Chapter 312 - I lost to you

When people treat you like nothing, you feel like nothing.

That's why she made a vow to become strong, stronger than ever. So she doesn't cave into the emotions that she has been hiding ever since that day. When her other brother left, he abandoned them all. That person will always be on the run and never live his life peacefully; he will always be running away and never have time to stop and face the problem. After he left, she and mother suffered so much. Peoples whispers, their voices. ' You couldn't do anything'. Although they were living, they were treated as an existence that was just there. She didn't want to live that sort of life. She wanted to find a place no matter where it was. A place where she could carry on looking forward. Now she has found it, after searching for so long.

"Do you like it here, Lyn?"

The place Kazuya brought her to was a beautiful lakeside. The view was breathtaking; Lyn beamed happily. "I haven't been in a place surrounded by nature in such a long time. I'm very happy."

"So, Allen told me about that guy. Your first love appeared."

At that comment, Lyn panicked, "Well, uh, you see that was a very long time ago."

"'The two looked well matched.' " Kazuya mimicked Allen's voice, and her face color turned pale.

Should she not have expressed so much concern when she saw him again? But six years have passed.

"Did you talk to Allen about it?"

"Yes," Lyn nodded. "When we first met that year, we spoke about what to do about the engagement. How should we act in front of the public? Most arranged marriages tend to go through an awkward phase at the start since the two do not know how to communicate. A lot of misunderstandings and affairs occur. That's why Allen and I discussed it."

Kazuya sweat fell, "Is that something you should be discussing?"

"Well, it was unusual. But I'm actually glad he wasn't such a tyrant. He's never once thought to touch me, even when I came of age. There are many lecherous men out there who touch their finances within the first meeting. But Allen isn't like that; he discussed things with me. He asked me then, 'Is there somebody you harbor affections for?'. Back then, I had yet to get over Arthur, so I told him about it."

Allen was very understanding; he understood and told her that he would wait for her. 'I shall wait until you have settled your feelings, and then we can truly take this seriously.'

"Allen has never treated me as a woman before. But eventually, we would be lawfully man and wife. Even if Allen met other women, they'd only ever be concubines, not the lawful wife. I never understood that rule. How come I can have multiple lawful husbands, but Allen can't have another wife? The times we live in are truly strange; it's like they are purposely trying to take away our happiness."

Living in these times, having multiple partners means they do not wish for them to give their heart to one person and one person alone.

Her sentence falls short when she felt Kazuya place his hand on top of hers. At first, he said nothing, but then he squeezed her hands. "I plan to change those things when I become your King."

At that comment, her eyes widened. "Honestly, I want to be with you. I only love you. For me, that rule is not a problem since I'd only ever take you as my wife. But, for you to have multiple husbands. Well,..."

Lyn sighed, "I'd hate for you to have a concubine."

Kazuya laughed, "Indeed. The two of us are very strange. We believe in only loving one person. But your fiance isn't like that. He's tolerating towards any other men you strike your fancy too. Because he is somebody, who follows the rules and traditions."

That's true, the reason why Allen is so accepting has nothing to do with her personality. It's more like his traditional values.

"Kazuya, I want to surrender. I want you as my husband."

"What about Rhys?" Kazuya asked her. "If you want, you can..."

"No.."

It wouldn't work, no matter what. Rhys, as her husband, is impossible.

Lyn sighed, "I thought you'd be happy if I told you this. But instead, you're bringing up Rhys again."

"That's because he's my friend," Kazuya laughed. "Well, if you're serious, then okay."

Huh? What's with that response? Why does it feel like he has the upper hand? How frustrating.

Kazuya laughed, and her cheeks puffed up in annoyance. What's with this person? He's laughing again. She's never met a person who laughs so much, not until she met Kazuya. These days Lyn is starting to think about how much she likes it.

He's an unusual man. Unconsciously Lyn started to grab onto his hand. "What is it, Lyn?"

"Ever since I was born, there is one thing I remember. A warm hand wrapped against my own. It was clear a vision or something of the future."

Kazuya blinked, "Huh, that's interesting."

"Interesting?"

"Usually, when you hear stories like that, it's regarding fate. If you told any priest or mage they'd tell you that hand belongs to your destined person," Kazuya trailed off and smiled. "So, Miss Lyn, what do you think of my hands? You've held them so many times now?"

"It's hard to say," Lyn mumbled. Something seems different. But the shape of Kazuya's hands and the warmth seem the same. The hand from her memory was covered in scars. 'There was even blood...' Maybe, it's an upcoming sign that Kazuya will get hurt?

She knows that even as she thinks this, his injuries have yet to heal up properly. Watching him now though, it's like nothing is wrong.

"I've been thinking about a lot of things lately. Your dream resembles my own, and I've always thought we were rather similar. My feelings are powerful. I love you a lot. But, I didn't think that was enough, especially during the times we live in. I know this may sound like a bunch of excuses for you. However, the reason why I couldn't tell you right away that I'm serious about this is because I was considering many other things," she trailed off and laughed. "Now, I realize that was stupid of me. There is no need for me to consider anything."

"It seems like you've lost."

Lyn laughed, "Yes, I have lost. Lost to you."

Kazuya pulled her into his arms, "It's my victory, but why do I feel like I've lost?"

"That's because you prioritize everything regarding me," Lyn smiled. "I'm happy to be together with you, Kazuya. From now on, let's work towards that future."