Chapter 127: Twin Lives

Chapter 127: Twin Lives

Against reality, however, words of comfort were like trying to put out a wagon fire with a single cup of water.

Not only the Cheng twins, but also everybody else in the mansion were in low spirits because of this door. As someone whod just entered Obsidian, Ye Niao didnt understand the organization very well. Even so, he still felt the thickly solemn atmosphere; he was by nature lively and upbeat, but during this time period, he didnt even dare to speak too loudly.

Until a few days later, and the time came for the twins to enter their door.

The weather was good that morning. Lu Yanxue made a rich breakfast, including Cheng Qianlis favorite soup dumplings. Cheng Qianli had a great time eating, swallowing down practically one per bite like a squirrel storing food away for the winter.

Lin Qiushis appetite, however, was average. He felt kind of like a parent waiting on the scores of his kids college entrance exam, and figured everybody else felt about the same. The truth was, though, that the price to pay for failure in the doors was a lot more painful than the exams.

While everybody was eating, Cheng Yixie and Cheng Qianli suddenly stood. The two turned and went upstairs.

Lin Qiushi watched them go and immediate understood what was about to happen. He was oddly nervous, not even managing to properly hold onto the chopsticks in his hand, and they clattered onto the table.

Lu Yanxue was the only woman left in Obsidian after Zhuang Rujiao left. She forced a smile.

Theyll be fine, right? Ruan-ge?

Ruan Nanzhu sat beside Lin Qiushi with his gaze cast downward. He did not give an answer to Lu Yanxues question.

For a tenth door, he couldnt even promise that he himself could make it out alive.

Under normal circumstances, a single door lasted around ten minutes in reality.

Lin Qiushi had never thought that ten minutes could be so difficult to bear. He stared at the watch in his hand, watching the second hand scoot forward bit by bit. He even instinctively held his breath, until he realized he wasnt getting any air and hurried to inhale a breath or two.

I want a drink, do you guys want any? Chen Fei suddenly got up and asked in agitation.

Mh, Lin Qiushi nodded.

Ruan Nanzhu glanced at Lin Qiushi, but didnt try to talk him out of it.

And so Chen Fei got a bottle of Maotai, and the group began drinking bright and early in the morning.

Sunlight cast bright dapples in through the window, but they got no heat from it. Lin Qiushi mouthed at the liquor in his cup and felt the whole house go so scarily silent.

But the moment of judgment they were waiting for finally came.

Nine-eighteen AM, there came a wail from upstairs.

Like everybody else, Lin Qiushis expression immediately changed. They rushed up the stairs and found the twins on their bed.

One was holding the other, and the one being held had blood pouring endlessly out of his mouthLin Qiushi had never seen so much blood, mouthful after mouthful. It dyed the sheets, the carpet, and everything within sight.

No!! No!! A tearing voice like the lament of someone also dying, the one left behind let out a wretched cry. Dont leave me, Qianli, Qianli

Cheng Qianli was being held, but he didnt seem to have much strength left. His eyes were wide open, but his gaze had started to disperse at the edges. A fingertip slowly drew across Cheng Yixies cheek as he managed to make himself smile, as he managed to call a quiet Gege.

Aaaaaaahh!!! Cheng Yixie screamed like hed gone crazy, in devastating pain as if he could do nothing but watch as a part of his very soul was slowly dying.

120, quick, call 120!!

Lu Yanxues face was covered in tears as she called 120 with trembling hands. Then she threw herself before Cheng Qianli, taking his hand. Qianli, Qianli, hang in there, Qianli

Cheng Qianli didnt speak. The life in his eyes was beginning to fade, and the breath in him was weakening. Like color fading from a painting until all that was left was black and white, a chill enveloped his entire body.

He worked hard to open his mouth, calling out, Ge. And then, with all the strength left in his body, said a last few words: Don'tbe sad.

At the sight of this, Lin Qiushi covered his face with his hands. He slowly turned and leaned against the wall, all of him withering.

In his ears were Lu Yanxue and Cheng Yixies sobs, playing like a funereal dirge.

What use was an ambulance? They all knew the price of failure.

In the end Cheng Yixie turned away the medics. By the time they came, Cheng Qianli had already stopped breathing. He wasnt willing to let his most beloved brother leave his arms for even a moment.

Ruan Nanzhu said nothing the entire time. It wasnt until Cheng Qianlis death was confirmed that he went into the bathroom and fetched a clean towel. Half-kneeling before Cheng Yixie, he wiped the blood bit by bit from Cheng Qianlis face.

Cheng Yixie watched Ruan Nanzhus motions in silence. All the light in his eyes had gone out, leaving only an endless black.

Finally, he spoke, calling out: Ruan-ge.

Ruan Nanzhu looked up at him.

Im leaving Obsidian, Cheng Yixie said.

Ruan Nanzhu didnt reply. When their gazes met, he understood what the look in Cheng Yixies eyes meant.

He said, Ill give you a vacation.

Cheng Yixie was silent.

Ruan Nanzhu clasped his shoulder with one hand; words were so useless in times like these. He extended a finger and gently touched Cheng Qianlis cheekit was already cold, never to hold the warmth of before.

I was wrong, Cheng Yixie said. You were right.

Ruan Nanzhu didnt know what to say. He only cleared his throat lowly once, like he was pushing down some emotion threatening to burst from his trachea.

This door was too hard. Only the two of us were left in the end, Cheng Yixie spoke, sedated. He was foolish his whole life, and he had to be smart just this once.

There was no pain in his expression, but tears still endlessly spilled out of his eyes, like he no longer had any control of it at all.

Had to be smart just this once. Cheng Yixie pressed his forehead against Cheng Qianlis forehead. Its all my fault.

In his eyes, Cheng Qianli was a kid who could never grow up. And now, he finally would never have to.

Cheng Qianlihed never have his eighteenth birthday. His time had been stopped at this moment, never to go forth a second or a minute more.

Nobody said a single word of comfort. Nobody told Cheng Yixie to be strong, to hang in there, that this too shall pass. They all knew well that this was something that would never pass. Everything they could say were just platitudes and lies. Theyd completely and utterly lost that kid who would laugh so foolishly.

Lu Yanxue began to weep, following Yi Manmans sobbing.

Ruan Nanzhu left the room and went downstairs. Lin Qiushi was curled up in a corner, frozen like a statue.

Hed seen so many goodbyes, but he still couldnt get used to it. Toast the corgi, whod been napping downstairs, seemed to have sensed something wrong as well, scampering upstairs in a panic. When it discovered that its owner would never move again, it began to bark rapidly in panic, like it wanted to wake Cheng Qianli from some dreams hed fallen into.

But this wasnt a dream. Or, even if it was, it was a nightmare that they couldnt be woken from.

Lin Qiushi couldnt catch his breath. He himself was in so much pain, so what about the one who shared Cheng Qianlis twin life, Cheng Yixie. That was a feeling Lin Qiushi was too scared to even imagine.

Lin Qiushi didnt know how many times Ruan Nanzhu had gone through such a thing to be as calm as he was now.

Ruan Nanzhu saw right through Lin Qiushis look. He sighed softly, but smiled.

Dont hurt so much for my sake. Im really not as tragic as you think.

Some things you just had to get used to.

Three months after Cheng Yixie left Obsidian, he sent Obsidian a letter with no return address. In the letter he said that he was doing fine, and that they shouldnt worry.

Lu Yanxue was the first to get the letter, and when she saw the familiar handwriting on the paper she nearly fainted from crying so hard, clutching the envelope to her chest as she sobbed: This no-good kid, how can he only write us now, this no-good

Can you find out where he is? Chen Fei asked Ruan Nanzhu.

After inspecting the letter, Ruan Nanzhu took the envelope from Lu Yanxue as well, but in the end shook his head.

There arent any clues. Hes very careful.

Chen Fei sighed.

Will he still come back? Yi Manman was actually not particularly close to Cheng Yixie, but he had been very close to Cheng Qianli.

I dont know. Ruan Nanzhu didnt give a definitive answer.

Whether or not he comes back, as long as he feels better, thats fine. After she said this, Lu Yanxue began to cry again. But how can he do this by himself? Can he bear it?

Nobody knew the answer to this question. But even if he couldnt bear it, he had to. This was time that Cheng Qianli had traded his life for. Cheng Yixie would never give it up.

Lin Qiushi stared at the handwriting on the envelope and didnt speak for a long time.

Not until Ruan Nanzhu pulled him back to his room and said, Qiushi, you dont seem to be doing well recently.

Lin Qiushi, hm?

You keep spacing out, Ruan Nanzhu said. Havent you noticed? His brow lightly puckered, and his gaze fell upon Lin Qiushis face.

I space out? Lin Qiushi blinked. Do I?

Ruan Nanzhu didnt reply, but the look in his eyes were answer enough.

Oh. Lin Qiushi rubbed at his own face, saying, Im just feel a bit tired lately.

Ruan Nanzhu said, lets go on a vacation.

Hm? Lin Qiushi didnt think Ruan Nanzhu would say that all of a sudden, and so startled for a bit. And then his thoughts all swam away again, until very lightly, Ruan Nanzhu pinched his cheek.

Spacing out again?

Lin Qiushi coughed. It was only then that he realized how out of it he was, even right there under Ruan Nanzhus scrutiny. He cleared his throat twice more and said awkwardly, sorry about that.

Ruan Nanzhu sighed.

After discovering Lin Qiushis poor state, Ruan Nanzhu rapidly began preparing for travel.

Spring was supposed to be the season of resuscitation and happiness, but due to Qianlis passing, this spring was even more difficult to bear than the frigid winter.

Lin Qiushi didnt even recall seeing the trees grow new sprouts. By the time he came back around, the time was already summer.

Tall, dense canopies framed the streets. These past few months seemed to have been plucked out of their lives by some strange and powerful force.

But life had to continue. It was just that nobody in the mansion had to enter a door recently, and so everybody lived on in peace. Ruan Nanzhu as well. In a one-eighty from how he used to go in door after door, he was preparing to take Lin Qiushi out on a long vacation.

Where do you want to go? Ruan Nanzhu brought a map over and asked Lin Qiushi.

Anywhere is good. Ive never even left the country, Lin Qiushi said. Have you?

I have in the past. Not so much now, Ruan Nanzhu answered.

In the past? Lin Qiushi suddenly remembered that Ruan Nanzhu rarely talked about his background, and had never seemed to bring up any family.

Mh, Ruan Nanzhu said. My familys pretty well-off. They just all thought I was crazy. He spoke softly but fully, like he was talking about something that had nothing to do with himself. I didnt stay in touch after that.

Oh, Lin Qiushi said. He could tell that Ruan Nanzhu wasnt enthusiastic about this talk of family, and asked no further.

If you want to know, I can bring you back for a trip, Ruan Nanzhu said.

I dont really want that, Lin Qiushi said, smiling. I only need to know you.

Ruan Nanzhu glanced at Lin Qiushi.

Really?

Lin Qiushi flipped up his palms.

What else is there?

In the end they decided on a set of islands near the equator as their vacation destination.

When he learned that they were going there for recreation, Chen Fei was shocked, saying Ruan-ge, you havent taken a break for years, why a vacation trip all of a sudden?

Ruan Nanzhu, is it so weird to go on vacation when youre tired?

Chen Fei chuckled dryly, not at all, not at all. You guys have a great time. If anything happens dont hesitate to call.

Ruan Nanzhu made a noise of confirmation. When he turned to look at Lin Qiushi however, he found Lin Qiushi spacing out once again on the sofa. Some exasperation bled through Ruan Nanzhus expression as he approached, leaned over, and bit down right on Lin Qiushis cheek.

Ah! Only after being bitten on the face by Ruan Nanzhu did Lin Qiushi startle awake, putting a bewildered hand to his face. What did you bite me for?

I was scared that if I didnt bite you, your soul would fly away.

Lin Qiushi, a bit exasperated, its not that serious.

Ruan Nanzhu had truly taken a bite, and not only was his face burning in pain right now, it also had a new neat row of teeth prints.

If you dont want to be bitten then dont space out, Ruan Nanzhu said very seriously.

Lin Qiushi looked to be struggling. He too didnt know why he was spacing out so much recentlyPlus, was spacing out really something he could control?

Translators Notes:

Oh. boy. The chapter title is which means twins, born together, dual lives, etc. Its unintentional but the double meaning of Twin Lives (noun) and Twin Lives (verb) is literally. breaking my whole heart right now.