CH 18

Chapter 18 In the Light of a Street Lamp [Part 2]

February 14, 2022

I wonder how many hours have passed since then.

Inside the car, Touko-senpai and I were just looking at Kamokura Tetsuya’s apartment under our breath.

Street lights shining from the front and rear of the car illuminated the interior of the car in a faint glow.

……I wonder how Touko-senpai is feeling right now as she looks out the window of that apartment. ……

Touko-senpai and Kamokura have been dating for more than half a year now.

Both of them are adults.

Naturally, the relationship would be an “adult relationship.

Probably, in that room, Touko-senpai must have entrusted her body to Kamokura.

On that same bed, another woman is now having sex with her boyfriend.

I’m sure it’s hard for you, but I’m sure it’s hard for her. ……

Of course, I also still have painful, sad, and frustrating feelings.

I remember Karen’s body.

Kamokura plays with her body as she pleases.

Karen responds to it with a voice of pleasure. ……

When I think about it, my brain almost boils.

I’m still traumatized by that “message between Karen and Kamokura”.

But the one person who always saves me from that is my senpai Touko.

When I think that Touko-senpai is in the same situation with me and will fight with me, I can regain my composure.

In addition, there have been times when I’ve been depressed, or on the contrary, there have been times when I’ve lost my cool and almost gone out of control, but every time I’ve done that, Touko-senpai has sometimes comforted me, and at other times she has scolded me with harsh words and encouraged me.

If it hadn’t been for Touko, I would have been so disgusted with everything that I would have stopped going to college and would have stayed at home.

I might have chastised her, cursed her, and still clung to her in tears, saying, “I don’t want to leave you!

Even if that results in Karen’s feelings drifting further away, ……

"Isshiki-kun, when did you start dating Karen-san?"

Suddenly, Touko-senpai asked.

"It's from the launch of the first semester exams in July. We did that in the circle, didn't we?""That drinking party where only those who finished their exams got together?

"Yes."

I had talked to Karen several times before that.

During the Golden Week camp, Karen and I started to see each other more often.

After that, we naturally started to talk when we got together at the circle hangout.

Karen was a cheerful girl who laughed a lot and was popular with the rest of the circle.

When I found out that Touko-senpai was dating Kamokura, I had set my sights on Karen as my next target.

So after the party, I walked Karen to the halfway point and confessed my feelings to her.

The next two months or so were probably the most fun time for me.

Our relationship became official within the circle, and we went on dates to various places during the summer vacation.

…… But when did Karen start cheating on me with Kamokura? ……

……While I was having a good time with her, she was still sleeping with Kamokura in secret. ……

I looked up at the room in Kamokura’s apartment again.

Karen is also a really tough girl.

Today, Kamokura just called Karen as a substitute because her true love, Touko-senpai, couldn’t come, but she went along with him.

I don’t know if Kamokura is also saying, “You’re a substitute.

"So that's how it all started."

I was pulled back from my imagination by Touko’s words.

In order to shake off the unpleasant thought, I asked her.

"Touko-senpai, you went out with Kamokura-senpai after your second year, right?

That’s right.

Why did you go out with Kamokura-senpai?

I’ve been wondering about that for a while.

It is true that Kamokura Tetsuya is a cool guy.

He is handsome, cheerful and is the type of person who attracts people around him.

He was popular with girls in high school, college, and clubs everywhere.

Even at the high school festival, when Kamokura performed as the vocalist of the band, many girls from the first year to the third year cried out.

But it was doubtful that a woman as rational as Touko-senpai would have been attracted to Kamokura on that basis alone.

This time, I had come to think so more strongly.

The silhouette of Touko-senpai moved a little.

She turned her face from the apartment to the front.

The streetlight faintly illuminated her profile.

"Tetsuya is a first for me. ......"

Touko-senpai paused for a moment before she began to speak.

"When I was in my second year of college, all my friends around me had boyfriends. People around me said, ["You should get a boyfriend as soon as possible. I can't believe you've never had a boyfriend before.], I felt like I had to do that when people said, "That's the way it should be. Maybe I was in a hurry because of everything that was going on at that time."

The profile of Touko-senpai, illuminated by the hazy light of the street lamp, was as beautiful as a painting.

Only her mouth moves slightly.

So Tetsuya has been approaching me enthusiastically ever since I entered high school. Tetsuya is a good-looking guy, he’s not bad-looking, he’s smart, he’s good at sports, and he can be the center of the circle. He’s also kind to me. I thought he would be a good boyfriend. I’m shallow, too.”

I thought to myself at the time, “Even a woman of Touko’s caliber would think that way.

It’s probably natural to say that.

But isn’t that what normal women do when they choose a boyfriend? I’m sure you’re not the only one.”

"Do you really think I can put this behind me?"