Chapter 191

If I guess correctly, Suya doesn't really want to take the child away. She may have made the decision because Shang Yan doesn't love her. I don't know if she and Shang Yan are really acting like she said, but how innocent this child is?

I parked the car outside the hospital without urging her. Seeing that her complexion was complicated and her eyes were full of hesitation and entanglement, I mentioned the birth of Xiao Fan at that time.

"I thought Xiao Fan was just a choice I had to make. Who knows, at the moment when he was born, I felt that the whole world had changed and became a little bit colorful because of his arrival. SUA, the child is a little angel from heaven. You should really think about it. "

She gave me a feeble look and said, "do you think I'm pathetic? I have indulged in it for a time, but the price is a life. "

I shook my head. "Have you mentioned this to Shang Yan? As far as I know him, he will never want the child. You should say something about it

I can understand why Shang Yan is so indifferent to me. He may be controlling himself and stepping out of my shadow until he can accept other women, such as Suya. Our feelings were so pure that it would take him some time to forget them completely.

But at least, the fact that he burned the pictures proved that he was determined to forget me, which was a good thing.

SUA leaned back in her chair and was silent for a long time. Her face was sad and faint. I saw a tear in her eyes. I never seem to have seen her cry. She is a woman with a very strong personality.

I handed her a piece of paper. She took the tissue and wiped her eyes hard. Then she looked at the roof of the car with her teeth clenched tightly. The hand is also subconsciously clenched into a fist, which may be a trade-off or a choice.

"Huanyan, why do those men like you so much? Shang Yan, Qin Mofei and even my boss like you. I don't think you have the ability and black history. What do they like about you? "

“…… Am I really so incompetent in your eyes? "

"It's not the point. It's about why they like you? You're not as beautiful as I am. You're just a little taller than me She glanced at me, sighed and said again, "look at your big five and three thick look, where can you be pitiful."

I immediately blackened my face, but still tried to solve her confusion. "They like me, it has nothing to do with appearance and ability. I and Shang Yan are in the same school, he is my senior. At that time, his feelings were too pure, and he might not know what love is. As for your boss, he just takes me as a stand in for Shang Ying. "

"No, Shangyan really loves you. When I met him in D City, he just heard that you and Qin Mofei were going to get married and ran there to escape. He was so drunk that night that he took me for you, and my damn emptiness and coldness didn't push him away She said with a self mocking smile, and then said, "happy face, you don't know. When I hear him crying and crying love you, I really envy you. It seems that no man loves me so hysterically."

“…… Don't talk about him, will you? "

I don't want to hear more about Shangyan, because we had the most beautiful college years. It was the cleanest and most youthful time in my life, which I will never forget. So every thing Su Ya said will make me moved. My feelings with Qin Mofei are a little turbulent, and I'm afraid to be shaken.

People have no willpower when they are sad. I know this well. Otherwise, I would not cry in Qin Chi'en's arms.

SUA picked her eyebrows. "Are you afraid of a soft heart?"

"Of course not. I love Murphy very much."

In fact, love is the most vulnerable emotion in the world, which can not withstand any devastation. I have spent every day in fear recently, afraid to be abandoned, afraid that this love can not stand the test.

Although SUA is small, she has a high IQ and a keen observation. The subtle emotions on my face must not escape her eyes.

After hearing this, she shook her head and said, "Huanyan, if I were you, I would definitely choose Qin Chien, who is more mature. Qin Mofei is like a wild horse. Without that courage, you can't control it at all. You are inferior in nature, and you will get hurt when you are with him. "

What a prophecy!

I'm black and blue now. I'm going to get married, but I'm still in fear, suffering almost every minute. I don't know what it's like to get married, but I know it's not as hard as I am.

I don't dare to mention to SUA that we have a strange relationship these two days. She is so smart that she will see through something. I'm afraid to say something worse from her mouth, and I'm bound to collapse.

I sighed and laughed bitterly. "Do you think we're not worthy?"

"It's not a matter of whether you deserve it or not. It's not a matter of morale. There's a lot of difference between the two of you." After a pause, she added, "I think my boss should like you very much and put all his thoughts on Shang Ying on you. He has always wanted to make up for you. When he knows that you have opened a small shop on the design website, he uses resources to help you find business. "

"What? He got the business of my shop? "

"Or do you think there are so many businesses in a single website? But you did a good job, and the word of mouth was quite good, which he didn't expect. Huanyan, although I don't want to admit it, you are really good at it. ""Well, do you want to do abortion? If you don't want to go, get off. "

I don't want to hear SUA speak any more. The news from her mouth is always incredible. I can't imagine that the business I've been complacent about is actually Qin Chien's secret move. How can I feel? Will I never get rid of their shadow?

Su Ya suddenly turned to stare at me, her eyes burning, "are you and Qin Mofei's feelings not as good as you said?"

"Of course not. We're fine. We're going to get married soon." I dare not look into her eyes.

"If so, why are you afraid to hear from them? Because any of them loves you more than Qin Mofei, right? "

"Don't you want an abortion? Are you still going? Get off if you don't go. "

I can't stand SUA's aggressiveness. She seems to see through my mind and know that I'm far fetched in refuting emotional issues. And what's more funny is that I'll be scared and timid under her eyes. I'm afraid.

SUA didn't force me any more. She turned her head and looked at the hospital for a long time. She said to me, "come on, accompany me to take away the baby."

“…… Don't you regret it? "

"I don't want to have an illegitimate son, or marry someone who doesn't love me for the sake of the child. Huanyan, Shang Yan loves you very much. I guess he can't get out of his life, so I will never be with him. "

I saw that SUA had made up her mind and said nothing more, so she drove slowly into the hospital. Accompany her upstairs to check her body, and then wait in line at the door of Obstetrics and Gynecology, everything is very smooth.

When it was her turn, she suddenly turned her head and looked at me helplessly, and her eyes suddenly turned red, "Huanyan, you don't want to go, just stay here with me, OK? Never leave. "

"Well!"

When I watched SUA go in, I opened my mouth and tried to stop her to think about it again. But the door of the operating room slammed and two big "Jing" words were pasted on the door, so I couldn't say a word.

It is said that in all hospitals, the ghost of Obstetrics and gynecology is the most, because many children are broken by cold instruments before they are born. They do not want to leave and want to reincarnate, so they linger in these places all day long waiting for opportunities.

I have not experienced the pain of a baby being broken, but I have hurt a baby, so sue and I are both butchers. She must be crying, right? She was shivering when she went in just now. She must have loved the child in her heart.

In fact, Suya is a girl with a lot of ideas. She doesn't want to linger, and she doesn't want to be trapped by a child all her life, so she does it.

And I, if not Xiao Fan, now is another time. At least Qin and I will not cross the world.

Thinking of him, I picked up my mobile phone and looked at it again. There was no phone, no information. He seemed to have forgotten me. Maybe SUA is right. I can't control a man with such temperament. Otherwise, I won't feel sorry for myself here.

More than half an hour later, SUA came out of the operating room, her face white and colorless, her eyes red and empty.

I hastily helped her to the rest room next door, which is specially for women after the flow of people to rest, can lie down for a rest. She curled up on her clothes and broke her heart.

This is the first time I saw her cry, because of the mistake after indulgence. I sat beside her and patted her on the shoulder. I couldn't even say a word of comfort. I didn't know what to say.

There are a lot of miscarriage women, they are quietly watching SUA cry, and soon they are also quietly wiping tears.

In fact, women have the nature of maternal love, the reason why they do not have children, may also have a variety of reasons. However, if the man who let her pregnant a little bit, he would not suffer this crime and be punished by this God.

Sue stayed in the lounge for an hour, and I helped her out of the hospital. She can actually be hospitalized for observation, but she is not willing to say that she is afraid.

She went back to my apartment in Jinsha. Her home is spotless, but it's very simple. There's hardly anything to eat in the kitchen.

I saw that she was so vain that I was going to buy a chicken stew for her in the supermarket near her. My heart is soft. Besides, with Shang Ying's foil, the bad things she once directed at me are not worth mentioning.

After I settled SUA to sleep, I came out with her key and found the supermarket near the community to buy things.

The supermarket is very big. I chose a lot of tonic things, such as chicken, ribs and so on.

When I was pushing the shopping cart to the cashier's desk to check out, I suddenly saw that Shang Yan was also pushing the cart. His face was very gloomy. He didn't see me, so I quickly pulled up the collar and quickly put the meat and vegetables on the cash register.

I think he will come to check out soon, so he quickly took a few pieces of 100 yuan and put them on the cash register, and ran away with the vegetables.

I run fast. He shouldn't have seen me.I don't know why I don't want to see him so much. In a word, I feel sorry for him. When I hurried back to SUA's house, she was already asleep with two lines of tears on her face. I think it was after I left that she cried again.

I tucked her in and went to the kitchen to prepare the stewed chicken. As soon as I washed the chicken and put it in the pot, I heard the doorbell ring in the room.

I looked at Su ya, who didn't seem to wake up, so I wiped my hands and walked over. I opened the door and saw that it was Shangyan. He gave me a cool look.