Chapter 81: Hits Keep Coming
As I look at her laying on top of me, I get more irritated rather than aroused. I can understand her not believing me, but why would she try to actively tempt me like this? To essentially push through her own assumptions and force it to happen.
As I think through it a bit more, though, I realize I shouldnt be getting irritated about this.
Shes been through a lot over her life.
I have no idea the number of times that shes been betrayed by people. How the slippery slope with their father transpired. All shes told me is that her father was first reminded of her by her mother. And that he essentially started treating her more and more differently. With a clear separate intent than one a father might have with their daughter.
Those types of things leave a serious effect on the person. This might be her way of making sure that Im not just playing her. Which means, in order to help convince her, I need to show no real interest in her. Ne/w novel chapters are published at novelhall.com
Actually, that might do the opposite. She might assume, like before, that I just dont have any interest in her because shes not attractive. Which can be its own rabbit hole.
I think what she needs is genuine care. From someone who actually cares, that isnt a woman or someone with something to gain. One that will show it in a right and proper way, over a long period of time. Not as a lust filled man.
With this in mind, I slowly roll her off, ignoring the lingering feeling of her on me. Covering up the lights around the room with the web flaps, I say to her, if youd like to sleep in the bed, go ahead. Ill sleep on the floor over here, so that you dont need to worry about me doing anything.
As I rolled her off of me, she seemed simultaneously relieved and annoyed at my action. As she listened to me, after my last words came up, her eyes widened and her jaw drops.
She says, Wait, why are you sleeping on the floor? This is your room. Are you going to just let me sleep in your bed? Arent you letting me eat meat and you drinking soup?
Uh sure? If I spend the night on the floor, there will be less chance for you being able to entice me, than if I decided to stay in the bed with you.
Fine, then. But, why not just tell me to leave? This is your room, after all.
Ah. Shes right. That is actually is quite a good point.
I guess I let all those movies allow me to think that was the only option I could use when having a woman stay over.
Oh. Alright then. Could you leave my room then?
No.
No?
In fact, since the time weve met you, youve continuously gone out and healed people despite the fact that weve told you that its a bad idea. You yourself, have said you wont and youll avoid doing so in the future.
Youve also used your taming powers, near continuously, in front of other people. Which, even though it turned alright, required movements by Gong in the background to make up for it. Thats not even including what Big Sis Crane has done.
I cant say anything to that. My lips tighten and I feel myself naturally looking to the side. Its hard to look her in the eyes.
Ive been putting them in consistent danger with my actions. Even with the latest thing, I let my emotions take control of me.
Gong may have let me go along with it, out of guilt for what Ive already done for her. But I was Im being foolish.
The hits dont stop from Ai, as she goes even further.
Clearly, you dont seem to understand that its not only the fact that you might have sex with other women and get manipulated, that makes us feel like we I feel the need to do this.
I really find it hard to believe that we can trust you to keep us safe. Or to be more specific, to not pull us into deeper trouble than we already are in.
And, Im not stupid. I know youre trying to avoid having sex with me, because you feel guilty of what I went through with Old Rong. Its clear that you know Im trying to seduce you, even if you might be attracted to me.
Wait, what? Is she just going to say that out loud? I suppose this makes things easier, but is that really okay to say for the one trying to seduce?
Dont look so surprised. Do you really think youre the first person whos come near us with seemingly good intentions? Feeling guilty about being attracted to me? No, dont be foolish.
Her arms cross as she looks to the side. Eyes toward the corner, facing the ground.
In the end, they all end up betraying and hurting us. So, I use what I can from them and prepare for the worst.
She shakes her head and pauses. Which leads into a sigh, gathering my attention back to her grey eyes.
With that said, you are actually the first one, to have sincerely helped us. Not only that, but Lin trusts you. Well, at least not to try to purposely betray us.
So, normally I wouldnt tell you shit and just try to make you do what we want, my way. But Im going to make this simple for you
She pauses, but looks pretty serious. At the silence between her words, I cant help but take a deep breath.
It looks I will have to hear this out if I want to actually fix this relationship.