Chapter 391

Song Qingwan pulled her lips and said with a smile:

"and the boy still goes out early and comes back late every day. I don't know what he is busy with. The Lu family is just like a ghost house without people living in it

"I thought at that time that Lu An'an was very good to get married. At least she had Yu Zheng with her. For the rest of her life, she could count on someone to rely on. But Lu Junhan didn't have that boy. He was alone. How can I rest assured?"

Lu An'an at the door closed her eyes, tears streaming all over her face. She didn't expect that Aunt actually thought so.

Lu Junhan also pursed thin lips, dark eyes sink a few minutes.

Song Qingwan said, as if back to that time, eyes red, even hoarse voice choked:

"I thought, he does not like women, do not like children, but have a child, at least will not be lonely, then, if I leave, what should he do alone, so, I began to urge him to find a woman to have children, and At that time, I also thought that if I could have a look at Lu Junhan or Lu Enron's children before I died, I would have no regrets. "

Lu Qidong raised his head and closed his eyes, but his eyes were red again.

Song Qingwan took a deep breath and laughed again. "But I was still very lucky. A few months before I was dying, I met pear pear. Although it was not a boy, the little girl was so lovely. It was more lovely than what I thought of a child two years ago. Is there something about the boy? At that time, I felt that I had no regrets about death."

Lu Qidong was stunned.

He thought that song Qingwan wanted to die only because he was afraid of pain. But he didn't expect that song Qingwan had this idea a few months ago!

At that time, she did not want to be cured, and began to wait for death slowly!

In fact, he can understand her best.

At that time, he also wanted to give up, because it was too painful, that kind of pain, can not be tolerated.

Song Qingwan had this disease for at least three or four years.

In recent years, chemotherapy is weak and painful. Every time I go to the operating table, my body is cut. After the operation, the knife edge hurts faintly and I can only lie in bed and can't move.

And that kind of trapped in the hospital bed, not free, the body seems to be a dense needle constantly prick the feeling, really let life is better than death!

Two times at a time can endure, but more times, afraid.

Song Qingwan then said:

"but, brother, you see, how good it is now. Brother, you come back from the dead, I can see your last side, I die without regret. Lu Junhan that boy also already had a child, still so lovely and sensible, also know how to take care of her father, I die without regret. Dad now often goes back to the Lu family to fish and eat with us. Just like we did when we were children, I would die with no regrets. In the past few days, Lu An'an also began to go back to Lu's house and no longer hide from her room. My last knot in my mind was soon solved. Really How wonderful it is now! At first, there was no one in the Lu family. Now all the Lu family have come back slowly. At most, the Lu family used to be an empty house. Now, people always get together. You see Nothing, nothing better than now. "

Lu Qidong looked at her, biting his teeth fiercely, not letting himself sob.

Song Qingwan's eyes were full of tears and she began to smile. She said softly:

"so now I really have no regrets, and even my life now is something I didn't dare to think about two years ago. It's so much better than what I thought about dying two years ago. Really, at that time, I was thinking, if I went, if I could get one or two people in front of the hospital bed, I would be grateful

Outside the door, Lu An'an didn't hold back. He covered his mouth, but his tears kept going to the corner of his eyes, weeping.

She regretted it.

In these three years, she should have come back often.

She shouldn't have forgotten to go home in order to pay off the debt as soon as possible and make money desperately.

As my aunt said to her before, you can draw whenever you like, but some people don't accompany you now. In the future Maybe I don't have a chance to accompany you any more.

At that time, my aunt said that dad was old, and there was not much time left for them to be children. Sometimes they would come back to accompany him more. Maybe, the aunt said not only father, but also herself.

My aunt didn't have much time for herself.

Song Qingwan: "in fact, over the past two years, I have been reflecting. I think I have failed in my whole life. The Lu family did not develop well, and I had to rely on Lu Junhan himself. I did not protect the Lu family, which led to the split up of the Lu family. In a flash, Lu Junhan grew into such a lonely and silent character, but Lu An'an did not grow up at all and was so soft and weak, Sometimes I think, if I die and get down here, what do you blame me for... "

Lu Qidong closed his eyes. "You are my most painful sister. How can I blame you?"

When Lu Qidong woke up, he saw that Lu an and Lu Junhan were growing up peacefully. He had asked for nothing. He only asked for the safety of his children. Song Qingwan had already done it.Song Qingwan doesn't reply, just smiles, tears in her eyes:

"brother, now you wake up, you can certainly do better than me, not only to develop the Lu family, but also to teach two children, and I believe you will be very good to pear pear pear. You are so gentle and smart, you can certainly teach pear pear to be the best and kind girl in Haicheng, so I really have no regrets 。”

"But I have!"

Lu Qidong has red eyes and hoarse voice,

"I couldn't sleep last night, so I had people check your living materials for more than ten years. After watching it, do you know what I regret most? What I regret most is that I was wondering why I didn't bring Xiao an an and Xiao Hanhan into the car. I know this idea is too cruel and cold-blooded, but I really think so. "

Song Qingwan was stunned and looked at him so firmly. Lu Qidong closed his eyes, took a breath, and said in a mute voice:

"you are my sister. I regard you as my sister! I never felt that you owed me and brought you into the Lu family. I volunteered. You didn't owe me anything. Therefore, you didn't have to raise xiaohanhan and xiaoan'an in order to repay my kindness! Even if you throw them away, do not want them, you can, this is your right as my sister, their father is me, I should be responsible for them, I am sorry for them, not you! They are not your responsibility, and you should not be responsible for it. I regret it too much. If I knew it was such a result, I would... "

Lu Qidong couldn't go on.

He loves Xiao An'an and Xiao Hanhan, but also song Qingwan.

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