CH 47.2

Chapter 47 Part 2

The last exam of the two day exams was physics.

Due to an extra page of additional questions, the exam time was extended from two hours to three hours. Of course, students who did not complete the additional questions could hand in their exam earlier.

Zhang Man took a look through the questions and was surprised—it was really close to what Li Wei had sent her a few days ago.

She finished it easily and handed in her exam half an hour earlier. She briskly walked out of the classroom.

They did not have a scheduled lunch break or evening self-study during the two days of exams. After eating lunch on their own or after the exam finished in the afternoon, it became their personal free time. It looked like Li Wei went straight home after all the exams were done. He went straight to the exam room after the previous exam was finished, and never went back to the classroom.

Therefore, during the two days of exams, she hardly spent any time with Li Wei. Even though she went to his exam room to see him and say a few words to him before each exam, it was done in a hurry.

Zhang Man was thinking about this and sped up to the freshman building.

After the exams, it was winter vacation. Li Wei would have to go back to the classroom to pack up his things. She was planning on going over to his house to have dinner with him in the evening.

At this time, there were many students in the hallway. They were probably the students who did not do the extra questions and handed in their papers earlier.

Several boys walked past Zhang Man, hunched together as they discussed the exam they had just finished.

“This time the questions were from the form teacher of Class 1. Was it super hard for you? Then there were the additional questions. I only knew two of the major questions from the front. What about you?”

“Wasn’t it hard? Liu Zhijun’s face was completely frozen. No wonder it was so difficult… it’s over for me.”

“If you guys are unlucky, then what about me? I really had the worst luck today. Li Wei didn’t sit in front of me in the exam room. I heard that he got full marks in physics every time. I was thinking of sneaking a few glances, but he missed the physics exam.”

—”Classmate, did you just say that Li Wei missed the exam?”

As soon as the boy finished speaking, he heard an anxious voice coming from behind him. He looked back impatiently. At that moment, he saw that it was their school flower, and he immediately became nicer.

“Enl, he missed the exam.”

“How could that happen? I saw him sitting in the exam room before I took the physics exam.”

“Uh… I don’t know. He sat for a few minutes, and before the exam, he said something to the proctor and left. Oh, I think he gave the proctor an excuse note.”

An excuse note? He didn’t tell her.

She ran straight back to the classroom. She pulled out the cell phone in her school bag and turned it on. She called Li Wei at once.

“The number you have dialed is temporarily unavailable, please try again later.”

It was the same cold, mechanical female voice as last time.

Zhang Man suddenly felt a spreading panic. This feeling was even more serious than last time.

Her eyelid began to twitch wildly. The suspicion that she restrained inside of herself for the past two days erupted.

Where did he go?

At this moment, the cell phone sent out a notification with a “didi” sound.

It was the cell phone notification for a new email.

She opened her inbox and found an email without a title.

Zhang Man’s heart started beating faster when she saw the sender’s email address.

It was Li Wei.

Her hand shook as she opened the email.

This was the most she had seen him type since they had met. It was a full page long.

“Man Man, I have applied for a leave of absence from school and I am going to a city elsewhere for medical treatment. I might not come back. Let’s… break up.”

“If you want to refuse, then please listen to my three reasons first. First, I have been thinking for a long time during the past few days. Currently, the most important thing for me is to get treatment for my schizophrenia. I have no energy to take care of other things, including physics and you.”

“Second, Man Man… I know that you may not be able to accept what I’m saying to you now, but… do you remember the beach I took you to the day before yesterday? I used to go to that beach when I was alone. Truthfully, it is sometimes good to be alone. I can think calmly in my own world.”

“I have never really said this, but I admit that I loved you like crazy for a while. However, when you are there, it will more or less hinder my calmness. When a person is completely in love, it is easy to be blinded by it and deviate from his original path. I think I have done a lot of things I would not have done before, and these kinds of changes are not appropriate for me.”

“Forgive me, forgive me for wanting to go back to before we started.”

“Third, people like me are better off  living alone. Man Man, do you know what happened to my father? When I was still in the hospital, my father committed suicide at home… For him, he could not accept the harm he caused me because of his mental illness, so he chose to commit suicide. Man Man, I don’t want to repeat his path. In other words, I may not like you as much as I had imagined.”

“I don’t want to take such a big risk for you.”

“Man Man, you might think I’m very special in your heart, but I’m not. It’s because first love is very special for everyone. You’re still young and haven’t experienced that much of life. You don’t know if how much you currently like me is enough to stand by for the rest of our lives. In the future… You will meet someone who is a hundred times better than me.”

From the beginning to the end, he did not say anything about being afraid of dragging her down or hurting her. Every reason was pointed at himself. Everything was eerily polite. It was merciless, and methodically selfish. Any 16-year-old girl would feel so bad that she would not be able to eat and sleep. She thought her feelings had been betrayed, which she gradually forgot as she felt pain and anger.

—Just like in her previous life.

After reading this section, Zhang Man trembled. She was unable to restrain her suffering and panic.

Everything is total nonsense… What reason? *sigh* Each one doesn’t have any logic. Where is there a part that he could say out loud?

His tone seemed so calm, so reasonable, and appeared to have been carefully thought out. But some sentences were not very clear, and he even forgot to add punctuation marks that he normally followed.

—He was playing her like a 16-year-old boy.

No wonder—no wonder he suddenly took her to such an expensive restaurant yesterday, and also took her to the beach. It turned out that he was saying goodbye to her.

He had already made plans to leave her.

She knew him so well.

The calmer he was, the more distance he wanted to create when he drew the line with her for when his heart collapsed.

This youth, who had suffered a lot of hardships and misfortunes, did not want to impose any harm and despair on her. He even left—left her to