hand. Bright red blood flowed out.

"The reason?" I called to her worriedly.

"Miss, I'm fine." She said flatly, "Temporarily."

"It's good that you're fine. You don't look too good; are you tired? Why don't you go back and rest for a while? Also, that kid you made for Xu is too big. He definitely won't be able to wear it." I put it back.

"Then make it smaller next time. Miss, the reason is because I'm not feeling well today, so I'll go back first. We'll wait here for lunch, you must remember to eat."

"Alright." I nodded and smiled sweetly. "Go ahead."

When she left, she took the sewing basket with her, and I didn't suspect anything. I only thought it was a good thing, because in the palace I only knew of one of the Emperor's sons.

At noon, I waited at the entrance for the food deliveries to arrive. They also sent it here first, then to other places. When I looked around, I found that mine was better than everyone else's.

There's a steamed fish. Normally, I like to eat fish, but looking at it now, I feel like I can't eat it. On the other side, Li Fei's child started crying again.

I carried the fish and porridge over. Under the tree, Li Fei was coaxing the child. When she saw me, she lowered her head and coaxed, "Don't cry, don't cry. We'll have food soon enough."

I put down the porridge and fish. "Thank you," she whispered.

I smiled and turned away without a word.

"I'm sorry."

He sighed in his heart. If a person's will were to be affected in the cold palace, nothing would be able to match their pride, arrogance, and face. It would take a long time before they would know that they could not rely on those things.

I'm not a nice guy. I just feel sorry for the kid.

He had walked far away, yet he could still hear her low sobs, coaxing the child, and also feel a bit sour.

At night, his heart felt like it was being bitten by an ant. He didn't know whether to leave or not.

In the end, my calmness was still above my heart. I didn't go out, and that night, he didn't come either.

The next morning, I still went to the woods, where the smell of alcohol had not yet dispersed by the wind.

I don't know how to explain it, but I don't even know if he drank a lot here. If this was a way to make my heart feel worse, then he did it.

He was clearly a proud person, but why was he acting so weak? It was clearly not like that, not like that.

Returning rather absent-mindedly, seeing Li Fei carrying the child and me fawning on her, I smiled as well and walked away from her. She said, "Zhi Qiu, can you hold the child for me for a bit? Don't mind me, I don't have any ulterior motives. I heard from here that you were very good to your child, and I know that I was jealous of you at that time and did some very excessive things. "

I lightly said, "I don't want to talk about the past anymore." He ignored her and left.

I won't have any more children, and I can only like other people's children.

That night, it really was like a dream. He didn't come back to call me out again, and I didn't see him again. I lay on my bed and took a nap, tossing and turning, unable to fall asleep.

I sat up. I looked at the door and said, "Miss, how about I go and take a look?"

"Alright." It was really noisy, but Li Fei wasn't noisy at all.

After a while, he returned and indifferently said, "Miss, it's alright. I told her to take care of her child and not to disturb you."

"What happened to her?" I asked casually.

"Miss, she doesn't seem to be feeling well. She said the same goes for children."

When I heard this, I felt even more depressed. I gathered up my hair and left. The reason for this called out to me was, "Miss, the sun is so big. Where are you going?"

"I'll go take a look." Both mother and daughter were ill.

"Miss, don't abuse your good intentions. Miss knows what she did to Miss in the past, and who knows if she is trying to frame you again now. Then, you can make use of this opportunity to send her child outside." The reason held me back and said very seriously.

I smiled. "I'm currently in the Cold Palace. How else can I be harmed? Alright, I'll go and take a look."

I knocked on the door and coughed a few times before I softly said, "She fell asleep and stopped crying very soon."

"It's me." I said softly.

She opened the door a moment later, her haggard eyes bloodshot, surprised to see me, and welcomed me inside.

The little child was still crying on the bed, his voice somewhat hoarse.

"What's wrong?" I asked softly.

She let out a long sigh and said angrily, "It started to feel uncomfortable last night. Maybe I was a bit sad and sent it to her. The baby doesn't cry." She went over and coaxed again, coughing uncomfortably.

She picked it up. The child's face was red, and she was crying so miserably. It made my heart ache.

I thought about how I used to take care of Xu and how the water on the table was cold. I sighed and said, "If you don't mind, I'll bring you some. You rest first."

If I get sick, how am I supposed to take care of my child? My child's body is weak, and is unable to resist these diseases. After talking with Lin Luoshui for a while, I also understand a lot of things.

When she heard this, she was very grateful. "Zhi Qiu, sorry to trouble you."

After carrying the child back, I was shocked. I gently coaxed her and poured some warm water to test it out with my lips before feeding it to her. Slowly, I stopped crying and looked at me with my tearful eyes.

I smiled gently at her and asked the reason in a low voice: "The reason is in the cold palace can you ask a doctor or a medicine woman to come in and see."

The reason said: "Very little, unless the father-in-law outside is willing, but it will cost a lot of silver."

"Oh." I was a little disappointed. Fortunately, I was in good health and rarely got sick. After entering the Cold Palace, there was nothing valuable on my body, only that Wolf Fang. However, that was not something that could be traded for, so I instructed the reason, "The reason, let's boil some porridge. Add in some petals I picked up last time. Those can purge the poison from fire."

This child's face was beyond hot. He wanted to cry after drinking some water.

I put on a wet towel to keep the heat down and walked her around until she was asleep. It was as small as it had been back then, and she must have been there for more than a month, but she couldn't even crawl.

I gently placed her on the bed and sent a bowl over to Li Fei to cool her down while waiting for the child to wake up and feed her some.

But in the evening I was a little frightened, for her temperature was growing hotter and hotter.

Although it wasn't my child, it was still not mine. If something happened in my hands, that really wouldn't be good.

I carried the child back to Li Fei, who coughed uncomfortably and hurriedly stood up when she saw me coming over. "Zhi Qiu, sorry to trouble you."

"That's nothing, just that the child is not as hot as the adult and has no medicine to feed her right now. I'm really afraid that there might be something wrong. The child can't be compared to the adult and can't be so hot."

She was frightened, but her expression immediately turned to one of panic, "Then what do we do, what do we do? Zhi Qiu, I have to get them to get me a doctor. "

"Sure, I'll let you find the money later on." He had to see, he couldn't drag it out.

She panicked, then said, "I'll go right away."

Carrying the child, she hurried out of the cold palace. I don't think those people really don't care, after all, the child is the true Emperor's bloodline.

I stretched my back and went back to my seat. I sat in front of the door and looked at the golden light. It was really beautiful. The yard was pretty well-kept.

I scooped up some water, washed my hands, and waited for dinner. "Why hasn't it been delivered yet?" I asked curiously.

"The reason is that you can go back first. I'll have my own food when you get here."

"That's fine too, Miss, I'll be leaving first."

Not long after she left, she hurriedly ran back. Before she arrived, she loudly called out, "Miss, it's bad. Something happened outside?"

"What happened?" I jumped out of my chair.

"Li Fei's head hit the wall and blood was flowing out. She and the people from the Leng Ning Palace were involved."

When I heard that, I panicked. "Hurry up and go take a look."

When they arrived at the entrance of the Cold Palace, there were already many people gathered there. Moreover, there were dishes spilled all over the ground. Several of the eunuchs looked at her angrily. "You're really tired of living."

"Please, bring me a doctor." Li Fei hugged her child and cried miserably. Her hair was in a mess and her forehead was bleeding. She stretched out her hand to wipe it clean and pitifully begged, "Just get a doctor for my daughter. If you don't, it'll be too late."

The onlookers only watched with cold smiles, while the eunuchs also watched coldly without making a sound.

In this cold palace, there were also those who had been coerced into harm by Li Fei in the past. They smiled and said, "What retribution."

I couldn't bear to see her in such pain, and the child was crying.

He sighed and said, "The reason is that you have to go out and get a doctor. I beg you, I know you have a way."

My heart is aching. How can you teach me to continue watching?