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Fengyi Garden.

This is a big house. I've lived here for many years and I've never thought of leaving. I think I've lived here for the rest of my life.

Everyone has their own secrets in this house, and I am no exception.

All these years, I've been having the same dream, and the same face will appear in my dreams, whether I'm crying or laughing. I thought I'd be stuck in this dream for the rest of my life and would never be able to get away from it.

But I never thought she'd come back.

Yes, she's back, that little girl.

I couldn't see anything of her on her face, except that her eyes were somewhat similar to her young self.

At the beginning, I didn't believe that she was her child. After all, so many years have passed, and even if the little girl from back then hadn't died, no one would have been able to find her. After so many years have passed in the vast sea of people, the little girl back then was only a baby that was still in its cradle. Yes, I understand …

But she came back just like that.

This kind of rich family is obviously not the same to her. I silently watched her groping and fighting in this kind of house, even the servants beside her would bully her a few times, causing her to be unable to eat her fill or wear her clothes warmly. I didn't know why, but a familiar face suddenly appeared in my memory when I saw her like this.

Although that person was much prettier than her, but … But how similar the scene was.

It was just that there was someone by her side who had always been with her, but she was the only one who would take responsibility no matter what happened to this girl.

I just watched, silently, as if it had nothing to do with me.

But only I know how frightened and frightened I am.

That feeling...

When I was three years old, I started to follow my father and learned how to read and write. At the age of five, I was able to speak so much, and even my grandfather, who valued men over women, had said that if I were a boy, there would be hope for our family. Every time he said those words, a faint smile would appear on his face and his gaze towards me would become incomparably gentle. However, every time he said those words, he would turn cold and indifferent, and even … It was even a perverted punishment …

But I have always been a sensible child, and I know what to say and do, and I am smarter than any child, and I know how to protect myself, and it is a matter of pride to have such a serious patriarchal son in such a great family, and to be so preoccupied with the glory of his children. Yes, we are a family that cultivates and studies. Our ancestors were born into the top ranks and we were born different from ordinary people. All of our bloodlines carry the nobility of scholars.

Unfortunately …

It's a pity that ever since our ancestor, our clan has never had another genius. No matter how hard we try, the amount of income we get is extremely small. Even if he is just an Elementary Scholar, it is enough for a clan like ours to gain the respect of everyone in the village.

But...

However, we are a noble family with the blood of a scholar. Naturally, we are completely different from those mud-limbed bastards. How can we satisfy such a small achievement?

We need the glory of our ancestors. We need the glory of our ancestors as well as the prosperity of our entire family …

In the entire clan, all children, whether they were men or women, would listen to these words well before they spoke.

At the very least, no matter if you are a man or woman, you have to know how to read and write. Even if we are destined to sacrifice ourselves for this family and marry someone who doesn't know what kind of person, it might be just to get a handsome gift for the family that will allow the men of the family to continue their studies in peace.

But... As a lady of an influential family, how could she not read?

This was an insult to the entire family, so it could not exist.

We were going to start reading when we were very young.

At that time, I didn't know that studying was of any use to a child. It wasn't until many years later that I realized that I was actually lucky to have been born into such a clan, one that I loathed and even wished I could forget about a long time ago.

At least I know how to read. At least I'm not like other rural women who don't even know a big word. I can write and read, but I'm more useful than anyone else, so … So I don't have to replace it with my own body...

At that time, I deeply understood that the tragedy of life was not the same as when I was young.

The most tragic thing in life was yet to come.

And then I met her, the one who was almost my hand, and I spent all my energy and effort on her, and I gave her everything I knew, and in those days when I couldn't eat enough, I would have preferred to starve myself to keep her alive.

And she didn't disappoint me, no matter when, as long as there was a bite to eat, she would share half of it with me.

That kind of predicament, only the two of us can depend on each other for life. I don't know what tomorrow will be like, and I don't know if we will still be able to live well after today.

However … But our hearts are still happy, at least we are together, no one will separate us, we are very happy to live together, just like this quietly in the corner, like two people waiting for death …

In those years, she was my spiritual support.

In my best years, I was sold once by my family for a hundred silver.

In my eyes at that time, a hundred liang, how much was that … It's something I'll never get in my life...

The men who said that they were righteous and moral agreed without even a blink, and I became the wife of a strange man.

That year, I was only 15 years old. I didn't even have the time to understand the difference between a man and a woman before I was pushed into the abyss by them, and each of them told me that it was all for my own good.

However … I just kept my mouth tightly shut and didn't say anything. I know … I know, everything, I know, I am young, but everything is clear.

I've seen this scene many times, many times...

There were many times when a girl from a clan could not escape from this path.

It was customary for them to be especially good to me for some time afterwards, especially good, that kind of good that would make me feel very uneasy, and I finally understood why my sisters were still unhappy in the last days, when they were so well-dressed, when they could eat and have anything they wanted.

Because...

Because no one knew what they would face in the future and what they would do in the future.

He was already an abandoned child of the family, and he had already become the object of their trade. Furthermore, the price had already been set for him.

100 taels of silver …

I don't know if this is the tallest of all the girls, but I know that I am treated better than all the other sisters. They have even prepared silk and silk for me, and of course, as the daughter of a noble family, how can I not have a book?

They even kindly found me a lot of books to accompany me in my marriage.

Of course, most of these books were copied by themselves.

However, in such a place, there were very few people who could write. A book that was handwritten was naturally extraordinary.

To them, this was the glory they had bestowed upon me. I should be grateful for what my family had done for me.

So they said in front of me without restraint, "Even if you are married off, you are still a girl of my family. You must think for the whole family in the future, if anything is good, remember to bring it with you. This is the true daughter of my family."

Of course, I only listened to such laughable words. I really despised them from the bottom of my heart.

I'm not stupid, I really am not stupid. I understand the meaning behind their words, and I also understand …

However, their following words made me feel even more disgusted, as if my reaction wasn't as bad as they had imagined. Then, a lot of people started to whisper in my ear: A married daughter has to rely on her family for support, so you have to curry favor with them. Otherwise, if your husband's family gets bullied again, no one will support you, so you have to think about your parents.

Hehe …

So greedy, so terrifying …

At that moment, it was as if I had suddenly seen the faces of these so-called scholars, the so-called limpid ones.

But... But what else could I do?

That's right, I can't do anything, I can only quietly watch, waiting for someone unfamiliar to come and take me away, who knows what kind of life I'll lead.

At that moment, even though I was hesitating, I couldn't help but be secretly delighted in my heart. This is great …

I could finally leave. I didn't need to look at these people's faces anymore.

I've really given up on this family. What everyone is thinking about is something important. Everyone is constantly reading and has never considered how to read if they don't have enough to eat.

Hehe, I was wrong. Actually, they thought of something.

And they did very well too. All the men had to study well. They were all going to be promising people in the future. Who knows, maybe they could get a top scholar and then their entire family would be in trouble. Before all of this is done, you can only sacrifice the girl of your family. After all, a girl's family is useless, but your family has still been supporting you for so many years. Since you've grown up, it's your turn to contribute to your family.

Men can take the science exam, can shine, what can a girl do?

Then, he would obediently marry according to the arrangements of the family, and the money he would earn would continue to support the entire family.

This wasn't the first time this had happened. Everyone had already gotten used to it.

I've never felt that there was anything wrong with this, and now it's my turn... Naturally, this was natural …

It's just that I'm not as dumb as the others. Since I've already been betrayed once, I won't give them another chance, and I won't be like those useless sisters who would risk their lives to move things towards their parents' home after getting married.

I thought I was smart. I thought I could live a good life like this.

Unfortunately, I guessed the beginning, but not the end.