CH 49.1

The next afternoon was the last physics exam. 

Since it was a science class, most of the students chose to do the extra physics questions. Zhang Man, who handed in her paper half an hour earlier, was a part of the group who returned to the classroom earlier.

After her, one student after another handed in their papers and walked into the classroom.

Everyone’s face was filled with joy and excitement, and some students even openly tore up the exams they had just gotten from the exam room and threw them into the garbage can.

Everyone was talking about the upcoming winter vacation.

“Finally free! Winter vacation has started. It’s so great! I’ll go home and play Red Alert.”

“Do you want to go to KTV at night? I won’t go home until we sing past midnight today!”

“Midnight? Liu Chang, aren’t you afraid your father will beat you?”

“How can he? Laozi is on vacation. What can he do about me?”

These high school students had been constrained for far too long. For them, going on vacation was something worth celebrating.

All the students everywhere were cheering, but for Zhang Man, she was completely panicked and at a loss.

She read the entire email very carefully. Suddenly, she had a feeling that this time, she might really lose him, just like in her previous life.

The veins on her temples began to really throb. Zhang Man was laying down on her desk, and couldn’t control her shaking.

Her thoughts were in chaos.

In a dim playground, he once asked her if she could like him.

But now, he said calmly in the email, Man Man, let’s break up.

He said he was going to another city alone, and he didn’t know when he would come back.

That’s what he said. He said he was leaving her.

Could she still find him?

She suddenly remembered how he disappeared for a whole semester after his depression exacerbated in their previous life.

It was the same as before, he disappeared again after learning of his mental illness.

He disguised himself perfectly and pretended to overcome the shock.

He deceived not only her but also the doctor.

Zhang Man held her cell phone tightly. Her heart seemed to be missing a beat at certain points. Her irregular heartbeats made her almost out of breath.

She suddenly remembered many details. That day, when he looked at the sea, his eyes were momentarily confused and empty. Then, he was in the hospital and deliberately pretending to be calm and natural. There was also when he took her back. They were downstairs and he reluctantly said her name.

By now, she is almost certain that Li Wei’s depression had been completely triggered, just like in his previous life. ꜱᴜᴘᴘᴏʀᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴛʀᴀɴꜱʟᴀᴛᴏʀ ᴀɴᴅ ʀᴇᴀᴅ ᴏɴ ꜰᴏxᴀʜᴏʟɪᴄ.ᴄᴏᴍ

And it didn’t matter if he didn’t think the world was phony like in his previous life. Everything was blowing up on him too much.

He began not to understand the meaning of his life, and he began to be paranoid and believe that as long as he was around her, he would hurt her.

That’s why the youth chose to leave her.

But it’s not like that, the doctor had said. He did not have any cognitive changes at all. Besides, even though his delusions were serious, there were no signs that he would hurt someone.

He’s just in extreme denial after the breakdown.

Although he disappeared for a semester in his previous life, he eventually controlled his severe depression and returned to continue his studies. Many things had changed in this life, and his trigger came earlier. Who knew if the outcome would change.

It’s too dangerous to leave him alone.

Zhang Man’s heart was aching terribly.

Her mind suddenly flashed to the picture on Weibo taken by reporters after his suicide .

There was so much blood. That harsh red color dyed the whole bathtub.

He was lying in the blood and had become a cold corpse.

This picture had been a nightmare that tormented her every night for a long time. She thought that in this life, she would be with him. He had his worries, but it was definitely impossible for him to kill himself.

But she was suddenly not sure.

If… If I lose him again…

Anxiety and despair spread in her heart. Zhang Man got up from her seat and quickly packed up her things. After that, she ran out of the classroom.

The physics test started at two o’clock. It was now four forty-five. It had only been more than two hours since he left school. She handed in her exam half an hour earlier so could he still be packing up at home before he left?

Zhang Man ran to the school gate. She stopped at the intersection and held her hand up for a taxi.

It was rush hour. At the intersection’s green light, the cars sped by, including a lot of free taxis. They ignored her signal.

There were no free taxis in N City at this time.

As time went by, Zhang Man looked at the clock anxiously. It’s five…

It’s five oh five.

Sometimes, a breakdown only needs a fuse.

Zhang Man squatted down and cried uncontrollably. The confusion and heartache that were about to suffocate her reached the peak at this moment.

It was obvious that everything was good and developing in a good direction; and it was obvious she thought that as long as she was beside him, she could accompany him through any difficulties.

Where would he go alone? He had lost everything. He lost all the people he loved.

What could he do without her?

Would she never find him just because of a few minutes…