Feng Wan waited outside the door, feeling uneasy. She didn't know what Ning Bai thought of Lu Xiaodong, why he cared about Lu Xiaodong... Could it be that he knew Lu Xiaodong before? Otherwise, why would you blame her for Lu Xiaodong's affairs?

No, it won't... What reason does Ning Bai have to blame her for Lu Xiaodong?

The two of them have nothing to do with each other.

The reason why Ning Bai was so indifferent to him must be blaming her for losing him back then, and Lu Xiaodong was just an excuse.

She was still young at that time, less than thirty years old, she put love above everything else, she took Ning Bai as her all sustenance, she tried every means to save her love and her family.

It's a pity that she used the wrong method, so she lost her child.

This is her punishment.

Lu Maofeng didn't dare to divorce her. In order to please her, he brought her a child back to raise, but this was not what she wanted at all.

No one can replace her little cypress.

Xiaobai is her only child.

Lu Xiaodong was just hugged by Lu Maofeng to coax her. Did that man think that he would forget his mistakes? She will never forget it!

Feng Wan knew that she didn't care about Lu Xiaodong, but she didn't feel that she was sorry for the child.

She fed him, clothed him, gave him money, and gave him the best of everything.

And she doesn't have any demands on him... This child is not as good-looking as Xiaobai, not as smart as Xiaobai, as sensible as Xiaobai, and he doesn't know how to read words and emotions. He is not even as good as Xiaobai's toe.

But I didn't ask how good he was?

Without them, maybe the kid would still be in the orphanage, having a worse life.

She thought that she had done her utmost to Lu Xiaodong.

There is nothing to say, it is the child who does not know what is good or bad, and does not learn well by himself.

Feng Wan never cared about Lu Xiaodong, she missed her only son Ning Bai for more than 20 years, and now she finally found him.

But Ning Bai refused to forgive her.

Feng Wan looked anxious.

Just then, the door opened.

The man stood there with an indifferent expression, looking at her with pale amber eyes, his calm expression seemed to contain deep disappointment, and he didn't know whether it was hatred for himself or her.

Feng Wan was suddenly a little uneasy, feeling that something was wrong, she hurriedly stepped forward and said with a smile, "Xiaobai, are you staying at home tonight?"

Ning Bai didn't take anything but Lu Xiaodong's diary. He held the diary in his hands and looked at Feng Wan with downcast eyes, "I won't come back again."

There is nothing here, what he is nostalgic for.

Feng Wan was shocked immediately. She looked at Ning Bai with a pale face, and begged, "Why? Mom really loves you, can't you give Mom a chance?"

Ning Bai looked at her, his chest was cold, he didn't even want to say a word to her, but finally he said slowly, "Do you really love me?"

Is it me you love, or the child who can meet all your expectations and sustenance?

But when I let go of your hand back then, I had already given up on you.

What you should really love is the child who still has expectations of you and expects your love.

Ning Bai's thin lips were tightly pursed, but he didn't say a word of these words in the end.

For those who do not understand, it is meaningless to say more.

I will make up for your mistakes, but not because I forgive you...just because I love him.

Ning Bai turned around and left.

Feng Wan was in a hurry, she choked up and chased after her, "Xiaobai, mom really loves you, where are you going? Mom has always loved you..."

But Ning Bai's footsteps were steady and strong, and he never looked back from the beginning to the end.

Feng Wan looked at the back of Ning Bai leaving, her face was full of despair and helplessness, as if she had returned to twenty years ago, this child accidentally separated from her and was drowned in the crowd, no matter how much he called, he would always Never responded to myself.

He is getting further and further away from himself...

This walk is twenty years.

In the past twenty years, I have been regretting all the time, regretting that I didn't hold the child's hand well at that time, worried that he would die, worried that he would suffer, and worried that he would leave me and live a bad life, because there will never be anyone who loves me more than myself. he...

But why is he unwilling to come back now that they finally meet again?

Why?

Feng Wan cried and said, "Xiaobai, mom didn't lose you on purpose, mom loves you very much, do you trust mom?"

Ning Bai finally looked back at her, the corners of his lips curled into a sneer, you don't know until now, it wasn't you who lost me, but I left by myself.

But he didn't say it.

Because he will never come back here again.

Ning Bai got into the car, closed the door in front of Feng Wan, started the car and left, and put the diary in the passenger seat.

The black notebook lay there quietly.

Ning Bai glanced at the diary, his lips were pursed and turned pale, his face was curved coldly, only at this moment did his eyes show deep worry.

He was afraid that Lu Xiaodong would be overwhelmed.

Things are more serious than he imagined.

Ning Bai held the steering wheel tightly with his fingers, and called Xue Ze with the other hand, and said in a deep voice, "Check it out for me, where is Lu Xiaodong now?"

………………

Lin Ziran had a hot pot meal outside alone, and when he swiped his card, he saw the balance in the card, and finally showed a slightly worried expression.

He's running out of money!

During this period of time, I was so happy, living in a luxury suite in a five-star hotel, eating all kinds of luxurious and luxurious meals... Spending money in the game, I didn't think about saving at all, so he was about to run out of money .

After all, it's money in the game, and it doesn't feel like spending it, like spending game gold coins...

One hundred thousand is almost gone in the blink of an eye.

Then he remembered the time when he spent hundreds of thousands of dollars on clothes in order to pursue Ning Bai. At that time, his brain was really flooded to buy so many clothes. If he knew that the mission would not be completed, he might as well keep the money and enjoy himself! Who wants to spend on that damn picky ghost!

investment loss.

Lin Ziran wished he could sell the clothes back to Ning Bai, but thinking that such a shameless thing could not be done, he could be shameless, but he still wanted to save some face for Lu Xiaodong...

Lin Ziran system, I'm going to run out of money, what should I do 5555

The system will go back to find your cheap parents?

Lin Ziran, I will starve to death outside all my life, and I will never take another penny from them!

System in this life?

Lin Ziran these days...

Lin Ziran touched his chin, the money was almost spent, and he probably wouldn't be able to stay in this world for long.

After all, he is playing games to enjoy life, not to suffer.

Lin Ziran drove back to the hotel, thinking about the balance on the card, this five-star hotel is unacceptable...

Suddenly he had a flash of inspiration, in fact, he can live in the dormitory!

Lu Xiaodong used to spend all day fooling around so he didn't live in a dormitory, but there were still places in the dormitory. Lin Ziran did it when he thought of it, and immediately retired from the hotel suite, and drove to Lu Xiaodong's school.

He is a student, and there is nothing wrong with living in a dormitory. On the contrary, he feels very kind.

This is a good university in this city, and the environment is also very good. Although Lu Xiaodong is not as smart and capable as Ning Bai, he is not mentally retarded. On the contrary, he worked very hard. He can lead a good life, after all, the Lu family really didn't treat him badly in terms of money.

He was just wrong, expecting someone who would never love him to love him.

Hurt yourself for someone who doesn't love him.

According to the information in the system, Lin Ziran came to Lu Xiaodong's dormitory. Because he had never lived in it, he didn't even have a key to the dormitory, which made it very embarrassing to stand at the door. Fortunately, he found a roommate in the same dormitory...

The roommate didn't expect to meet him here, and asked very curiously, "Xiaodong, why did you come here? What's the matter?"

Lin Ziran scratched his head, "I think school will start soon, and I plan to live in school this year."

The roommate was very surprised. He didn't know Lu Xiaodong very well. He felt that he was a very rebellious second-generation ancestor. However, most college students were pure and enthusiastic. They didn't think too much, and smiled happily, "It's good that you want to live on campus. Ah, don’t you have a key? I’ll get one for you later, let’s go in first.”

The roommate is called Xia Hang, with a warm and cheerful personality, and is also Lu Xiaodong's monitor. He was working and studying nearby during the summer vacation, so he stayed at the school and did not go back. It is still some time before the official start of school, and the other roommates have not come back. I was quite surprised to see Lu Xiaodong suddenly came to the school.

After all, Lu Xiaodong is the kind of person who won't come to the dormitory even after school starts.

Lin Ziran followed Xia Hang into the dormitory, glanced around, and soon found out where his bed was.

When Xia Hang saw it, a rare blush appeared on his face, and he said embarrassedly, "Let me clean it up for you."

Because Lu Xiaodong didn't live on campus all year round, his bed was filled with sundries by other students, including pots, pans, quilts and everything.

Lin Ziran didn't mind at all, it's normal!

He has a good impression of this class monitor, he is still a cute and innocent college student, Lin Ziran gets along very easily and happily, compared to getting along with a bully like Jiang Xuan and a control freak like Ning Bai, how cute are college students of his age!

Woooooo, he suddenly felt that this world is so kind!

Lu Xiaodong is a real kid, he doesn't know how to take care of a good life, he has to waste his life with scumbag parents, scumbag mothers, scumbags...

If there is such a person, Lin Ziran must beat him on the head to wake him up.

But when he turned his head and thought about it, Lin Ziran sighed again. He also stood and talked without pain in his back. From Lu Xiaodong's point of view, how could he just let go of his parents, whom he loved desperately? I have no right to blame Lu Xiaodong.

Everyone has their own life and something they insist on.

If you are not in it, how can you feel the pain of the other party?

Others have no right to comment.

The two made the bed together. To express his gratitude, Lin Ziran invited Xia Hang out for dinner. Xia Hang is a very enthusiastic and familiar person. Although he and Lu Xiaodong were not familiar with each other before, after a meal, the two It's very familiar.

Looking at Lin Ziran, Xia Hang was a little puzzled. He felt that classmate Lu was actually very cheerful and had a good personality. Why did he make himself into that non-mainstream look before? At first I thought that he would be that kind of social person...

However, classmate Lu has changed his ways now, not only has he dressed normally, but he has also stopped messing with the gangsters in the society. Xia Hang is still very happy for him, and they will be good friends in the dormitory from now on!

Lin Ziran lived for a few days and quickly adapted to the place.

He used to live on campus in real life. Lu Xiaodong’s school dormitory is in good condition, with air conditioners and everything. Lin Ziran didn’t feel uncomfortable living in it. at home...

Seeing the cold face of the scumbag parents every day is getting angry.

He should have moved out as soon as the plot collapsed!

I was still too reluctant to let go before, so I held back myself.

Lin Ziran was lying on the bed that day and suddenly had an idea.

He doesn't have much money, but in fact he has another asset brought out! money is not a problem!

Lin Ziran immediately got up from the bed and rushed out.

What's wrong with your system?

Lin Ziran, I know how to get the money!

He rushed to the downstairs of the dormitory, and looked at the fluorescent green Lamborghini with disgust. Lu Xiaodong's aesthetics was biased by some people, and he actually liked a car of this color!

Bright enough, bright enough to blind people's eyes.

He used to get such a car to drive attention, but now that he lives on campus, the students have to look like students. What kind of Lamborghini do they want? Or a fluorescent green Lamborghini?

It looks unlucky!

So it's green?

Lin Ziran immediately called the second-hand car seller, because his asking price was not high, the other party drove out to evaluate it, and quickly called Lin Ziran 200,000 the next day.

Looking at the two hundred thousand, Lin Ziran was in a good mood again feeling that the money came so easily.

He can still go on hi.

What kind of Lamborghini do you want, isn't he a fan of shared bicycles? Enough for school use! Health and environmental protection can also exercise!

Under the tree-lined avenue of the school, the air was fresh and the breeze was blowing. Just after eating, Lin Ziran pedaled his bicycle beautifully across the path, and when he returned to his dormitory downstairs, he accidentally met Ning Bai's eyes.

Lin Ziran "..."

Is this guy trying to scare him to death? Why did he come to his school?

The evil spirits are gone!

Lin Ziran locked the bicycle expressionlessly, and walked up as if he couldn't see Ning Bai.

Ning Bai has been waiting here for a long time.

His eyes fell on the boy's face.

On the boy's clean and delicate face, there were small beads of sweat on his forehead. He was wearing a simple white T-shirt, like a very ordinary student. By the way, even the shiny earrings were gone.

It looked good, but Ning Bai knew it was just an appearance.

He looked at the yellow bicycle.

Pain appeared in the fundus of the eyes.

Has this child fallen to this point, living in a dormitory, riding a bicycle, his original car...is it sold?

He already has nothing, except for a little money, he has never received any care that belongs to him, any love that he expected, but now even the only money left, is he already gone?

Ning Bai remembered what he had done.

I didn't know this child at all at the time, he didn't know anything, he acted as an executioner, deprived the boy of what he didn't have much, and made him spend money to buy clothes... Make him do things for himself, just because he Chase yourself and say you like it, and you should trample on this intention.

It never occurred to him that the kid might just want someone to love him.

So pretending to be rebellious, trying to gain attention and presence.

If I had paid more attention at that time, and had noticed his rebellious appearance, and his fragile heart longing to be loved earlier, he would have been more gentle, instead of letting his indifference, on that already riddled heart , leaving more wounds.

He should have understood sooner...

Ning Bai's heart seemed to be clenched, his chest heaved slightly, and he followed Lin Ziran up.

As soon as Lin Ziran went upstairs, he found that Ning Bai had followed him, and suddenly felt a toothache.

He didn't understand why Ning Bai came here. When he left Lu's house, he was more worried about Jiang Xuan than Ning Bai...because Ning Bai has a cold nature and is not the kind of person who will stalk , if you don't provoke him, he won't provoke you either.

It was obvious that he refused last time, so Lin Ziran never thought that Ning Bai would come to him.

This is the school dormitory, Lin Ziran saw that there were classmates coming and going next to him, he wanted to show face, he didn't want to make it too ugly, finally let Ning Bai into the dormitory, and said impatiently, "What are you doing here?"

Ning Bai looked at the boy's indifferent and alienated face, pain appeared in the depths of his eyes, even the blood flowing through his heart was cold. In front of him, because he knows that the matter has come to this point, any of his actions will not be forgiven and understood.

But he couldn't stay any longer.

Thinking of the contents of that diary, unprecedented panic overwhelmed his heart. He was afraid that as long as he didn't look at the other party in the blink of an eye, the other party would completely disappear from his world.

If something happened to this child due to his own negligence, he would never be able to forgive himself.

Ning Bai spoke slowly, with complicated eyes and a hoarse voice, "I'm worried about you."

Jiang Xuan also said this before, Lin Ziran was almost numb, and said in his heart that this is really a bloody script, no one cared about Lu Xiaodong before, now I won't lick you, you all ran to worry about me... …

Sure enough, only those who lose can know how to cherish. It is an irrefutable truth!

Lin Ziran was in a trance.

Lin Ziran, I feel now, I'm afraid I didn't follow the script of the protagonist Gong, but I followed the script of the protagonist Shou!

Not to mention the system, it's a bit like...

Lin Ziran was terrifying.

Lin Ziran quickly regained his senses from the association. In fact, his own perception of Ning Bai was just like that. Although this guy was picky about troublesome things and forced him to order him, but it was because he was limited by his previous personality and caught up with him. It's unfair to blame Ning Bai for all the self-inflicted ones, and he also saved himself from Jiang Xuan.

For example, he hates military training, going to school, and taking exams. When he wakes up early every day, he will get up angry. He will occasionally swear when he loses in games, and he will secretly scold him when he encounters a boss at work... But This kind of dislike is actually just like that. His dislike for Ning Bai is probably at this level. It would be ridiculous to say that there is any deep hatred, let alone that the other party is a game NC... It’s fine if you finish spraying it. Can't make yourself happy?

But after all, Lin Ziran couldn't like him after letting himself be an errand for half a month.

So strictly speaking, he feels like a passer-by who neither likes nor dislikes Ning Bai... As long as you don't trouble me, I will treat you as if you don't exist.

But from Lu Xiaodong's point of view, he would not want to see Ning Bai.

Lin Zi thought about it for a long time, and re-read the script again. He felt that Lu Xiaodong didn't really like Ning Bai that much, and the kid's pursuit of Ning Bai might really be on a whim! The original plot said that Lu Xiaodong stalked Ning Bai because of love at first sight, and later tried to drug QJ when he failed to pursue him. He didn't know Ning Bai at all, and because of jealousy, this kind of thing didn't look like true love. ...

Lu Xiaodong doesn't understand what love is, he has never been loved before, because his circle of friends is not good, so he naturally picked up some bad habits... His life is actually distorted and sad.

When he meets a good-looking person, he pursues him. If he can't catch up with him, he hates him because of love. He wants revenge. Maybe he just wants to destroy himself if he does that kind of thing.

The consequences were as he wished.

Lu Xiaodong's liking was not a real liking, but an attempt of his rebellion. After all, it was just a child's nonsense, and in the end, he couldn't stop the trouble.

Now that Ning Bai's background is revealed, it is even more impossible for him to like Ning Bai.

On the contrary, it is not necessarily that he will hate Ning Bai.

Because this is the person he can't compare to no matter what, he is the favorite child in his parents' hearts, but what is he? nothing.

Ning Bai watched the boy's changing expression.

Sad for a while, disappointed for a while, sighed for a while, and finally sad.

All this made him very uncomfortable.

Sure enough, although you acted as if it didn't matter, how could it be possible that it didn't matter? I'm sorry that my existence caused you such pain...

Ning Bai's voice was hoarse and painful, he looked at Lin Ziran seriously, and said, "I want to tell you..."

You're fine, don't need to live for anyone, don't need to feel bad about not living up to their expectations...

You didn't do anything wrong, it was them.

But when these words reached his throat, he suddenly couldn't continue, because he shouldn't have known these things. The boy used this appearance to disguise himself, because he didn't want to expose his fragility to others.

He didn't want others to look at him with pity.

He wants to protect his dignity.

Ning Bai's Adam's apple rolled, and finally he said slowly, "I won't return home."

Lin Ziran "...?"

So you came to school just to tell me this? Does it have anything to do with me whether you go back home or not? I don't know how to go back home either, whoever wants to go to that kind of home!

Lin Ziran looked cold and said, "Oh, as you like."

Ning Bai looked at him sadly, "Don't you care?"

Lin Ziran "I don't care."

Ning Bai looked into his cold eyes, but his heart tightened again, do you really care... If you really don't care why you ran away from home, why you refused to go back when you had no money, why you would rather sell the car live on campus...

Why flee there?

Lin Ziran became impatient, he couldn't do it all the time, it's hard to explain when his classmates come back, Lin Ziran pushed Ning Bai, and said coldly, "If you're fine, go."

Ning Bai looked at the wariness in the boy's eyes, the obvious disapproval on his face, and his heart was filled with bitterness.

Once upon a time, when he liked himself so much, he would always look at him with anticipation, and would wait downstairs every day and night. At that time, he didn't cherish it. He just regarded it as a trick of a little rascal, squandering his enthusiasm wantonly. , now he finally stopped chasing him...

Ning Bai closed his eyes and said hoarsely, "Okay."

………………

Lin Ziran thought he had sent Ning Bai away, but after a few days he found out that he was very wrong!

For example, when he got out of the dormitory, he would find Ning Bai's car parked downstairs.

Sleeping at night, looking down, Ning Bai's car is still below.

Even if Ning Bai is not there for a nap occasionally, Ning Bai's car is back after going out for a meal!

help! ! !

Although Ning Bai never appeared and did not bother him, he was everywhere. Lin Ziran was horrified when he thought of this place, this terrifying feeling of being followed no matter where he went...

In other words, why did Ning Bai do this?

Isn't he very busy? When I pursued him before, it was common for this picky ghost to work overtime until 12 o'clock. It is not an exaggeration to say that he is busy with everything. Why is he following me at school all day long now?

Could it be that he really likes himself? Lin Ziran shuddered.

But even if he really likes himself, there is no need to do this, right?

A dignified barrister who acts like a stalker.

Where did I offend you?

That day, Lin Ziran woke up after sleeping late in the morning. Looking down from the balcony, he saw the familiar black car again. He suddenly felt a toothache. He finally couldn't take it anymore! This guy is really annoying!

Lin Ziran ran downstairs and patted on the car window vigorously!

The car window was rolled down, revealing the man's handsome and delicate face, but compared with the calm and indifferent in the past, it seemed a little more tired, and it seemed that he hadn't had a good rest during this time.

Ning Bai's eyes were gentle and his voice was hoarse, "What's the matter?"

Lin Ziran was so angry, why do you have the nerve to ask me? Don't you know what you're doing? His voice was cold and his face was displeased, "Why are you following me! Are you sick?"

Ning Bai pursed his lips, with a bitter look in his eyes.

He didn't dare to tell the boy, I'm afraid you'll be too stupid to do something stupid, these days he can hardly close his eyes, as long as he closes his eyes, it's like going back to the dark past, this time there is a little boy with him Together. The words and sentences in the boy's diary, which seem to be a few words, outline a boy's hopelessness, so clearly and vividly, he works so hard to get the affirmation and love of his parents... But now he can't even So the last bit of sustenance is gone.

Ning Bai didn't dare to close his eyes, didn't dare to leave, he was afraid that once he left, he would encounter something that he would regret.

Ning Bai pursed his thin lips slightly, and said gently, "I didn't follow you, I just happened to be here."

Lin Ziran laughed angrily, "You think I'm a fool?"

Ning Bai lowered his eyes, "Of course not."

The man's appearance made Lin Ziran feel like he was punching cotton. He didn't pester you or make things difficult for you. He just parked the car downstairs in your dormitory, just in the place where you appeared. You scolded him and asked him He just pretended to be stupid and didn't speak.

It's just oil and salt!

Lin Ziran kicked Ning Bai's expensive car door fiercely, and threatened viciously, "Listen to me, don't follow me anymore, do you understand? I don't want to see you!"

The sad look in Ning Bai's eyes flashed, and he whispered, "You can pretend you can't see me."

This is not willing to go?

Lin Ziran took a deep breath, and raised the corners of his mouth sarcastically, "It was you who disliked me back then, and now you are the one who chases me and refuses to leave. Have you been kicked out of your mind? Who are you showing this to? Let me guess, are you going to say you like me again?"

Ning Bai said, "No."

Lin Ziran was taken aback, did he finally stop pretending?

Then he saw the man looking at him seriously, the amber eyes seemed to be filled with unspeakable deep pain and tenderness, and he said, "I love you."