C195 Unbeknownst to Shaohua

Zhong Miao Yi knew the name Chen Xi Meng.

Back then, when the dynasty's empress arranged for her to marry Tang Yao, she had mentioned the name Chen Xi Meng.

The official had a pair of children, and although his youngest daughter was still young, she was exceptionally talented. At that time, the empress had intended for him to give a few more years to the prime minister of the Right Prime Minister's family.

At that time, the eldest son of the Right Prime Minister had just lost his wife. The two of them had married under the orders of their parents, so they didn't have any feelings for each other, nor did they have any sorrowful feelings.

The empress wanted to point Chen Xi Meng over, so she naturally didn't want Chen Xi Meng to be like the deceased madam, so she wanted Chen Xi Meng to interact more with the Right Prime Minister's son.

The two were separated by eight years, and Chen Xi Meng's reaction was always faint. She didn't like the Right Prime Minister's son, so she didn't want to marry him in two years.

Speaking of which, it wasn't that there was anything bad about the Right Prime Minister's young master, but that Chen Xi Meng had already seen such an outstanding person like Su Zeyi before.

After Zhong Miao Yi recalled Chen Xi Meng, he still felt a little regretful: "So it's you. When you pushed away the marriage contract, I still felt that you were a rather brave and decisive lady."

Chen Xi Meng was unwilling to marry, so the official in the Heavenly Court felt heartache and pushed it away. When this matter came to a point where no one dared to discuss it, he just left it at that.

From the looks of it, the Queen of the previous dynasty seemed to be more concerned about the marriage alliance.

It was a pity that they had been matched up for several times, but in the end, none of them had succeeded.

"Back then, he was still young and ignorant. Father was more or less challenged by the Right Prime Minister because of me. I didn't even know before, and Father wouldn't have let me know. Speaking of it, it was all my fault." Chen Xi recalled his past and sighed with emotion. "Now that I think about it, I still feel that I owe father too much."

"It's good that you don't make yourself regret when you're young. Otherwise, when you're my age, you won't have so much energy to waste." Zhong Miao Yi smiled and comforted her.

"Elder sister is at the prime of her life, how can she say such dejected words?" From Chen Xi Meng's point of view, Zhong Miao Yi's entire life was already extremely difficult. After going through so much, the Emperor was still quite good to her, and was no longer something an ordinary woman could do.

Chen Xi Meng asked herself, it was absolutely impossible for her to do so. If she had experienced what the Zhong Miao Yi had experienced, she would most likely have gone crazy, and would never sit here, so she could still properly talk to others.

"The prime of his life?" Her heart had already aged ahead of time, and in her heart, she was no longer the magnificent young man she was before, "But you, are indeed in the prime of your life. Why, did you not want to go over to see Su Zeyi?"

Chen Xi Meng lowered her head and didn't say anything.

The matter of her adoring Su Zeyi was something that Zhong Miao Yi knew very well in her heart. At that time, she had heard quite a lot from the Empress and the Concubine Xian.

The two of them should have met at An Qing Village. Zhong Miao Yi only felt that she looked familiar, but she couldn't recall anything just now.

They were originally people from two different worlds that did not interact with each other, but now, sitting here and talking about the matters of the previous dynasty, the Zhong Miao Yi felt deeply moved.

At that time, she never would have thought that things would turn out like this. She also never thought that the thing she desperately tried to escape from would cause her to suffocate.

Just like Chen Xi Meng, she had never thought that there would actually come a day where she would be able to serve Su Zeyi.

Now that she had become Su Zeyi's concubine, she was exceptionally nervous the day she entered the palace. The embroidered handkerchief in her hands was already half wet from the sweat on her hands.

She didn't know whether she could do it well, and whether she was already prepared to get close to Su Zeyi. She was afraid that she wouldn't be able to control her trembling body, and that she couldn't do it well.

Thus, when Zhou Yusheng pampered her, Chen Xi's heart was in pain, but at the same time, she was rejoicing.

It wasn't an easy thing for her to have some time cushion.

"The emperor spends his days meditating, how would he remember me?" Chen Xi Meng laughed, although her smile was bitter, when she spoke of Su Zeyi, her entire body was radiant.

felt that it was a pity. Humans were really strange, they would often not like people who were especially good to themselves. If a person really liked you, you would not cherish them.

On the other hand, if a person doesn't care about you, you'll want to get closer.

He didn't know if it was because he was unconvinced or because of something, but he had to overestimate his own capabilities. He had to fly like a moth to the flame in order to stop.

Back then, Zhong Miao Yi was like this for Su Zeyi, then Su Zeyi was like this for Zhong Miao Yi, and now Yun Mengqi and Chen Xi Meng were like this for Su Zeyi as well.

This was just like a weird circle. Once you entered, it would only hurt your bones and muscles, and you could only grind your bones and scatter your ashes; no one would be able to walk out of this place in one piece.

The Zhong Miao Yi didn't agree, Chen Xi Meng was not a bad woman, her family background was not bad, and because of her, her father was the one who stood on the team, Su Zeyi was not indifferent to it.

"Prepare well. Who knows when the emperor might summon you." The Zhong Miao Yi laughed. There were so many girls in the harem, Su Zeyi had to take care of them no matter what.

If they were all cold, there was really no way for them to explain things to the ministers in front of them.

Chen Xi Meng didn't know if Zhong Miao Yi's words were sincere or just to comfort her, but towards the good show at Zhong Miao Yi, Chen Xi Meng still expressed her sincere gratitude.

"I didn't think of fighting with you sisters for your favors. I only thought, since I can stay by the emperor's side, then even if I were to glance from afar and occasionally see you, I would be satisfied." When Chen Xi Meng said these words, her expression was especially gentle, and her entire person seemed to have changed.

Perhaps this relationship was just like the one she had with Tang Yao back in the day. Whenever she thought of that person, she would feel as if the entire world had become bright.

Unfortunately for the current Zhong Miao Yi, even when she thought of this feeling, it felt a little unreal. She had already forgotten for a very long time, and in the days to come, she would no longer feel this way.

In a girl's best years, being with someone she truly liked was a matter of great fortune.