CH 62

The diagnostic room fell into dead silence.

Psychiatrists also know that it is difficult to get patients to say something about psychological damage, and there will be inner struggles for a while, but it is also necessary.

Lu Yuanbai looked at the medical record on the table, “I have a previous diagnosis record, can I use that to prescribe medicine?”

“It’s not impossible, but it depends on the time of the last diagnosis.”

Lu Yuanbai lowered his eyes, ” The last time I went to the hospital for a diagnosis was seven months ago.” 

The doctor became embarrassed after hearing this, “How many doses were prescribed for you last time?”

“Three months.”

He also knows that Lu Yuanbai has been suffering from insomnia for four or five years, but he didn’t expect the local hospital to prescribe such a large dose of medicine for Lu Yuanbai. 

There is no fundamental solution to relieve the sleep state of the symptoms.

The human body’s mechanism needs to be balanced, and if there is a lack of sleep, the healthy part will also be threatened by a large part.

The doctor looked at Lu Yuanbai, “Mr. Lu, it is no longer effective because your previous diagnosis has been half a year old. Now you must re-diagnose before you can prescribe the medicine.”

Lu Yuanbai’s slender fingers curled slightly in his sleeves.

Those past made it difficult for him to speak, and now asking him to say it again is like tearing open the scarred wound again, dripping with blood.

The doctor knew that Lu Yuanbai was reluctant to talk, so he tried to start a conversation with him, “Mr. Lu, you also said that psychological factors are the main cause of your insomnia symptoms. Have you seen a psychiatrist?” 

He nodded.

“How often do you see them?”

People like Lu Yuanbai who have professional psychological problems are no longer a minority, and more or less they all see a psychiatrist.

“About four or five months.”

The doctor asked tentatively, “Then do you think the insomnia has improved after seeing it?”

Lu Yuanbai’s eyes were light blue and black, he was very tired. “No.”

No matter how many times he went to see the symptoms, the symptoms only increased, as if the disease was still present. 

Seeds were planted on him, and after five years of rooting and sprouting, it has grown to be as huge as a monster.

The psychiatrist’s expression was ugly after hearing this, and then asked very seriously, “Mr. Lu, do you often have thoughts of suicide?”

Lu Yuanbai was silent for a while, “Occasionally.” 

The psychiatrist took a deep breath, “Mr. Lu, Is there anyone you care about?”

As soon as Lu Yuanbai’s words came out, a man’s figure flashed through his mind, and then he smiled slightly bitterly.

“Yes,” Lu Yuanbai answered, “my mother.”

Lu Yuanbai didn’t lie, all the spiritual support in the past five years was only Ms. Lu Wanfang.

Without his mother still waiting for him behind him, Lu Yuanbai felt that he would really not be able to hold on.

Even with him, there are still many responsibilities, his employees and his fans, who care that he regards him as a person to rely on and rely on, and Lu Yuanbai can’t leave them behind.

They are a kind of responsibility and also a kind of pressure, heavy and breathless, but they cannot be let go.

Psychiatrist, “Did the hospital prescribe some other medicines for you before?”

Lu Yuanbai nodded, “But some medicines have side effects and sleeping pills may conflict with taking them, so I don’t take them often.” 

The psychiatrist listened and sighed. Lu Yuanbai’s symptoms were more serious than he thought.

“Mr. Lu, I will give you a period of self-relief, and then I will question you.”

Now Lu Yuanbai is reluctant to talk about the past, the doctor will give the other party a space for himself, and wait for the other party to calm down to see if he can find his words.

After speaking, the psychiatrist left the diagnosis room and went to the cubicle.

For a while, only Lu Yuanbai was left sitting in a chair in the diagnosis room.

Lu Yuanbai looked at his name on the medical record and did not move for a long time.

He didn’t have so many problems before, but now he seems to have become a medicine jar. He wasn’t like this before, Lu Yuanbai shouldn’t be like this either.

At the age of eighteen, when Lu Yuanbai first entered the entertainment industry, deep down in his heart, he was still the young master who was pampered and raised. I have seen it and even felt it.

At the age of twenty, Lu Yuanbai still believed in the feelings between people in this world.

At that time, Lu Yuanbai worked frantically to earn money, not just money for lawsuits, but his mother suffered a lot because of his marriage. Whether it was Shen Kangyong’s man or her family, they were persecuting this poor woman.

Let her not endure it without knowing what to do, and gradually some problems have arisen in her body.

At that time, Lu Yuanbai was exhausted and only hoped that he would be able to earn money quickly.

At that time, Lu Yuanbai had just finished filming a small role in Director Zhang’s film, but he had not yet become popular before the film was released, and it was difficult to move in the entertainment circle of this Lichang.

Because of his mother’s physical condition, he went to beg Lu’s family. At the beginning, Lu Wanfang accompanied Shen Kangyong, a poor boy who started from scratch, and suffered a lot. 

After he became rich, his parents’ family also depended on his daughter and did a lot of business.

However, when Lu Yuanbai wanted to come and borrow money, he was turned away.

“Yuanbai, let’s go, we don’t have any money to lend you, and your mother’s illness isn’t a serious illness that doesn’t require much money.”

Seeing the dark-faced and indifferent uncle Lu Yuanbai in front of him, he felt strange for the first time, not the same as before. In the past, when Lu Yuanbai accompanied Lu Wanfang back to her parents’ house, they were not like this.

They always looked at themselves with a smile, and it was always good to play around with him.

“My uncle and my mother’s illness is caused by a heart disease, and the treatment can’t be delayed. I hope you can…” Lu Yuanbai took a step forward and grabbed Lu Ci’s arm, and was thrown away before he finished speaking. 

“What’s wrong? I think she’s being overbroad, It’s just that the man has a nest outside. It’s not a big event that has to be divorced every day. It’s really a brain damage!”

Lu Yuanbai couldn’t believe what he just heard.

“And you.” Lu Ci turned his head, “It’s not that your uncle doesn’t care about you. You are a big man, not a little girl. You can make money by yourself if your mother is sick, or you will have to borrow money from others, and what you are doing now is embarrassing, think about the public image.”

“Look back and tell your mother, she deserves to do this now, tell her to figure it out and hurry back to Shen’s house, don’t be ashamed.”

Looking at the person in front of him with scarlet eyes, Lu Yuanbai’s hands clenched into fists, “How can you say that about my mother.”

Lu Yuanbai was so angry that he stepped forward and grabbed Lu Ci’s collar, “She is still your sister, why are you like this? How can you say that about her!”

He had never seen the face of the person in front of him, as if the person standing in front of him was not a human at all, but an emotionless beast.

“You relied on my mother to live before, but now you say that about her, do you still have a conscience!”

Lu Wanfang accompanied Shen Kangyong to start from scratch, and then his career grew bigger and bigger, and the Lu family also took advantage of Lu Wanfang’s light to cling to the Shen family alive.

Before, the Lu family was just a poor family living in a small town. Lu Wanfang had an older brother and a younger brother. Growing up in a patriarchal family, Lu Wanfang lived a particularly hard life.

And Lu Wanfang’s brother oppressed Lu Wanfang based on his gender. He was cheap and sold well since he was a child. It seemed that he didn’t have Lu Wanfang’s share for granted.

However, they all depended on Lu Wanfang to be where they are today.

Lu Yuanbai’s eyes were red with anger, and blue veins burst out on his forehead and neck, “You are here today because of my mother. You can live in the big house behind you because of my mother. And it is because of my mother that your son can go to aristocratic schools. Help, how can you say that to her! How can you say that to her!”

Lu Ci dismissed Lu Yuanbai’s hand from his collar, “What does it mean to rely on her, isn’t it all her voluntary work? Right?”

Lu Yuanbai’s whole body froze in place.

“What we have today, she did help a little bit, but isn’t that what it should be? How can she be the only rich person to live a good life, amd we still live in a small town to do labour work?”

Said Lu Ci with a sneer, “She’s been a fool since she was a child, and she hasn’t changed now. You said that there’s something you can’t figure out. Men don’t all look like that. You don’t know who you’re disgusting when you look at how she’s going to die now.”

Lu Ci is extremely dissatisfied that Lu Wangfang wants to divorce Shen Kangyong.

The Lu family clings to the Shen family for life. If Lu Wanfang divorced the Shen family, it would be impossible for them to cling to them, and the losses would be unimaginable.

Maybe the Shen family will engage them.

Lu Yuanbai looked at the unconventional relatives in front of him, and began to feel disgusted uncontrollably. There was a lot of sweat on his forehead and his face turned pale.

“You go back and tell her to stop doing it, hurry up when you know each other… um…” 

Before Lu Ci could finish speaking, Lu Yuanbai threw his arm and punched him hard.

“Beast…” Lu Yuanbai’s eyes were scarlet, and the whole person was shaking with anger, “You are a beast.”

Lu Yuanbai and Lu Ci scuffled together in an instant, and I don’t know where the strength came to suppress Luci to the ground. waving his fist at the person.

“Why do you talk about my mother like that! Why do you treat her like this!”

Lu Yuanbai roared, his whole being irrational.

The woman who had raised him for more than ten years was humiliated by such words.

Even if the people on the ground had been beaten to death by him, Lu Yuanbai didn’t even want to stop once.

Because Lu Ci resisted just now, Lu Yuanbai was also punched in the cheek, and now the chin on the right side has gradually turned blue.

The noise of the two people was not small, and they quickly alerted the Lu family. In fact, they also knew today that Lu Yuanbai came to borrow money, but they stayed in the house because it was too hot outside, and did not let Lu Yuanbai enter the door at all.

Seeing that Lu Ci was beaten, Mr. Lu and some people also drove out, and quickly asked someone to pull Lu Yuanbai away.

At this time, Lu Ci’s nose was blue and his face was swollen, and one eye was swollen and there was only a gap left, and he couldn’t see anything at all.

Seeing that someone grabbed Lu Yuanbai’s two arms and pulled him away, he stepped forward and kicked Lu Yuanbai in the stomach.

“Damn, you little bastard, I’m your uncle!”

Lu Yuanbai tried his best to snort, but after the person holding him left, Lu Yuanbai was still in pain. He fell to the place and vomited acid water uncontrollably.

Seeing this, Old Man Lu frowned a little unbearably. He still had feelings for Lu Yuanbai, his grandson. No matter how old Lu Yuanbai was, he would smile every time he saw him and accompany this old guy to relieve his boredom.

But now even if Lu Yuanbai fell to the ground, Mr. Lu had no intention of helping him.

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Now Lu Wanfang’s mother and son are just confused, and after a little lesson and a little hardship, they might figure it out.

I don’t know if this idea is to convince myself or to deceive myself, so that I don’t feel guilty.

Mr. Lu turned his eyes away and stopped looking at Lu Yuanbai.

“Yuanbai, go back and tell your mother to think about it, it’s not a big deal.”

Lu Yuanbai fell to the ground and looked up at these people with a pale face.

He is a monster that eats people without spitting out bones, and a moth that sucks his daughter’s blood.

Until now, when he fell to the ground, Lu Yuanbai couldn’t believe what was happening in front of him, it was like a nightmare.

They are blood relatives, and his mother is now sick and the other party refuses to lend them a penny.

It is clear that these people were only relying on Lu Wanfang before, but they are relatives who have been in a relationship for more than ten years.

But Lu Yuanbai felt strange when he looked at them.

It seems that the emotions in this world are like this, and they disappear when they have no value, or they are no longer disguised.

The love of marriage between parents is like this, and the family relationship is like this now.

His mother raised the whole family, suffered so much in a patriarchal family, and now is humiliated by blood relatives.

She accompany Shen Kangyong and suffer for half a lifetime. What did she get in the end?

All the emotions in this world are just out of profit and greed.

Lu Yuanbai even felt that he was like a clown jumping beans, making people laugh.

But the surprise was that Lu Yuanbai didn’t have a single tear this time. Even though his eyes were very sore, he didn’t have a single tear. Lu Yuanbai fell to the ground in pain and his whole body was numb.

Just when Mr. Lu wanted to say something, Lu Yuanbai said, “My mother is my grandfather’s daughter, and she is a woman who can’t go home after being wronged outside.”

Then he stood up with his support and looked at him coldly. These people in front of him, “You…are disgusting!”

“How can you talk to your grandfather!”

A young woman stepped forward, the wife of Lu Wanfang’s younger brother.

Lu Yuanbai glanced at the woman, “Not only to him, but also to you…”

The woman suddenly wanted to step forward.

Lu Yuanbai glanced around, “You are all disgusting.”

Old Man Lu’s face also became ugly. “You…”

Lu Yuanbai said, “This is the last time I will visit you, and I will not come here again.”

Old Man Lu felt tight after hearing this.

“At the same time, I hope you don’t go to my mother again. If you want to go back to the Shen family, you can go back by yourself. Anyway…”

Lu Yuanbai looked at Lu Wanfang’s two brothers, “A shameless person can live there…”

Lu Ci and Lu Kan looked ugly.

“My mother is a unfortunate person, please let her go.”

After speaking, he turned and left Lu’s house resolutely. No matter how humble he was, Lu Yuanbai knew that he couldn’t borrow the money.

After that, he went to the hospital to see Lu Wanfang.

Lu Wanfang was taking a drip, and she got up instantly when she saw Lu Yuanbai’s sullen face.

She didn’t want her son to feel uncomfortable seeing her.

Lu Yuanbai sat on the edge of the bed and looked at his mother, the grievances in his heart couldn’t stop rising.

“What’s wrong with your chin, Bai Bai?!”

Lu Yuanbai shook his head, “It’s okay, I bumped into someone just now.”

Lu Wanfang looked at the bruise on her son’s chin distressedly, “It’s all purple, does it hurt?”

“It’s okay” Lu Yuanbai held Lu Wanfang’s hand that wanted to touch the wound, “Mom, I’m not a child.”

Lu Yuanbai smiled and said, “What are you talking about? You’ll always be a child in Mom’s eyes.”

Lu Yuanbai’s nose was sore, and Lu Wanfang could see that her son was in a bad mood, but she didn’t ask more, she knew that Lu Yuanbai didn’t want to talk.

Then he said: “Come here, Mommy and hug you, Mommy hasn’t hugged you for a long time.”

Lu Yuanbai stepped forward and hugged his mother’s thin body due to illness, biting his lower lip and the corners of his mouth trembling uncontrollably, the tears filling his eyes.

Although Lu Wanfang can’t see her son’s face now, she also knows that Lu Yuanbai is feeling uncomfortable.

Reaching out and stroking Lu Yuanbai’s head, “Bai abai has grown so big, it seems like you were learning to walk by holding on to something yesterday.”

Lu Yuanbai gritted his teeth, tears falling silently and wetting Lu Wanfang’s shoulders.

Lu Wanfang didn’t pierce her son, but stroked Lu Yuanbai’s hair over and over again.

The originally small child has grown so big that she can already take care of her.

“Bai Bai, you will always be the pride of my mother.”

———–

That night, Lu Yuanbai didn’t leave until Lu Wanfang fell asleep.

He rushed to work, and he needs money now.

At that time, Lu Yuanbai didn’t have a studio, and he had only known Lin Mu for a year, and he was also accompanied by an agent.

This agent and Lu Yuanbai are also old acquaintances. His classmates in high school were very business-minded because of their poor life. Lu Yuanbai took pity on him and asked him to come over to help.

“Is this banquet reliable? Just let Brother Yuanbai go. What if something goes wrong?! There are still second-tier actors, Xianhan knows that the little star who suddenly exploded in the drama for a few months, he will also go.” 

After hearing this, Lin Mu still felt unreliable, “I think it’s better not to go, it’s not good. 

After hearing this, Chen You said dissatisfiedly: “What’s wrong, they can’t still harm Yuanbai. You’re going to this banquet to show my face in front of those big bosses and let them know that they don’t do anything if you have someone like you. Why are you so contradictory?”

Then he gave Lin Mu a disdainful look, “Besides, Yuanbai urgently needs money, don’t you tell him not to let him go and give you the money?”

Lin Mu was speechless for a while. But he was still very worried about the banquet that Chen You was talking about.

Chen You also came forward and said, “Yuanbai and I have known each other since high school. After so many years of friendship, I don’t know how much deeper than you are. I will never hurt Yuanbai. 

Don’t worry, besides, I’m not like that. If I were such a person, I would still be guarding an unknown 18th-tier artist like Yuanbai? Don’t think about it, this is also an opportunity.” 

The more Lin Mu listened, the more disgusted he became. You can give it if you show up. Those serious actors need the satisfaction of the audition director and staff to get the role. 

Now, Lin Mu felt what Chen You said was unreliable.

But he couldn’t say anything. After all, what Chen You said was true. Lu Yuanbai was in urgent need of money now, and he might get a role if he went to participate, but Lin Mu couldn’t stop worrying about it.

When Lu Yuanbai came back, the two were still arguing.

Seeing that Lu Yuanbai didn’t give Lin Mu a chance to speak, Chen You hurried forward and said, “Yuanbai, I’ll help you with a job, there are many bosses, directors and second-tier stars coming to a banquet, you will be paid a lot tomorrow. You can have this number.”

He raised a hand, “and if the director thinks you are suitable for acting, you don’t have to worry about taking over the role, you will soon be able to earn money, and your mother’s illness can also be cured.”

Lu Yuanbai didn’t listen at all at first, but after hearing that his mother’s illness could be treated, he agreed after hesitating for a while.

The hospital has asked him for medical expenses for the second time. He gave all the money on his body, but it was still not enough, so he could only trouble the hospital to give him a few more days.

Lu Wanfang’s illness can no longer be delayed. He needs money now, very much.

Lu Yuanbai finally said lightly: “I’ll go.”

It was just a show, which Chen You emphasized repeatedly.

After seeing Lu Yuanbai’s agreement, Chen You hurriedly smiled and said, “Okay, I’ll go and make arrangements for you. Let’s go there at seven o’clock tomorrow night.”

Lu Yuanbai dragged his tired body back to his room, but Lin Mu still wanted to go up when he saw it. What he said was stopped by Chen You, “Okay, it’s just an ordinary banquet and it’s not a bad thing, Yuanbai has promised you what you want to say.”

Lin Mu gritted his teeth and looked at him, “Nothing is best but don’t let Brother Yuanbai suffer alone tomorrow.”

Chen You seemed to say nothing at first glance, and then called people with a smile on his face.

“That’s right, it’s really bothering you for Yuanbai to pass by tomorrow.”

Lin Mu listened with a dark face, Chen You glanced at him dissatisfied, “Go, go, what are you doing here, it’s rude to listen to someone on the phone, and I don’t know why Yuanbai asked you to come here in the first place.”

Chen You has always looked down on Lin Mu. He was supposed to be Lu Yuanbai’s manager, but Lin Mu became an assistant after he arrived, but Chen You didn’t put Lin Mu in his eyes, and still held the position of the broker.

Lin Mu glanced at him, then turned and left in disdain.

The next night, Lu Yuanbai and the others arrived at the banquet venue on time.

As Chen You said, there are quite a few artists, and there are many behind-the-scenes people in the circle.

“You take this wine from Yuanbai, and if you perform well for a while, maybe a director will find you to play the role if you like it.”

Chen You handed Lu Yuanbai a glass of wine for him to hold, “Don’t forget to toast later.”

Lu Yuanbai’s expression was light, and he only came to pay Lu Wanfang’s medical expenses for the reward of that palm.

Under the leadership of Chen You, Lu Yuanbai drank a lot that night, and I can’t remember exactly how many cups he drank.

He only remembered that he was in a daze and wanted to find water to drink, and when he woke up, he had changed his place and was no longer at the banquet.

Lu Yuanbai was dazzled by the lights on the ceiling, and he was so uncomfortable that he could not exert any strength.

Then an unknown door opened with a sound. Lu Yuanbai was lying on the bed in a daze, with his hands clinging to his waist to unbutton his clothes.