Chapter 80: Cheap Words

Chapter 80: Cheap Words

My eyes roam the walls of the room, from floor to ceiling. The curvature and sharp cuts of the room show the surprising finesse that Gong and her spiders took with hollowing out the room.

Or maybe this was the work of her friend the one who was taken?

As this thought drifts through my mind, my eyes land back on Ai, who is seemingly waiting for me to speak further, while appearing as if she isnt.

I used to work for a tech company, one that focused on making some kind of software item for other tech companies. All I basically did for them was shuffle papers or information from one area, to another area. Sounds simple, but it involved so many aspects. It paid enough for me to survive, but not much else.

Every single day, I would pass by this kid hanging out on the street. Clearly homeless. Definitely in a bad state. On a whim, I brought him something every day. Maybe a sandwich or a few dollars. Nothing much. Just something to start a conversation.

I shake my head at the memory.

Im not even sure of why I started doing it. I think it was just I dont know. He reminded me of one of my cousins when I was younger. If I could be considered poor, in the sense that we ate some form of soup every day, well my cousin was the type of poor that literally ate trash food, if he was lucky.

I couldnt see this kid go through that as well. Even if it cost me a little more, I didnt mind at all.

Every day, he thanked me, and smile a little brighter it was nice. Wed hang out for a tiny bit and just threw verbal jabs at each other, enjoying each others company. Wed chill, drink some sodas, and just enjoy the small amount of time we had together. After a while, we really built a pretty good rapport with each other.

I can feel my face tighten again.

One day, while me and a coworker were walking back to our cars from a nearby bar from a company outing, I heard a really familiar voice demand money from behind us. As we got out our stuff to give him, all I could hear was, fuck. Fuck! Get out of here! Just go get out of here. Keep your shit! Get the fuck out of here! before pushing us away. The other guy and I sprinted to our cars and rushed out of there.

But I knew exactly who that robber was. And I didnt see him at his usual spot since then.

Its always felt like Ive helped a little, but never enough.

From that story to the next, I just spoke to the wind. Airing out things Ive gone through in life. From losing friends in college, to my first relationship, to my frustrations in not being able to connect deeper with her, and ultimately, us breaking up.

Ai stays silent through it all. Its not until I bring up a certain subject that she speaks.

I continue with saying, I miss my mom. I miss how she used to laugh with my father and with the little we had, make soup together with the family. I wish I could go back to the times after college, when I would come back to visit, and there would be a radiant smile on her face. My children are back yet again, Hun. I guess, theres nothing here but food for them. As she says that, she would cook enormous meals and make sure me and my sister left with full bellies.

My lip curls in as I stare at the ceiling, feeling my eyes tearing up.

I-I couldnt look into her casket, when she died. I didnt want to see what they had turned her into. She was killed in some kind of freak car accident, after a church group session. While we stood there, Ill never forget how dad looked. His face was like the world had ended. They were already old, by the time she passed, but that didnt matter to us. Not even the slightest. We just wanted her back.

Dad didnt last long after that. There really wasnt anything left for him with her gone. It was pretty much just us left.

I feel a sad chuckle escape me. Well he wasnt the only one. When he left, I didnt know what to do with myself. It was just day in and day out, at the office. A dull, grey life. Mom was always telling me You Can be better. Just slow down. Dont be so impulsive. Be more careful about who you trust. But, dont give up trying to help people, even if its uncomfortable.

My head shakes almost unconsciously.

I definitely took her first batches of advice, but stopped the last bit. I just wasnt worth it. Why should I help other people, when they are going to leave you, anyway? Eventually, I managed to find myself again, thanks to my sister, Tammy

It was hard so hard. Difficult, painful even, to just breath. Exist. But I did it. We did it

Why do you help us, James?

I can tell this is a serious moment. Shes heard me. Ive heard her. But do I understand her? My minds a mess. I Ill just speak and respond. To address to her fears.

I help you guys because I I just

I pause my words. And try to restart.

I know youre worried about why I would want to help people who might not normally be worth helping. Where I come from its normal, to try to be friends with people for no other reason than feeling a connection with them. Or to help people who might need help. Even if it is bad for you in the short term.

I feel myself subconsciously moving my hand to the back of my head, rubbing it slightly.

And if Im being honest with myself I feel like Im not doing the right thing if Im not using my powers to help people. After helping you two with your conditions, I want to see it through to the end. Its not only that, though. I think you guys are awesome. Truly, amazingly awesome.

So, I stay here. I work with you, hoping to get to know you better. Helping you in whatever ways I can. Ultimately, Im happy, when my friends are happy. I cant sit by, as you and Lin are hurting. Frankly, it hurts me to know that youve been through. If you guys arent doing well I feel bad about it.

I just want to be there for you guys in whatever way I can. I dont need any sex from you. Im not looking for anything from you, except your friendship. I know it may seem and sound weird, but thats just the type of person I am. Ill keep saying it as many times as I need to.

I just want to do the right thing by you two. For you to be safe, happy, and I dont know Im talking in circles. DDo you understand where Im coming from?

She pauses, not saying anything else.

She swallows before speaking, sounding exhausted.

You really dont seem to get what I need from you. What we need from you.

But I I also cant believe that there is any sane person who would only look for friendship in a relationship. Especially, if you have no initial reason to know them. It makes no sense to me. What I can understand and live with is that you are clearly weird one. Who goes around healing people with no reason other than, they were sick? Who definitely comes from a place that Ive never heard of and with so many things that are strange.

She looks away. Then looks back at me, her eyes less narrowed than before, but still hard.

Fine. Well see what you do. Im not accepting this, though. You want to be friends? Okay then.

Her eyes narrow further. Her chin lifts slightly.

Im not giving up. I know what youll want. Talk is easy. So, Im going to be right here. Im not leaving this room. Well see what kind of friends youll want to be after tonight.

She rolls directly onto me, catching me by surprise.

Shes still naked. Lips tightened, as she looks up at me from my chest. She places a hand on my leg.

So. What are you going to do?