Chapter 310 - The beast inside her

'It seems like I have to compete for your affections from a lot of men…'

Lyn sighed and glanced over at Allen, his signature fake smile on his face, and he was speaking with the guests. Lyn just stood by his side, politely smiling and nodding. Whenever somebody asked her a question, she would answer it. If she couldn't answer, she would signal Allen. But it was a lot of work.

She is a Princess.

She declared that she would become Queen. That she intends to run for the throne.

While she had yet to make a public declaration, many people certainly think so otherwise.

'Aaah, ahh, if you're bored, just destroy them all.'

Lyn froze when she heard the voice in her head. When she first started hearing these voices, she thought it was just a figure of her imagination. She thought it was that person, but it was not that guy. Don't think about it, the moment she focuses on the voice, the moment it becomes terrible. But that's precisely why she can't ignore it.

Now that Lyn thought about it, she hasn't seen that guy in a while. How peculiar, even though he would often appear before. Now lately, she hears a different voice, a scarier voice. Did this new person replace him? What happened to him?

..

"Your so cruel, Lyn, don't you know who I am?"

It was covered in darkness, the same place as before. But this time around, everything is shrouded in black. The walls, the furniture - that guy is nowhere to be found.

She could hear somebody talking to her, but she could not see them5 — not even a trace of their back. However, Lyn felt a presence in the room. There is undoubtedly somebody here.

"What do you want from me?"

The voice mocked her, "Are you upset because he isn't here?"

"What did you do to him?!!"

"Nothing," she laughed. "You'll see him whenever I feel like it."

Lyn clenched her fist.

"You are stupid Lyn, what use is there trying to push me away? You should understand better than anyone what your current situation is."

"I do understand."

"No, you don't," the voice sounded disappointed. "Is it tough to understand? For people like us, the only way we can find salvation is to devour and destroy the person we love. So we can be with them forever. Whenever I think of him, I feel conflicted. I love him so much. I want to be with him all the time. But at the same time, I want to destroy him. I want to see his blood…"

Ah, now Lyn understood. After listening to this person's words. It makes sense now, the person who is talking is her.

"It's so strange, why does it feel so strongly? I'm you, but I'm not… Lyn, Lyn. The person we love.."

"Be quiet," at that comment, Lyn reached over and extended her hand out.

…

When Lyn next opened her eyes, she was back in the ballroom. It was like nothing had changed, no time had passed by either. A deep sigh escaped her lips, 'How problematic.' Lyn thought. Who would have thought that attending a ball would end up this way?

The person she loves?

Whenever she thought of Allen, she felt guilty, yes. But their relationship was never meant to be.

Whenever she thought of Kazuya, her heart would clench in pain. She loves him so much, so much. She wants to be with him all the time. When he told her that story on what he wants from her. Lyn felt so very happy. Lyn would also like that, such a peaceful life with Kazuya. But hasn't she already made her mind up? No matter what happens, she will become the Queen even if these people don't accept it.

…

Such warmth, why is that so... .? Where does the warmth come from? The smell of aroma and smoke…

Lyn felt so calm now, ahh, that's right. She likes this hand; this warmth is so very comfortable. She doesn't want to let it go.

A sudden, sharp pain spread her arm; she lets out a yelping sound of pain.

"Is it that painful?"

She hears a familiar voice, Lyn moves away and sits right up. The person who was right beside her was none other than her boyfriend, Kazuya. But, the moment she saw him. Lyn couldn't greet him like regular, because she recalled what she just did.

How shameful, how could she do something like that? Reiji told her it was in their nature. 'We are selfish beings.'

Lyn ran after Reiji despite knowing that others could have followed her. How could she have possibly risked it, during this time?

Then what happened next..? How come Kazuya is here? Wasn't he talking to sir Morris? Lyn looked at the man puzzled. According

"Um, I.. I," Lyn could not get any words out since she started coughing. After the first fit of coughs, Lyn began to to speak, but she coughed again.

Kazuya reached over and pulled her into his chest. He patted her back gently, "Calm down; you don't have to mind. That's right, just calm down. Wait till you have fully recovered, then you can say whatever you want." His voice is so gentle and calm, it's so very close to her right now.

"K—Kaz.."

"Sssh, my Lyn. Let me first apologize. I keep neglecting you."

"No.."

He doesn't have to apologize; it was her fault. Because she wanted to be selfish. Lyn hid this from Kazuya, but she heard about the rumors regarding him and her sister.

... It was all because of her jealousy. "It's because of me."

The second she saw Reiji, she, despite knowing what the outcome would be, ran to him even though she had been in Kazuya's arms a few mere hours before.

The others must have mentioned it; they must have about Reiji about this mark. And yet even if that's the case, she should not have let anybody else touch her. Is it common for people like them? What type of nonsense is that?

She's the one who should apologize to him. Although she has a faint memory of what happened, Lyn could still recall it.

"It's a good thing I went after you, or else there's no way things could be salvaged.."

How can he still be so gentle to her? He doesn't know how many times she went to Shioka. To gain the strength to she needed, what she offered in exchange. How come he can still treat her this way?

Kazuya frowned, "Wait, I'll call Rhys," he gently kissed her lips before drawing back. "Stay here."

Why isn't he angry? Why is he always so forgiving?

Why is she the one getting all mad and frustrated about the situation? The one who should be mad is him. She has no right to be angry. How stupid, she is so foolish.

Her thoughts broke off when she felt Kazuya's hand on her forehead. Kazuya parted her bangs. "Lyn, don't make such a sad expression. Even though I find you cute, no matter what."

Lyn hits him lightly, and he grinned.

"Alright, don't overthink now."

"Kazuya…" Lyn started.

'. . .aren't you... going to stay with me?' Those words were at the very edge of her lips. Words Lyn would typically tell him. Whenever it came to Kazuya, she has always been strangely honest, after all. All the feelings she buried away, would unleash whenever she is with him.

However, right now? Right now, she cannot say these words. She cannot say so. Why couldn't say them? Is it because of her condition right now? Her entire body felt incredibly heavy; she really can't move even though she wants nothing more to rush straight into his arms. Lyn, what are you doing?

No, she won't allow it to happen again. She won't, no matter what happens.