Chapter 1153

"You don't wonder why I'm so sure there's something between you and fate, rather than bluffing you?"

"I know you lied to me..." I don't have the ability to think actively. I'm totally following the topic of winter night, but I'm quite confident in some subjective things, "but I don't know why I want to confess to you, rather than lie to you... You say that lying at least wants to retain, but I'm ready to lose, These words seem to be right and wrong. I'm confused now, but there are only two things I know clearly - I didn't really want to keep you... No, I don't want to, I understand that it's called delusion, you know that I'm a very realistic and practical person, and I never dream about the impossible things... "

" it's ridiculous to say this from your mouth, ha ha Hahaha! " Winter night cut off my words, the skin smile meat does not smile, said: "I do not know you are a very realistic and practical person, I really have to ask you for advice, jump out of the car in the middle of the night, in front of the Jing car scold the female Jing, is this kind of person realistic? Is it practical? Is it true that a man with a muzzle of a gun on his forehead can still laugh wildly and negotiate with the murderers and desperators who have taken hundreds of hostages with bombs? Is it practical? With his own life, for the lives of two women, one of them was the stinky girl Jing who jumped out of the car in the middle of the night and swore and stabbed him in the head with a gun. Is this kind of person realistic? Is it practical? Don't mention the past. Let's say it's not. Now, who can you help? Xu Heng! The mastermind and principal who shot and killed long Xiaotian and took hundreds of hostages in full view of the public! Do you think about the consequences when you ask Jing for him?! Before you see the consequences, your head is tied to your belt! How many people think you and Xu Heng are together, and how many people want your life? Are you realistic? Are you practical? Since the day I met you, have you ever done something that makes me feel realistic and practical? In the company, how many people look forward to the opportunity for you to climb up. You don't want it for nothing. At home... You and your sister are talking about love. Do you mean that you are a very realistic and practical person? Afraid of trouble, afraid of trouble. You talk about it all day long, but there are a lot of troubles. Which one is not found by yourself, including me, should be your trouble? As soon as I have boasted that you won't lie, you will lie to me with your eyes open. If you don't blush, I will blush for you! "

Where can't I blush? My face is very red now, "how can you be a trouble... And, well, I'm not a brother or sister..."

"what do you say

"I didn't say anything... I mean, I..." I didn't know how to explain this kind of contradictory result. After a long time of talking, I had to continue what I said just now. "I said that there are two things I know in my heart, one is that I don't want to, can't force you, the other is that although I didn't want to keep you, I'm not prepared to lose you , these two things, I didn't start to think tonight... "

winter night is silent, it seems that I am waiting for me to continue to say, I barely sit on my body, my hands are on my knees, I still feel a little weak, can't help but smile and slowly say:" from the day of the incident, I am thinking about how to explain to the tassel, how to explain to the purple, how to explain to you... "

"and how to explain it to Murphy." "Tiger elder sister adds with emotion.

I smiled and continued: "I'm not a man with high EQ, I'm not a sensible person, but I'm not a mother. I'm the one who lives with the old man. You've met the old man of my family. He's a very serious and old-fashioned person, and his EQ is not high. He didn't marry my stepmother because he liked my stepmother. In fact, he liked another person at that time, but he married me Now's stepmother, just because he thinks fate needs a father, a complete family... Ha ha, listen to familiar? Zheng Xuedong may think her story is very special, so she told it to me. She wanted me to take a warning, but she didn't know. Just in my home, almost the same story happened. After Mo and Wu Xueqing got married, Zheng Xuedong married into Duanmu's house, and never saw Mo again. My father and the woman he really liked in his heart, why not? Sister Yue also married and was the matchmaker's advice of her parents. I think the motive of her marriage may be the same as that of Zheng Xuedong, and until now, she would not meet my father... The only difference between the two stories is that my stepmother and Wu Xueqing are two people. Women like Wu Xueqing are not worthy to be compared with my stepmother at all, so although sister Yue was robbed by my stepmother Love is still my best friend with my stepmother. She just doesn't see my father, but she often gets to know my father's recent situation through her stepmother. Her stepmother will also tell my father about Yuejie. After Yuejie's divorce, she will try her best to bring two people together... "

" why? " In spite of the atmosphere, sister tiger interrupts me, forgets her current position, and is curious about my family's story. "Your stepmother wants to be a matchmaker, and let them continue to lead the way again? What about her? "

This is a question that I dare not think about. The old man kept his love history to death without mentioning it to this day. I don't know who is more important in his heart, sister Yue and stepmother. But in my heart, stepmother can't be replaced by anyone. I lost a mother from childhood. I don't want to lose another one. I hope sister Yue is happy, But also fear her happiness is based on the premise that stepmother sacrifice happinessIt's a contradiction without solution, so I ignored the curiosity of dongxiaoye and said: "I told this story, not to dissect the feelings of their previous generation, but to say that the emotional intelligence of our old Chu family seems to be not high, love, friendship and family relationship, no matter what, are all muddled, so is the old man, and I am more so... When I was a child, I had no friends, and people said that Children from single parent families have many psychological problems, so no matter I am a good child or a bad child, no one is willing to let their own children be friends with me. Even many teachers will treat me differently, or care about me, or about the students who may be affected by me, intentionally or unintentionally, which makes me special. There is a gap between me and other children at that time Just envy, good children have good children's circle, bad children have bad children's circle, I even envy good children to look down on bad children, bad children don't look down on good children, because I don't have a circle, I'm alone, I don't even have the right to look down on anyone who doesn't look up to, so when I see your favorite TV series, there are those who regard loneliness as It's disgusting to pretend to be cruel to the mistress and force the hero. People are social animals. They are born with fear of loneliness. They say that they are not afraid of loneliness and like it. They are either mentally ill or mentally ill. In my opinion, only people with extreme inferiority can disguise themselves with coldness. Why? Isn't it just to attract other people's attention, so he is still afraid of loneliness, fear, and dare not admit it. Do you think he is inferior to hopeless? This kind of wretch can ignore first and then bubble to the heroine, whether it's his luck or the heroine's brain damage. Is that too bullshit? I dare say that because I have been lonely, scared and self abased, so even if the bad children use the great compassion of compassion and almsgiving to absorb me as a poor creature, and let me play a clown character se who runs errands and does chores and laughs, I'm willing to... Do you think I'm stupid? I'm stupid, because I can't even make a real friend, so I feel inferior and hate my own low eq... at home, my stepmother is not a mother, and my fate is not a sister. How can I play the role of my son and brother, so that they won't hate me? You often say that I'm a bad person and always like to think for others, regardless of my own position. That's because I only learned to look at other people's faces, force myself to adapt to other people's circles, and force myself to meet other people's expectations. Otherwise, I can only be an orphan, have no friends, and be hated by my stepmother and fate. Now, I can really weigh myself There are still few people who are friends. Fate has never taken me as a brother, which proves how failed I am. I think that thinking from the standpoint of others can make what I do more pleasant and intimate, and make it easier for others to accept me. But the result is that what others think, but it's all my own ideas. What others really think, I don't think at all I know, in the end, I'm a moron with low EQ who likes to be smart... "

winter night sighs softly:" you are a moron who doesn't know what others are thinking... "

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