Chapter 139： a little anxious

He is loving you.

Until I returned to the hotel room after dinner, I also echoed the words that Rong Zhouzhong said.

Fei Yujing, love, such a person, and such a vocabulary, he and it actually have a day to be linked. Also, Fei Yujing is also a human being. As long as it is a human being, it will produce seven emotions and six desires, and you will unconsciously fall in love with someone or hate who.

But why can't the brain always imagine the appearance of Fei Yujing's love for a person? Every time he thinks of this name, the first one in his head will always be the cold and calm expression and look of the other side.

"Fei Yujing's love..." He muttered, and when he accidentally flashed over the boat, Fei Yujing wolf squatted against the captain's exterior.

That is probably the most clear and intuitive way for him to feel that Fei Yujing is really concerned about him... Even if it is the moment of the rest of his life, Fei Yujing’s face still has no extra expression. Even before that, when Li Jiuyi was mad because of the encirclement of the ship, Fei Yujing could rationally tie up Li Jiuyi and prevent Li Jiuyi from disturbing others.

In the end, is it sensible to be able to do that, and does Fei Yujing have emotional exposure or collapse?

Shijin tried to recall the scene of meeting with Fei Yujing in the past. Finally, he found that Fei Yujing had the most fluctuating mood in front of him. It was actually at the meeting of the previous year. When the two met again, he threatened Fei Yujing to use himself. When it hurts the mother of Yujing.

[This is the first person in the world who can make me pay so much, my mother is the first one, you are the second one. 】

When the brain flashed over the words that Yu Jingjing said in the morning, his fingers trembled, and he felt shamefully in his heart. Now, is he already so important in Fei Yujing’s heart? Has he become a presence that can affect the mood of Fei Yujing?

[What you want from me is not an emotional response, but an emotional need. 】

He was shocked in his heart, raising his hand and holding his forehead: "Why would you remember this sentence..."

But... really is the demand, actually was said by Fei Yujing, just the joy of his heart, is it because he suddenly discovered that Fei Yujing might need him emotionally, value him, so what happened? ?

Why Fei Yujing said it again, how thoroughly he saw his feelings and hearts.

When I entered, I suddenly felt painful. For such a cranky thought, I was full of human weakness. Then he felt that he was ridiculous, what was so happy, what was so painful, how big the people were, and because these little emotions were sorrowful and sorrowful, stupid.

If he is also like Fei Yujing, it is a good person who can handle emotions at will -

Hey.

The phone vibrates, and his thoughts are broken. He picks up the phone and sees the text message sent by Fei Yujing. He blinks and points out.

Fei Yujing: The care worker left, can you come to the hospital to accompany me?

When I entered my eyes, I suspected that I had an illusion.

Can I come to the hospital to accompany me? can? accompany?

Scorpio, Fei Yujing actually speaks in this tone, Fei Yujing actually uses the relatively weak word of "accompanying", Fei Yujing actually ... will take the initiative to ask him.

Doesn't that person always do a lot of things on his own, and then give you a brain plug, do not allow you to refuse, and then leave it? Such a person would actually want someone to accompany him. Such a person, shouldn’t he say that if he asks for such a request, he will also have a tone of command that cannot be rejected? It's like making it happen in the middle of the continent.

Hey.

Another text message came in, still from Fei Yujing: the wound hurts a bit.

Time-in, meaninglessly issued a "ah", looking at this text message, wanting to make up for the painful expression of Fei Yujing, but finally nothing, silent for a long while, suddenly got up and walked quickly toward the hotel room.

"I actually went to the night of a person who had just quarreled in the morning... I am probably crazy!" He spurned himself, but his pace became faster.

......

Shijin almost ran to the hospital, and then intentionally stopped in the corridor outside the ward. After repeatedly inhaling and exhaling a few times, his face calmly pushed open the ward door.

Fei Yujing was resting on the hospital bed and closed his eyes. After hearing the sound of opening the door, he opened his eyes and asked, "Is it running?"

When the pace was stiff, the expression was almost not stretched, and retorted: "I walked over, you are not really letting me take the corpse, I ran and ran, you are not that important."

"You can go here from the hotel where you live. If you don't run, it takes about fifteen minutes to walk." Fei Yujing took the phone and looked at the time and said, "I am sending you a text message nine minutes ago."

"...Do you want to fight?"

Fei Yujing glanced at him and he was blown by the wind with some messy hair. He looked at it and broke his hand. He raised his hand and took a picture of the bed: "I don't want to, I can't beat you now, come over, sit."

Time to enter: "..." Suddenly understand why Rongzhou always wants to play the royal scenery, and he now wants to hit each other, hehe.

When he entered the front seat, Fei Yujing poured a glass of water on him, first started the topic and asked: "Is dinner good?"

"Yes, the third brother always knows where there is a delicious restaurant." When the time came to the hard state, he replied with a bit of anger, and then after he realized that he was angry, his expression became more and more tense - really like a fool. Fei Yujing was indifferent there, he was thinking about it here, and he was led by the other side, so stupid!

Be cold! He commands himself in his heart.

"Still angry?" Fei Yujing asked.

"No!" When I entered the second, I felt that I couldn't go on like this anymore. I had to take back the initiative of the topic, so I immediately asked, "Are you not a pain in the wound? Where is the pain, call the doctor to come over?"

Fei Yujing replied: "Look, the doctor said that the pain is normal, and the wound healing requires a process."

When he glanced at his expression and the chest blocked by the sick suit, he said, "You don't feel like a pain at all."

"What kind of expression is called pain." Fei Yujing rarely sold it softly. "Actually, I am very patient now."

patience?

When I went in, I frowned and carefully swept on him, and finally found a trace of patience in him - Fei Yujing’s forehead seemed to sweat a little. He moved in his heart and leaned over to look at his back. Sure enough, he saw a trace of sweating on the sick suit and couldn't help but stand up.

Fei Yujing looked up at him and asked, "What's wrong? I feel too boring to accompany me, have to go back?"

"When you say that you are soft, will you lose a piece of meat? Or you have a cold sweat, and you look like nothing, you forgot how to mobilize your face muscles?" The shoulder confirmed the condition of his back, then turned and went to the bathroom to make a pot of warm water, indicating that he was coming back.

Fei Yujing looked at him and took photos.

The clothes on his back are already half wet, and I think I should have endured it for a long time.

When I tightened my lips, I put out my towel and wring it out, carefully uncovering his sick suit, seeing a huge bruise on his waist, and there are several traces of rubbing on his back. The fingers can't help it. Tight tight.

"Frightened?" Fei Yujing asked sideways, the tone is still **** calm.

When I entered, I had the urge to hold his wound and let him scream out. He pushed his head back with a black face. Carefully put the towel on his back and gently wipe it up. He replied: "No. ""

Fei Yujing was honest for a while and asked: "Is it distressed?"

"I feel so bad that I am going to feel bad about a pig."

Fei Yujing was teased by his anger, saying: "You like pigs."

Can you still laugh, isn't it painful?

When I entered my heart, I couldn’t help but chanted: "If you are uncomfortable, you can tell the doctor that you can't open some medicine and eat it. Don't keep it hard. When I came in the morning, you are still working. If you are injured, take a rest, rest more quickly, and work can't be slow?"

Fei Yujing explained: "It is because of the pain, I just want to use my work to shift my attention."

This is what the devil's transfer attention method. Time is really mad at him, saying: "So how do you sit here?"

"Because the pain in the lungs will increase every night. At this time, the work can not only divert attention, but it will cause work errors because of the inability to concentrate. So you can only stay like this." Fei Yujing replied, sideways said "Thank you for coming with me, I feel much better."

"I should say that you are welcome at this time, or should you praise your truth?" When he entered the towel, he threw it back into the basin and smashed it. He looked at him and gave up the idea of ​​being angry with this person. Carefully wiped all the sweat from him, paused for a while, whispered, "Actually... you can take the initiative to call me, I am very happy."

Fei Yujing turned slightly to see him.

When he entered, he threw the towel back into the basin again. He got up and went to the closet and took a clean sick suit. He handed him a message: "Change it."

Fei Yujing once again said, "Thank you."

When I entered the temper, I compromised myself and compromised on him. I sat down at the bedside and put on a serious conversation. I said, "Two brothers, I don’t want to argue with you some inexplicable racks. You don’t understand at all. I am angry when I am angry. I thought about it and thought that we would be like this because there are some differences in thinking between us. In order to avoid us from having a meaningless quarrel, let us know each other first. Can we? ?"

Fei Yujing was the first to see his gentle and mature inclusive appearance. He looked up and down carefully and said: "Yes."

"That brother, how do you deal with emotions forever and reasonably? I try to understand what I think in my heart like you, but I find that it is too much to analyze my little emotions with a rational attitude. One thing that is shameful, some emotions must be expressed honestly, and it is too embarrassing."

Fei Yujing shook his head: "I don't understand what you mean."

There is a reassuring place to talk to Fei Yujing, that is, never have to worry about what the other person is hiding, or lying. Fei Yujing has always been honest in the face of close people. He said that he did not understand, that is, he did not understand.

Shi Jin tried to change his mind and asked: "So, have you ever had any emotions or feelings, are you hard to understand or are ashamed to tell others what you think? Or have you ever wanted to? When escaping from what I think in my heart?"

Fei Yujing thought about it very seriously this time and nodded: "Yes."

Actually?

"What is it?" When asked, the eyes were bright. It is impossible for people who are always sensible and awake to escape from their own situations. It seems that Fei Yujing seems to have saved.

Fei Yujing looked at him and asked, "Why do you want to know this?"

Because of curiosity.

Time went back and said: "Because I want to know you."

"I also want to know you." Fei Yujing took the call and transferred the topic without any trace. He asked, "Xiao Jin, how do you see me?"

When I entered the news, I realized that he was taking control of the words, but did not say anything. He replied in his words: "I think you are a cold-blooded bastard."

Fei Yujing accident: "Cold blood?"

"It's not cold-blooded. It should be said that you are like a robot. You always have good control over your emotions and feelings. If you want to do something, you don't care what others think. Sometimes I admire you. Occasionally, I will envy you. More often, I will do it because of your desire to do it, and feel uneasy and fearful."

Fei Yujing sighed: "Uneasy and fear?"

"Yes, uneasiness and fear, there is still unwillingness." Time to answer, the first sensible, unreserved, said the most true thoughts of the heart to him, "The relationship between me and you is always you. I want to come, I want to go and leave. You said that you really treat me as a younger brother, but I dare not indulge myself to accept the care you give. In terms of feelings, I am used to having come back, others to me. Ok, I will be good to each other, but only you, I don’t dare to respond to your feelings, so I subconsciously ignore what you have paid for, because if you ignore it, you don’t have to respond.”

Fei Yujing listened quietly and tried to understand his thoughts.

When he looked at his serious expression, he remembered that Rong Zhouzhong said at dinner. Fei Yujing was trying to cross the boundaries he had set and came to understand his thoughts. His heart was soft and suddenly he did not feel that The entangled thoughts in my heart say something humiliating or uncomfortable, and continue to say: "Second brother, when you use me as a tool, it is close to me. When I lose value, you give up and give up. Later, we reunited. You suddenly accepted my brother because of all sorts of things. All of this, I am passive. You are close, you don't need my permission; your departure, you don't need Tell me about it; your apology does not require my forgiveness; your make up, do not need my response, I am like a puppet that you play with, you treat me according to your mood, and my own thoughts, I How do you feel, you never care. My will, can't decide your attitude and actions towards me."

Fei Yujing slowly frowned and asked, "Is this the case?"

"In my understanding, you are like this. You are right, what I want is your emotional needs, I hope you need me."

Fei Yujing slowly shook his head: "Small, I still don't understand, you mean, my concern for you has become your burden? This is not my intention, I don't ask you to forgive, yes Don't want to kidnap you with emotions, you are already too tired, I am too cruel to do what you do, asking you to forgive me is too unfair to you."

When I entered, I asked, "Are you because of this, I said that I would not force my forgiveness?"

Fei Yu attractions head.

This is actually the case.

It’s a bit too late to react. Actually, because he was afraid of his embarrassment, he only apologized and did not ask for forgiveness. Not because "I don't want to think about your thoughts" "Your thoughts are not important to me, I only do what I want to do" this more self-reason... He raised his hand and covered his face, and actually got a little bit in his heart. The feeling of being redeemed.

"Xiao Jin?" Fei Yujing doubted him.

When I entered the shallow light, I looked at him and said, "Are you stupid?"

Fei Yujing frowned, apparently disagreeing with him.

"Forget it, I am stupid to tell you this." Shijin suddenly didn't want to continue to analyze with him. He looked at his eyes and said directly, "Second brother, I am upset because I don't know what you are doing to me." How deep is the feeling; I am afraid because I am afraid that you will once again retreat as if you used to, as I used to; I am not willing, because I am here because of all kinds of behaviors, all kinds of cranky thoughts, but you It seems that I am always calm and awake and indifferent. I am afraid that I will persuade myself to open my mind, let go of the past, and finally I am willing to reopen my heart for you, and I will get the same ending as before."

He said that he stopped and reached down and took the shoulder of Fei Yujing. He looked at his eyes and said: "Two brothers, you are too sensible, I am afraid that I will become a waste of your intellectual balance again. I hope that you are also thinking about my emotions because of me. I hope that you will be pleased with the joy or disappointment of you. I think you care about me and fear losing me. I hope that if one day I disappear into your life. You will feel sad and sad. You only care about me very much, I dare to come back to you. The last lesson was too deep, I am afraid."

Fei Yujing looked at him and first tasted the taste of how to respond to other people's words.

"Second brother, I don't need you to feel the pain I have suffered. I don't need you to feel guilty about it. I have tasted those things. I have tasted them. I even tasted them. You can survive. Difficult, it’s very good.” Shijin retracted his hand and his tone slowed down. “This is all my thoughts. This is what I expect from you. Second brother, if you really accepted my brother, then this You will cooperate with me, okay?"

Yes, that's it. It's not necessary to think about it. What you want is straightforward. If you don't even have to, then you can be willing to be willing to give up. Because of the hard work, he can accept it regardless of the final outcome.

Fei Yujing liked to understand his words, but also did not understand, there is an unknown emotion in his heart rolling, driving him to force the younger brother who is brave enough to take the initiative to reveal his inner weakness, but habitual Reason and lucidity make him unable to act.

You don't need to blame yourself, but you need to be very concerned about it.

His heart seemed to block a stone, and some things wanted to break through the cage, but they were suppressed by instinct.

No, you can't retract it. Time has already taken the first step. He can't let the time into disappointment. All this is clearly his first pick.

"I... a little anxious." He heard his voice, with hesitation he had never had before. "You asked me if I was too shy to tell others what I thought. My answer is yes, I am a bit Urgent, but I dare not tell you."

When you wonder: "What?"

"Seeing that you and the youngest and the fifth have eased their relationship one by one, I am... a little anxious." After the first sentence is exported, it seems that it is no longer difficult to say it later. "So after the car accident I immediately realized that the opportunity came."

Wait, chance? Time to frown slightly.

Fei Yujing slowly recovered his thoughts and calmed down a little bit: "On the island, I found that you are very close to the attitude of the fifth child, and take care of him... not only him, the third child, The fourth child, even the big brother, you are close to, or dependent on, or care about them, only me, you have been very polite to me."

Time to gradually realize what he wants to express, and the heart does not consciously tighten and ask: "I am very polite to you?"

"Yes, very polite." Fei Yujing replied, as if he had thought of something, added, "Not only polite, you are still very prepared for me. So I started trying to touch you more, just like the third child is like you." But your response to my contact is very common."

When I think of Fei Yujing, I touch my head from time to time, my eyes are slightly enlarged. Is this actually intentional?

Fei Yujing reached out and tapped his forehead and said, "It’s like this... I found that your attitude towards me is like facing a relationship that can only be regarded as a friend of understanding, not exclusive, not too close. So I am in a hurry. I can't do much to help Lianjun. After these are over, I will only have fewer chances to meet you than now. If everything is so dusty, what should I do? I don't want it. I am the only one among all the brothers who are so polite to you. Xiaojin, I want to be your brother, not want to be your kind friend."

I couldn’t speak for the time being.

"I want to know why you are so polite to me, so after the car accident, I deliberately let the following message spread more seriously, I want to entice you. You really came, and I really feel embarrassed, so I took the opportunity and You start the topic and want to know what you think, but I am screwed up. I even deliberately shouted the third child, thinking that there is him, the atmosphere should be lively and relaxed, if I am angry with you, he can still I am jealous of you." Fei Yujing said all his calculations and asked, "Xiao Jin, I am a terrible brother, right?"

"...no." He shook his head and looked at his sober self-deprecating and vague self-satisfaction. For a time, it was a mixed feeling. He said, "You are not terrible... you are just... just too stupid, second brother. Why are you so clever?"

Their brothers have been around for so long, what are they doing?