CH 21

Shin Heejae, not knowing how I felt, tried to meet with me more persistently after the siege.

“Noona, you said you lived at ×× city, right?”

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[Party] [Sesam: yeah]

“That’s perfect.”

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[Party] [Sesam: ?]

“It’s exactly an hour’s drive from my house.”

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[Party] [Sesam: lolol just moved to hawaii]

“And that’s our honeymoon destination.” 

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[Party] [Sesam: please shut up] 

Honestly, I wasn’t sure of myself.  Originally, I planned on just taking Shin Heejae’s staff and ditching, right?

But……. Even though the staff was in my hands,  I regularly logged into the game. While criticizing that Shin Heejae bastard, who I couldn’t even reason with, we played together. 

“Have I really become fond of this bastard?”

While asking this, I got angry again because I wasn’t able to deny it right away.  Now, instead of being mad at Shin Heejae,  I felt more ashamed of myself. 

Even the act of Shin Heejae was not asking me to return the staff, was probably him letting it go because he trusted me.

Then, even if it was right to shit on that trust, every day, I just log on and play with Shin Heejae. 

The clan members also know that Shin Heejae and I are dating online, and I can’t exactly deny it either……. It was this kind of slow situation.

Unable to do this and that, should I say it felt like I was being held tight. Getting really stressed, and feeling a longing to do something…….

“Noona, perhaps, you’re not a misogamist, are you?”

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[Party] [Sesam: a misogamist with you]

“Ah, why.”

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[Party] [Sesam: no interest in younger people]

“Don’t regret it later, Seyoung-ah.”

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[Party] [Sesam: what are you saying?]

“A noona I know told me that. She said as time went by, she liked young men.” 

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[Party] [Sesam: then go out with her lolol] 

“Ufgtjqr, jgf sbe pfjiber?”

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[Party] [Sesam: lolol? can you not read?]

“Ct, kts kbc’a sbe vb la obg wf. Pa kjr rbwfatlcu P rjlv bc qegqbrf.”

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[Party] [Sesam: lololololololololololololololololololol]

“Qjr la bynlber? Krx.”

“Jgjhs yjrajgv…….”

Snfgs alwf, la kjr ilxf atlr. 

P obecv Vtlc Lffpjf ab yf ugbrr, yea jirb oeccs. Rb, tbcfrais, P mjc’a fnfc tbiv yjmx ws ijeutafg…….

But, it seemed like that was the problem. I felt like even if he was a bit less funny, he would still be able to stand out right away.  Should I say, it’s fun… While I criticize him, I’m also curious about what kind of things he’s going to say.

“No…….. What am I curious about? Am I crazy?”

I suddenly came to my senses. 

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[Party] [Sesam: i said i would never date you]

I said so with a forced straight face, but……

“I took a screenshot of this.”

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[Party] [Sesam: what?]

“Later when I marry noona, I should show you.”

Shin Heejae didn’t seem to mind. I was taken aback by his ridiculously confident attitude.

No, should I really go meet him? I let it slide because I thought he’d startle if he knew I was a man. But this bastard……. 

While muttering about it, I tried imagining meeting Shin Heejae.  I thought about what expression he would make when he saw me.

My mood fell as I thought of a contorted, handsome face. It wasn’t pleasant. More than anything, this guy wouldn’t just frown. 

“I feel like he’d hit me at least twice…..”

And when I imagined the situation, Shin Heejae was bigger than me.

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[Party] [Sesam: hey] 

[Party] [Heejae: yeah?]

[Party] [Sesam: are you good at fighting? ㅎ]

[Party] [Heejae: ㅇ_ㅇ?]

[Party] [Heejae: i’m the best in arcadia ㅇ.ㅇv] 

[Party] [Sesam: no asshole are you good at fighting not the game]

[Party] [Heejae: in order to be the best in arcadia there are some things I have to give up… ㅇ_ㅇ ]

[Party] [Sesam: lolol]

Shin Heejae’s silly answer made me laugh a little, but soon I straightened my expression and slapped myself on the cheeks. Lately, the control of my facial muscles have been loosened because of responding to such ridiculous words.

Anyway……. By the way Shin Heejae said it, I gained a little courage. In a joking tone, I brought up the main point that I wanted to ask him.

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[Party] [Sesam: hey]

[Party] [Sesam: if]

[Party] [Sesam: the person you thought was a woman was a man]

[Party] [Heejae:  ?ㅇ_ㅇ] 

[Party] [Sesam: then how would you feel]

[Party] [Heejae: whats that ㅇ.ㅇ]

However, I wasn’t ready to suddenly explain why to Shin Heejae yet.  I couldn’t answer and stuttered, then managed to squeeze out a new story.

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[Party] [Sesam: i mean… i… got tricked by a netkama once?]

[Party] [Heejae: a netkama?] 

[Party] [Sesam: yeah…]

[Party] [Sesam: we became close because he said he was a girl….]

[Party] [Sesam: he was a man…..]

It was a good and plausible made-up story. However, Shin Heejae, who had been listening until now, suddenly turned on the microphone and asked me something.

“So that’s why you asked me if I was good at fighting?”

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[Party] [Sesam: huh?]

“To ask me to punch him?”

“No, you crazy bastard!” 

I answered with a straight face.

[Party] [Sesam: no what are you talking about]

[Party] [Sesam: why are you punching all the sudden?] 

“No, you said he pretended to be a woman and tricked you. Isn’t he a perverted bastard.” 

“…….”

“Noona, possibly, you aren’t saying you won’t meet me because of that guy, right?”

As I blankly listened to Shin Heejae’s anger at virtual netkamas, strangely, I fell into a very bad mood. 

What do you mean, they’re perverted bastards?…… no, it’s not like I did it because I wanted to be a netkama, you were the one following me first while calling noona, noona, alone…..

As I made regretful excuses internally while not knowing who I was making them to,  Shin Heejae, who was unaware of my mood, started getting ahead on his own. Well, him saying I could go download my citizen ID card was just nonsense…. In the end, Shin Heejae added something with a dry nuance.

“Noona. I can prove it. It’s embarrassing. But….., If noona wants it, well…. I can also show you everything.”

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[Party] [Sesam: ?]

I thought for a moment about what he was saying, and then my anger flared up.

[Party] [Sesam: sh*t if you try sending a picture of your p*pper? report immediately]

[Party][Heejae: lololololololololololololololololololololololololololololololololololololololololololololololololololololololol] 

[Party] [Sesam: are you really ♡♡?]

[Party] [Sesam: ☆☆☆☆r]

Even as I was typing a bunch of swears, Shin Heejae’s muffled laughter over the microphone didn’t stop.

With a constantly laughing voice, the guy spoke to me as I was shaking and writing swear words.

“No….. what exactly are you imagining, noona?”

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[Party] [Sesam: it’s disgusting]

“Noona. I didn’t say anything.”

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[Party] [Sesam: its dirty]

“Noona, isn’t it that you misunderstood me first.”

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[Party] [Sesam: shut up]

“I was just talking about my face……, that’s it. Haa.” 

Again, as if he was full of laughter, Shin Heejae giggled endlessly. Then he clacked and started another quarrel in the chat.

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[Party] [Heejae: seyoung-ah i’m big ㅎ] 

[Party] [Heejae: my height ㅎㅎ]

[Party] [Sesam: block complete]

[Party] [Heejae: lolololololololololololololololololololololololololol]

[Party] [Heejae:ㅇ.ㅇlolol] 

[Party] [Heejae: i can’t even say that big things are big…]

I realized that Shin Heejae wanted to slowly come out and make dirty jokes. I decided to beat him right away. Shit, do I have to play games now while making sex jokes with this bastard? 

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[Party] [Sesam: lolol among the bastards who claim that they’re big, there weren’t any big ones?]

[Party] [Heejae: so you should have met me first, seyoung-ah ㅎ]

[Party] [Sesam: die dont speak bullshit] 

[Party] [Heejae: now i understand why seyoung is always angry……]

[Party] [Heejae: it’s because you met a small man noonaㅎㅎ]

[Party] [Sesam: i think you’re the smallest man i’ve ever met]

[Party] [Heejae: hm lolololololololol] 

As Shin Heejae laughed, the conversation ended like that. But unlike before, I felt dirty.

“Shin Heejae.., shit. He’s gotta be bluffing, right? 

I couldn’t control my irritation and blocked his character. Then I moved to another village, but Shin Heejae followed me right away. He turned on the microphone and spoke.

“No, what is this block?”

“Die… you’re really going to be sentenced to death by your remarks today, you punk.”  

“Hm. But, noona, are you not going to tell me more about that netkama?”

“…….”

“I said I’m not like that pervert?” 

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[Party] [Sesam: just before, the person all fired up about their p*pper was who?]

I said it as a way to tell him to please shut up, but Heejae tactlessly replied while giggling.

“That word is too lewd.”

“This bastard really must have a sexual obsession….”

I logged out, convinced of his illness. I felt that if I hung out with him more, he would tell me things I didn’t want to know.

However, as soon as I turned off Discord and the game, I got a phone call from Shin Heejae. I didn’t answer the phone and turned on ‘no disturbance mode’.

Shin Heejae whined on messenger soon after the phone call was automatically rejected. 

[Heejae]

[noona]

[seyoung-ah ㅇ.ㅇ]

[lolololololololololololololol ah come back] 

[i wont do it anymore]

[Heejae]

[no, but noona said something dirty first ㅇ_ㅇ…]

I read his message and tried to think it over, but I couldn’t just let go of his disgusting act of shifting the blame. 

[Me]

[damn you lolol that’s what it seems like because you always think about that kind of stuff]

[Heejae]

[lolololololololololololololololololololololololololol] 

[admitted]

Before I could curse more, Shin Heejae admitted it, so I lost the will to criticize him. Unsurprisingly, Shin Heejae was an antisocial pervert. Even if I fought with a guy like this, I, as a normal person, couldn’t win.

“No, but I really feel dirty.”

When Shin Heejae kept calling “noona, noona” I didn’t really think much of it. But I felt a bit through this conversation, that I wouldn’t know if this bastard was using me as a side dish….. No way, with the hand picture I sent…. 

“If this guy knew I was a man, really, he’d be shocked.….”

I tried to laugh, but my frowned brow didn’t ease up.