Volume 2 - Prologue

Prologue - Programming in Logic

I'm not worth living.

I've killed Kuromine-kun's family, made my own mother and father suffer and die.

I'm not a victim. I am the perpetrator.

Not a day passes without guilt.

Every time I breathe, I choke.

I kept remembering the "moment of the accident" and "my parents who looked like Teru Teru Bozu.

Again and again and again......

It's hard to live.

I suddenly thought of Kuromine-kun.

The sparkling and glorious everyday life that began the day he saved me from a convenience store robbery.

Although it was only a few days, my life with Kuromine-kun gave me a sense of fulfillment in life.

Whenever I feel difficult, I remember Kuromine-kun like a survival instinct.

My first love.....

It makes my heart so hot that it almost melts.

And similar to that feeling, ──── makes me want to go around.

I thought about it over and over again. I'm not worth living.

I understood very well that it was painful just to be alive.

I even hated myself.

I wanted to wrap myself up.

For me, death is liberation. ────

It is the only way to avoid suffering right now.

That's why I can't die.

Don't run away from suffering.

Apologizing to Kuromine-kun is not enough.

This is all my fault.

I shouldn't have expected it to be so difficult.

It's all my fault.

I feel sorry and guilty for Kuromine-kun. ────

I kept blaming myself.

Until this body decomposes....

Until my heart broke into pieces. ────