Volume 3 - CH 4

Chapter 4: Curly Hair

“Yoshida… Did you like it?”

After we did that, Kanda-senpai smiled, regained her lost breath, and asked.

“Very.”

I nodded, but she just chuckled.

“You’re lying.”

“I’m not!”

“If you liked it, you would’ve cum right away.”

After these words, I shook my head.

“These things aren’t related to each other.”

I leaned back and got off Kanda-senpai. She moaned seductively.

“You know… It was my suggestion, so we could’ve done it without a rubber.”

Kanda-senpai said as she watched me remove the condom.

“You would’ve finished faster without it.”

“We shouldn’t do it without a condom. You never know what could happen.”

“I already told you that I’m on the pill.”

Kanda-senpai’s period was difficult. Tough and unstable. To regulate the cycle, she took pills, but that wasn’t enough for me.

There are times when a woman becomes pregnant, even though she’s taking contraception. I read this on my father’s computer when he wasn’t at home.

“You don’t love me.”

“I love you, that’s why I use condoms.”

As Kanda-senpai stood up, her curly hair tousled.

“I don’t understand you. If you love me, then cum inside.”

I didn’t get her train of thought, so just smiled uncertainly and shook my head.

“People cum inside when they want to have a baby, but I haven’t thought about it yet.”

I said, and Kanda-senpai’s eyebrow twitched, and then she gave out an indistinct “Um…”

“That’s why I take pills, so I won’t get pregnant.”

“If we’re not planning to have children, why cum inside?”

She sighed in annoyance, but then suddenly smiled as if she was trying to divert attention.

“I just think that you’ll like it this way more.”

“I like it anyway. I’m glad that I can do this with you, senpai.”

It’s true.

Although I didn’t say it openly, I was really happy that I could have sex with her, but perhaps it was all about simple pleasure. Maybe the opportunity to have sex with her was just giving me a feeling of superiority over others, a feeling that she’s mine, or was it some sort of joy from knowing that she acted like that only in front of me?

Hearing my words, Kanda-senpai smiled, but she definitely didn’t believe me.

“Yoshida, you sure you love me?”

“Of course I do. I love you.”

“Then next time, we’ll do it without a condom.”

I didn’t get why she wanted to do it so badly. Apparently, understanding my feelings, she laughed.

“I want to know how long it’ll take you to cum if we do it without a condom.”

“I won’t do it without one.”

Kanda-senpai sighed, bowing her head.

“Why?”

That’s my line.

I told her this already so many times, why didn’t she understand? I decided to say it a little differently.

“Then we’ll do it sometime.”

I muttered, and she bowed again.

“Someday? When exactly then?”

I didn’t have an answer.

My nose got a little itchy so I scratched it with my index finger.

“When I… I’ll be able to take responsibility for it.”

I said quietly, looking down at the bed. I was so embarrassed, and my face was burning.

Kanda-senpai didn’t say anything, so I looked up at her, and her expression… I haven’t seen her making that face before.

Surprised, scared, I didn’t know. The look was as if she met an unknown creature. When our gazes met, she immediately smiled. But it definitely was a forced smile.

“You’re difficult, Yoshida.”

She said it the way people say “The sky is blue.”

“But also cute.”

Kanda-senpai added as she smiled.

“Difficult?”

“Yeah, not in a bad way, rather impressive. It’s just…”

Kanda-senpai looked at the bed, trying to find the appropriate words.

“I wish you were more relaxed. Aren’t we dating for fun?”

“But ‘relationships’ are a very serious thing.”

After my words, she giggled, reached out to my head, and ruffled my hair.

“I’m happy.”

Patting me on the head, she added “But.”

I looked up, right into her eyes.

And my heart hurt.

She looked at me the way parents look at children. Not how a woman looks at her boyfriend.

“I don’t want to be treasured so much.”

I couldn’t forget the expression on senpai’s face when she said that.

*

I recognized her at a first glance.

I don’t know how many years have passed, and yet…

Foxy eyes, chiseled nose. Compared to matured eyes and nose, a cute mouth. The confidence that came from her.

And the main feature — her curly black hair.

She hasn’t changed at all.

Kanda-senpai.

My beloved high school senior.

The whole assembly I was in the clouds.

She also remembers me. The image of her raising a hand and smiling was spinning in my head.

Usually, morning assemblies dragged on for an incredibly long time, and when it came to an end, it felt like I wasted all my strength.

Sighing heavily, I dropped in a chair, and then I was poked in the shoulder by Hashimoto.

“Yoshida, you know that beauty?”

“You heard it yourself. She was my senior in high school.”

“And… That’s all?”

“What do you mean ‘That’s all’?”

I asked, and Hashimoto cracked an annoying smile.

“Well, I mean… Maybe you haven’t noticed, but you were acting strange there.”

“Huh?”

“As if you are not just a senior and junior, rather you look like a boy that was called by a precious senior.”

“N-no… It’s not like…”

I began to chew on the words. This is certainly true, but I couldn’t answer normally.

“Is she your first love?”

“Well, I’m not sure about the first…”

Come to think of it, it was really my first love. Before that, I hadn’t fallen in love with anyone. As a child, I was only thinking about games, and in high school, when all that romance approached me, I calmly accepted it.

“We… were dating… In high school.”

It was difficult to say anything else, and I also understood that he’d start teasing me, so I said the truth.

After that, Hashimoto stared at me.

“…Is that so?”

“Why would I lie to you?”

“Well… I just thought you had unrequited love, but to think that you were dating that beauty…”

“Hey, don’t you think that you’re being quite rude here?”

It somehow infuriated me that it seemed strange to him that I could date a pretty woman like her, although I could hardly believe it myself.

“Broke up because of an argument?”

“No, we just broke up.”

“Ah… Happens a lot in high school.”

“She was the first to graduate and that’s it.”

“I see.”

“Why are you smiling? It’s all in the past. What about the thing I asked you to do?”

I didn’t want to listen to his jokes anymore, plus the working day began, so I shifted the topic to work.

Hashimoto frowned and said “We didn’t finish though,” but shrugged and pointed to his monitor.

“You didn’t have to remind me, I was already preparing a letter.”

“Thank you. Send me a copy then.”

“I know, I know. No need to ask. Getting away from the topic…”

“Shut up. You’re teasing me too much.”

When I finished speaking, I looked at my monitor, checked my mail, launched the application, and began to prepare for the work routine, but Kanda-senpai was still in my head.

She worked for the same company, and also suddenly transferred to this office. It was surreal.

Feeling someone’s gaze on me, I raised my head and met Mishima’s eyes. She stared at me for a few seconds, and then looked back at her monitor. Then, I felt another gaze, coming from the other side, I looked there and saw Gotou-san turning away from me.

…I don’t like this attention. Even though she’s someone I knew, I shouldn’t have raised my voice like that. Such an unnatural reaction only arouses unnecessary interest.

There will be no difficulties if you know how to control yourself. I was just surprised by her appearance.

I looked in the direction of Chief Odagiri, he was telling Kanda-senpai something. Looks like he was cracking jokes since she was giggling. Her shoulders trembled slightly. The way she laughs hasn’t changed at all.

Kanda-senpai is really here.

I looked at them, and then she looked at me. Our gazes met. It was too late to look away, so I exchanged glances with her, while Kanda-senpai narrowed her eyes slightly and raised the corner of her mouth, making a puzzled expression. She pointed to the corridor, offering to go outside and talk. I nodded and got up.

“I’m going to the toilet.”

“Yeah, yeah. To the toilet…”

I stared at the Hashimoto, he shrugged his shoulders and pointedly said.

“Take your time.”

I was waiting in the hallway, and soon Kanda-senpai appeared. Seeing me leaning against the wall, she quickly walked over.

“I was surprised. We meet again, Yoshida.”

“That’s my line… Senpai, you became a software developer?”

“Well, I wanted to become a systems engineer. I worked with programs and stuff and somehow ended up here. Are you a programmer, Yoshida?”

“Um… I do everything. In general, I am the project developer, but I can only dream of doing only one thing.”

“Wow… looks like you got it rough.”

Kanda-senpai nodded, looking at me.

“What?”

“No, nothing.”

Exhaling through her nose, she tilted her head and continued.

“You’ve changed, Yoshida…”

“Of course I have… How many years have passed? But on the contrary, you haven’t changed at all, senpai.”

“Is that so? But I think I’ve changed…”

“No, really. You haven’t… at all. I immediately realized that it was you.”

I said, and at first, she shot me a puzzled look, but then started laughing akin to the ringing of a bell.

“You haven’t changed at all in terms of…”

“In terms of wh—”

“By the way, I sure have changed in obvious places, haven’t you noticed?”

She was smiling, not letting me finish my question.

I began to look at her face, but it didn’t change much. I even looked at the mole below her lips.

“No, I haven’t noticed anything.”

“Hehe.”

Narrowing her eyes, she lifted the corner of her lips and then, like a child, stuck out her chest, emphasizing the breasts.

“They became one size larger.”

“Huh?”

“Come on… I’m talking about my chest.”

“Oh…”

I gave up indiscretion and looked down at her breasts. Even in the suit, they looked big. When I was in high school, her breasts attracted me very much…

And then I imagined her naked, but immediately shook the thought out of my head.

“I don’t remember your previous size.”

“Huh?! You meanie! You used to enjoy touching them so much.”

“Shh! What if someone hears us?”

“Well, what about it? But if it’s a secret, I won’t tell anyone.”

“No, it’s not like…”

I fell silent and bowed my head. I thought that she’d rather hide it, but it seems that it didn’t bother her.

“I just thought that you wouldn’t want to talk about the fact that we dated.”

After these words, her eyebrows twitched, and she grinned.

“…You haven’t changed either.”

“Huh?”

“Let’s get back to work. I’ll ask you if I have any questions.”

“Yeah, anytime.”

Kanda-senpai waved and headed to the office.

After following her, I leaned powerlessly against the wall.

“I’m tired…”

I sighed.

I thought we’d never see each other again, but she suddenly appeared and even spoke to me. This sure was exhausting. Even meetings with clients are not that stressful.

“I’ll go to the toilet.”

I said that I’ll go to the toilet, and it’d definitely be strange if I didn’t go there. So, I went to the bathroom.

But still.

I remembered Kanda-senpai’s words.

You haven’t changed at all.

The expression on her face.

Was it surprise or resignation? It was the same expression from that time in high school. Every time I saw it, I felt like I messed up somewhere.

“You haven’t changed either, you know?”

I mumbled, opening the door.

My beloved senior has never spoken seriously.