Chapter 1154

"You are really a fool who doesn't know what other people are thinking..."

now I am like a sunflower with a broken stem that has been drained of water, with a withered head drooping down. The whole person is left with a hard and almost senseless body, which is empty. On a winter night, I listen to it in my left ear and my right ear. I don't think about it at all. I just continue to monologue on my own It seems that love is different from friendship and family. As long as you are honest and cherish your friends, you will not hurt anyone. As long as you are tolerant and tolerant to your family, you will get along well. But what about the woman you like? Honest and cherish, tolerance and forbearance, will not hurt her? The reason why the feelings of Mo and Zheng Xuedong are tragic is that they are not honest enough, but why don't they be honest? It's because of tolerance. Do you think they don't cherish each other? If they don't cherish it, they won't tolerate each other... Before you said that Mo also abandoned Zheng Xuedong in the same year, which is not supposed to be hateful. But just back home, you said to me, honesty is more terrible than lies. Then I asked you, when Mo broke up with Zheng Xuedong, was he honest with Zheng Xuedong or lied? "

Winter night falters, it seems that Yu's words stop again, I don't know how to answer.

"In fact, I don't know whether your words are right or not. Maybe it's right to put them on you and me today, but it's just the opposite when we put them on ink and Zheng Xuedong. Is it contradictory? It's a contradiction, but it doesn't seem to be our reason. It can only be that love itself is too contradictory. "I shook my head and smiled:" love is a very deep knowledge, but there is neither a teacher nor a textbook. It's only a professional class for everyone. If you can't learn the love of others, your love can't be copied by others, so it's happiness and happiness. Or It's sad to be frustrated. It's like living with each other, growing up together, or just like Zheng Xuedong and Mo. they forget about the Jianghu. They all depend on their own talent and understanding. Unfortunately, I don't have talent or understanding... "

" I grew up with Xiao Zi. From a very young age, I thought it was a natural thing for us to get married when we grow up, so I protected her and let her take care of her, which was also a matter of course. But when she was 18 years old and went to America, I didn't know the feeling of "taking it for granted", that is to say, fate said that my time was like a living dead man who lost his soul. It's no exaggeration, but it's not only angry that she tore the letter of little purple, but also angry with myself. I haven't told her that I like her for such a long time, Otherwise, she may not leave. In a word, she almost became a wound of our whole life. But this is the sentence. After four or five years, I still haven't learned it. In these four or five years, I'm afraid that only the word "like glue like paint" can describe my good relationship with the fringe. Besides my saying that she is my brother or my brother, who doesn't say that she is like my daughter-in-law? Don't I want her to be my daughter-in-law? Do I really want to be a lifelong brother with her? Unless what I like is not a woman, but a man... But I can't admit it. I'm afraid that once I've confessed, even my brother has no choice. If the risk of pursuing love is that I may lose the happiness that I can be together every day like now, then I'd rather not pursue her, so I'd rather cheat myself and only treat her as a brother... Ha ha, I'm stupid, tassel is as stupid as me, if it's not me I think we will continue to deceive ourselves when we fall in love with Murphy at first sight... "

after a while, we asked softly," what do you want to say? "

"I want to say that my fate is the same. I want to say that I am the same to you," I said, raising my heavy head with all my strength and looking at the winter night. "I'm a person who is very insensitive to feelings. Sometimes I just like it. I can't realize it. Even if I do, I don't know how much I am Do you like it? Instead, you always know what you really feel when you are about to lose it or after you have lost it... "

the face of winter night is tight, and you cut in and asked," what's your real feeling now, like me, don't like me? "

Of course, I like her, so I think she's joking and satirizing me. She just smiles and doesn't answer her words. She continues: "I confess to you that I don't want to hold you back, nor do I think it doesn't matter if I lose you. Believe it or not, my fate is just a matter, not a secret, for me from the very beginning I didn't want to lie to cover it up, just like you and me and the purple garden, I just don't know how to say it, so I've been waiting, waiting for the right opportunity to appear... "

" you and I plan to... We are both small... Cough, "Dong Xiaoye gave a dry cough, saying:" I mean, you and I, and the things of the purple garden, the same Is your fate a Xing thing? You and the tassel have not registered for marriage, do not regard things with me and the purple garden as secrets, in principle, it can also be said to make sense, but you and fate... You are brothers and sisters! You don't think it's a secret? Can I believe that? "

"I just want to be a secret, and only a few people can know it." I wryly said: "as a child, Ziyuan knew that the East knew it three years ago, but one year ago, even Shutong knew it earlier than me...""She?" Dongxiaoye doesn't want to see shudunzi, but when she hears her name, her face will sink.

I sighed: "before fate, she was writing a new novel? The true face of that novel is actually to integrate her feelings from childhood. The people and things described in it are true. Although she changed her name, her name is Murong yuan, and my name is Murong Nan. She just changed my parents' surname. The Oriental is called "Oriental pity", and your name is called "winter" in the middle At night, Murphy's name is Murphy, Xue Ziyuan's name is Xue Xiaozi, and Shu Tong's child is replaced by the pupil of the pupil. She simply has the same name as all the Dragon Cape se, and has not changed her name at all. She is also called Cheng Liusu... Except that Xiao Yi can be called "Xiao * *", which may cause people to be unable to respond for a while. Even Yang Wei's name of "Yang Buju" is not difficult to match ? So as long as she publishes it and is seen by people around us, they will know that the book is about her and my story at a glance. Do you think it's meaningful for me to treat it as a secret? Yuan Yuan didn't take it as a secret at all. Now she doesn't admit it. Because she is still young, she can't be taken seriously when she says it. She also laughs at her growing up, so she wrote a novel. She must be afraid that the manuscript will be found by you and me when she stays at home, so she will take it with her when she goes to school. She happened to be found by Shu Tong at school a while ago, and Shu Tong told me... "

Winter night digested for a long time, and then said: "what you said is too exaggerated. She is a 16-year-old girl. She has no money and no way to write. How could it be that easy? It doesn't have to be read on the Internet. "

"You look down on that girl too much..." sister tiger is always cheated by Chu Yuan's pure and angelic appearance. She doesn't know that there is a small devil in the girl's belly. "No way? You forget that my father, like your father, is a pencil eater. He teaches and writes. There have been several novels published. In other words, he likes to write since he was a child, or is he influenced by his influence? This is not a ready-made way? "

"Tiger elder sister surprised way:" this kind of thing she good intention tells your father

"She didn't write this novel if she was afraid that others would know it. If she wrote it, she was afraid that others wouldn't know..." I can't help thinking about the attitude of sister Yue towards this problem when her stepmother and sister Yue came home that day, as well as her stepmother's reaction at that time... With Chu Yuan's shy and shy Xing son, I'm afraid that the last thing she cared about was to tell her parents about it. First, her parents were her closest and most trusted Second, the old man and stepmother never seem to contradict our brothers and sisters when they fall in love. They often make jokes with hints or encouragement. This kind of teasing almost grew up with us. Chu Yuan thought that I was in love with her, and I regarded her as the standard of mate selection. I'm afraid that they can't get rid of it, Sometimes I even think that they are the 'culprit' of my brother-in-law and Chu Yuan ' Dare to give, she dare to accept, how much is not soft, but all her money, whether fifty cents or a dime, want to erase, there is no way, find it back and put it all in the piggy bank, put it together and send it to the bank, other girls go shopping, buy clothes, bags, cosmetics, spend money to want to collect, she can't live, go shopping, buy this, buy that, want to spend all If she doesn't go out, only the beggars on the street can make her pay willingly... Look back at the two tubes of toothpaste you bought in the cup on the washstand. How much did you use? How much did she use? Every time she brushed her teeth, she squeezed half less than you. In order to buy toothpaste, she lied about it and secretly saved the money she saved. She has been saving like this since she was a child. Is it shabby in the small vault? It's no exaggeration to say that she just doesn't find a way and can publish by herself. Of course, you can say that her idea of writing a book is naive, but you can say that her perseverance is naive? Can you say she's not serious at all? "

Dong Xiaoye was stupefied for a long time, and suddenly turned around. He really went in to check the toothpaste on the washing table. When he came out again, he was full of doubts. It seemed that what he saw just now was not toothpaste, but a corpse drowned in the bathroom or a ghost of Yin's soul. That expression was hard to describe concretely. "You mean she was so stingy from childhood? She's saving for the book one day? "