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After warning Zhao Qiang, I went directly to Zhao Xue's ward.

Although I had been ready before, when I saw Zhao Xue lying there with a pale face, and her wrist was still wrapped with gauze, I felt no pain in my heart.

"Zhao Xue..."

I stood by her bed and cried softly.

Zhao Xue because coma did not respond, I did not continue to call her, but quietly with her side.

An hour passed quickly. When I saw Zhao Xue wake up slowly, I just wanted to tell her. Unexpectedly, the woman opened her mouth with a dull face.

"Am I dead?"

"No, you're still fine. Just now you wanted to commit suicide and were sedated by the doctor. How do you feel now? Is it better? "

I don't have the guts to care.

Although before she woke up, I had made all kinds of tough preparations, but when I saw that she really woke up, my heart was softened again

Zhao Xue listened to the voice, turned her head and looked at me, then her face showed surprise, and then tears stayed, and her mouth kept calling my name.

"Zhang Shan, Zhang Shan..."

I feel very bad, because I see a trace of regret in Zhao Xue's eyes at the moment.

"Well, I'm here. Don't move. The doctor says you have to have a good rest. I can hear you when you lie down and talk. Be obedient. Lie down first, or I'll leave."

Seeing Zhao Xue struggling to think of it, I have no choice but to comfort her.

"Well, I'm obedient. Will you stay? Please

Although Zhao Xue lay down, her hands held me tightly. She seemed to be afraid that if she let go, I would fly away.

"I don't want to leave. Today I just come to see you. You lie down well and tell me what you want to say. You can ask whatever you want. Today we won't talk about those unhappy things."

Instead of pulling my hand back, I looked at her and said.

Sure enough, after hearing this, Zhao Xue's face was less worried, but then I saw her cry again.

"Well, why are you crying? I just said that, don't say those unhappy things, you today I come to see you, you can treat me as a friend, as a stranger, whatever you want, as long as you can open up a little and don't commit suicide, I don't come here in vain today. "

I sighed and said.

I thought Zhao Xue would feel better after hearing this, but I didn't expect her to cry more.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, Zhang Shan. I'm sorry for you. I'm not good. You can scold me. If you can't beat me, please don't treat me like this. I'm so afraid and sorry. Don't drive me away, OK?"

Zhao Xue pleaded with me.

I know what she said is the last time I took Wu Ruoqi home and quarreled with her to drive her away. Although I would like to explain that it happened for a reason, I understand that Zhao Xue's mood is unstable now, so I can bear it.

"I won't drive you away any more, but you have to promise me that you can't commit suicide in the future."

"Well, I won't commit suicide again, but you promise not to leave me, OK?"

I didn't answer her, but sighed in my heart, because I know that Zhao Xue is so sorry for me in her heart. Although I don't know why she regrets at this time, I really feel that I can't forgive her any more.

But don't forgive her doesn't mean I want her to die, although she did a lot of wrong, but I still hope she is good.

How can we say that we have been husband and wife for several years. Even if we treat each other as strangers, we still have meetings that can't be erased.

So after a moment of silence, I picked up an apple and asked her with a smile, "do you want to eat an apple? Look at this apple is very good. Why don't I peel one for you? It should be very sweet. "

I try to change the topic, want to let Zhao Xue no longer think about these things, but unexpectedly she is very stubborn.

"Zhang Shan, you still blame me in your heart. I know I shouldn't cheat on you, and I know I shouldn't hurt you later. But later, I really know I'm wrong. I want to make up for you, but you never give me a chance. I really regret it. Please give me a chance to reform, OK?"

Seeing Zhao Xue's stubborn face, I sighed again.

"Why, since we are all separated, what's the point of going back? I don't mean anything else when I come to you this time. I just want you to be good and don't do stupid things. As you said before, there is no one in the world who can't live without him. Why do you have to worry about this all the time? Let it go in the past. "

Instead of putting the apple down, I kept peeling it.

After Zhao Xue saw it, her tears became more fierce. She was very sad. It was like that I had done something sorry to her.

"Zhao Xue, don't do that. This is a hospital. You need to rest when you are injured. If you cry like this again, the problem can't be solved. Doctors and nurses should come to remind us.""I don't cry. Will you talk to me like this? If I don't cry, will you give me a chance to sit down? Zhang Shan, I ask you, if I didn't commit suicide today, would you not come to the hospital? "

Zhao Xue asked me in tears.

I was silent, because if Zhao Qiang didn't call me today to tell me about it, I would not take the initiative to come. Even if I took the initiative, I had settled the divorce and was ready to talk to her.

I didn't expect her suicide this time, but I can't compromise with her because of her suicide threat.

"You're right. If you didn't commit suicide this time, I would never come to see you. But Zhao Xue, it's not how much I hate you, but I don't want you to do anything stupid like today. So I hope you can understand what I mean and stop doing stupid things. After we leave the hospital this time, we'll go through the formalities and start well A new life. "

I dare not give her hope as before, but choose to refuse her so tactfully.

"Zhang Shan, what do you say? Are you going to divorce me? "

Zhao Xue is surprised to ask a way, finish saying, the tears that just stopped flowed out again.

"Divorce is necessary, because I don't want to suffer any more, and I don't want to make you suffer any more. Instead of tormenting each other like this, we'd better just order a pat and two scatters. When we meet again, we won't be the same as our enemies."

I explained patiently.

"No, I don't want to divorce you. I don't want to divorce you. Zhang Shan, are you looking for a good woman outside? Did she force you to divorce me? I beg you not to do this to me, will you

Zhao Xue pleaded again.

"I don't have a woman outside. I divorce you just to make my heart relaxed, because I don't want to continue to torture myself, and I don't want to worry so much with you. Although you have done so many wrong things before, as long as you promise me not to do that again and live a good life in the future, I can regard it as nothing happened."

I expressed myself again.

If Zhao Xue can understand this time, this is the best result in my heart.

But now looking at her unstable mood, I know that the result is probably out of the question.

"Zhang Shan, why do you want to be so heartless? You said that if you divorce me, you will divorce me. Do you know why I want to commit suicide this time? I just want to take this opportunity to have a good talk with you, and then I beg you to forgive me. I beg you to remarry me, but you still have this plot. You still want to force me to die. "

Zhao Xue said, and reached for the fruit knife in my hand.

Naturally, I would not give it to her, but I began to get angry in my heart.

Although I don't know what made Zhao Xue change her mind, I understand that I can't accommodate her to this matter again. After all, she regrets now and says everything well. But when this matter is over, maybe she will lose her ties with Xia Jun.

After all, the things in one's bones can't be changed. Even if she doesn't cheat with Xia Jun in the future, she will cheat with others.

"Zhao Xue, what do you want to do? Are you crazy? If you're like this, can you believe me to leave now? Do you really think your death can threaten me? You say I'm heartless, but I think I've done enough. If I'm as cold-blooded as you are, I won't come to persuade you. "

In the face of my anger, Zhao Xue Leng for a while, and then began to laugh.

"Yes, if it wasn't for the guilt in your heart, you wouldn't come to see me today, but why can't you give me a chance to reform? I'm not good to you, and I wanted to let you die, but that's what I did on impulse. I regret it, and I feel as bad as you

See Zhao Xue said tears began to increase, although my heart is not taste, but also did not say anything.

Because I think my meaning has been expressed very clearly. If Zhao Xue insists on this, I think I will choose to leave next. After all, Zhao Xue really wants to die. I can't stop her. She doesn't want to die, and I can't decide.

"Eat this apple as a farewell Memorial."

I cut an apple with a fruit knife and said to Zhao Xue in a soft voice.

Zhao Xue did not respond, she just sad looking at me, I know that she is so sad in the heart, must also complain about my unfeeling, can change to my point of view, my grievances and who can tell?

"Even if you don't want to eat, because all I can do has been done for you. I've put the apple on the table for you, and it has been cut into pieces. Give me the knife. There's just a lack of this fruit knife at home. OK, have a rest and I'll go."

With that, I was ready to get up and leave.

Because I think the purpose I came here today has been achieved, and I have done what I should do. But I didn't expect that Zhao Xue just stood up and looked at me.

"Zhang Shan, I know you want me to leave, and you want me to live a good life. As long as you promise me a condition now, I will definitely listen to you, live a good life in the future and never trouble you again."