Translator: Atlas Studios Editor: Atlas Studios
I saw his face harden and his eyes freeze over.
“Why?”
“… Dirty… dirty…”
I crossed my arms, not wanting him to touch me. I did not want to dirty his hands.
I felt that I was dirty. From head to toe, there was a stain that couldn’t be washed clean. In my heart, Dongyu was someone that couldn’t be sullied. I didn’t want to dirty his hands.
However, he seemed to have misunderstood my meaning. When he heard this word coming out of my mouth, he slowly retracted his hand.
I saw the light in his eyes dimming, devoiding itself of luster, and even… a hint of indescribable disappointment.
He seemed to be asking, “How did you become like this?”
I couldn’t stand the look in his eyes. I lowered my head and crouched helplessly.
I wasn’t sure how long he stood there for, looking at me, studying me.
I only saw that he suddenly turned around and left. Despite Han Xiao’s repeated urgings, he walked away without looking back.
Han Xiao ran out, after him. After a long time, she returned – I saw both resentment and helplessness in her expression.
“Xiachun, what’s the matter with you?! You have not said a word, not a word. What happened that night?!”
I didn’t say anything, all I knew was that Dongyu was gone. But I thought, just go. The farther you go, the better. Don’t… look back again.
I didn’t need his care anymore.
That night, I still did not have dinner. Han Xiao could not persuade me either. My indifference almost caused her to break down!
As she stood there at a loss, her mother shouted from outside, “Xiao Xiao, someone’s looking for you!”
Han Xiao left the room. A few minutes later, the door was pushed open again. However, I noticed that the footsteps sounded different.
When I finally looked up, I saw Su Qi walking into the room, his face ashen. When he saw me, he was stunned for a long time before he walked up to me and squatted down.
He reached for me.
Surprisingly, I didn’t push him away like I had pushed Dongyu away.
All I could recall was that my mind went blank when he tried to hold me. I couldn’t think of anything. I didn’t dare think of anything.
But later, I realized that back then, perhaps I just really needed a warm embrace.
Su Qi couldn’t give me the warmth I wanted.
But I dared not hope for the warmth that Dongyu could give me.
Besides Su Qi, I didn’t know who else could give me such warmth.
When he wrapped his arms around me, tears simply flowed from my eyes. They surged and flowed as though from a broken dam. I couldn’t hold them back anymore.
Maybe it was my tears, my suppressed sobs that tore at his heart.
He hugged me tightly and choked, “It’s my fault. Don’t cry!”
I cried harder upon hearing his words.
“Why did you leave me alone yesterday?” I demanded of him.
That question came almost impulsively.
His entire body stiffened, as if all the blood in his body had frozen!
These words stabbed at his heart like a knife.
He rubbed my shoulder guiltily, his voice shaking. “It’s my fault… I shouldn’t have left you alone yesterday!”
I questioned him over and over again in despair. “Even you left me alone, how could you?”
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“Why?”
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“Why did you leave me behind?”
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“Su Qi… I have never toyed with you. I never did.”
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He had no idea what had happened that night.. He only understood that I was asking him why he had left me there alone.