Volume 4, 100 [Memories Buried In Dust]

Volume 4, Chapter 100 [Memories Buried In Dust]

――Blindly searching like this wasn’t going to get them anywhere.

That was the conclusion Subaru came to after looking for Lewes all over the village and straining his cardio and respiratory functions to the point that his lungs were aching.

[Subaru: ――Hha, ha, haa]

Holding his knees, he heaved his shoulders up and down to pump oxygen into his lungs.

The mental fatigue that had accumulated over the past few days flooded back all at once, and his limbs felt heavy as if they’d been injected with lead. Even breathing was difficult.

[Otto: Natsuki-san, you alright? But seriously, you ran out of steam way too quickly, you know]

[Subaru: Sh-shut up...... I, just suddenly remembered...... I was still undergoing medical treatment when all these things came up, and my exhaustion’s just about reaching its peak......]

[Otto: Okay okay, I get that you’re a sore loser, you just sit here and rest a while. Give your body a break and take some time to think. I’ll go fetch some water]

Seeing the exhausted Subaru, Otto spilled a small sigh, pointed to the shade of a tree, and left him there.

Watching Otto leave while scowling at his own patheticness, Subaru sat down under the tree and focused on restoring his breathing.

[Subaru: ――――]

Almost an hour had passed since he parted with Garfiel and started searching for Lewes Theta.

He and Otto’s two-man human-wave tactic hadn’t yielded any results so far. Yet, just like with Emilia, they couldn’t exactly go around recruiting helpers.

As the representative of the Sanctuary, Lewes abandoning her duties and going AWOL wasn’t something the Sanctuary’s residents and refugees should be allowed to hear. Garfiel must’ve had the same considerations when he went on to search for her alone.

[Subaru: Emilia......]

If Subaru was honest about his feelings, he was more worried about Emilia’s safety than Lewes’.

He doubted she would do anything rash, but knowing how lost and lonely she must be feeling, he couldn’t help but want to rush to her side and console her.

But the cruel reality was just as he told Otto: finding Lewes was more urgent. There was no room to be sentimental about this.

Still, Subaru hoped that Ram’s separate efforts could manage to find Emilia.

[Subaru: Kinda feels like I’m conceding something to Roswaal, though]

Ram clearly belonged to Roswaal’s faction. She was only searching for Emilia out of concern for Roswaal’s reputation, not to help Subaru or Otto. It was just that her present efforts to serve Roswaal happened to be aligned with Subaru’s.

The optimal flow would be for Subaru and Otto to find Lewes then go on to find Emilia. If Subaru could nail both of those conversations back to back, that would be best.

But ideals were ideals. Only empty rhetoric. Counting chickens before they’ve hatched, etc.

[Subaru: At this rate, we’ll run out of time before we find either of them. That’s the worst case and absolutely cannot be allowed to happen. ......But, we have to do something......]

Panicking wasn’t going to help.

Instead of standing still, thinking, wouldn’t it be more reliable to just comb through every corner of the Sanctuary?

But then,

[Subaru: If doing that would find them then Garfiel would’ve gotten to them first. It’s been an hour already. That guy can move twice as fast as me and Otto, so if he hasn’t found her yet, that means......]

――Lewes was trying to elude them so that even Garfiel couldn’t find her.

[Subaru: ――――]

At this thought, Subaru felt a tug in his mind as he held his breath.

Something was off. Lewes was trying to elude Garfiel. That much was right. But, that’s not right at all. Why would Lewes want to run from Garfiel?

Wasn’t Lewes Theta running because she wanted to avoid confronting Subaru? Subaru figured she didn’t want to answer his questions about the Trial and decided to go into hiding until her rotation ended.

But that wouldn’t make any sense.

If Theta really just wanted to avoid talking to Subaru, all she had to do was communicate her desire to Garfiel.

Garfiel wouldn’t hesitate to eliminate Subaru if given a clear reason to. And if Garfiel decided to attack him, Subaru would have no means of fighting back.

If Theta truly wanted to keep her past hidden, she could have incited Garfiel to do this.

So why hadn’t she done this, and why wouldn’t she do this――?

[Subaru: She’s running... because she wants to be chased......?]

[???: Well surely the whole point of running is to not get caught. So what’re you talking about?]

Subaru was holding his chin, muttering, when someone else butted in. Looking up, it was a perplexed Otto handing him a pitcher full of water,

[Otto: I can understand getting a little overwhelmed with all the things to think about. The time I had to stay awake for four days straight going around doing business negotiations, I felt pretty unhinged by the last day too]

[Subaru: Setting aside that story of your past hardships for another time, it’s not like I’m going crazy. ......I’m not... I don’t think]

[Otto: You’re sounding less and less confident about that]

Accepting the pitcher, Subaru held the spout to his mouth and poured. Relishing the cool sensation sliding down his throat, he organized his tangled words,

[Subaru: What’s your take on why Lewes-san disappeared?]

[Otto: ......Well, she probably wants to avoid an inconvenient conversation, I’m guessing? If she runs into you today, she’ll have to talk whether she wants to or not...... but, considering how she can’t leave this place, I can’t deny that it feels like a stopgap measure]

[Subaru: Exactly, it’s a stopgap. But if she really wanted to solve the fundamental problem, you know how she could easily do it?]

[Otto: ――You mean Garfiel?]

Otto effortlessly deduced the conclusion Subaru had come to from the few hints given. Furrowing his brows, he crossed his arms as if in thought,

[Otto: Right, by that line of reasoning...... then maybe Lewes-san doesn’t want Garfiel to know about her disagreements with you?]

[Subaru: Still, Garfiel is already suspecting that we have something to do with it. When he said that nothing ever went wrong in the Sanctuary until we came along and set it off, I didn’t know what to say]

Garfiel had hit it right on the mark.

Either way, Garfiel had found the indirect cause of Lewes disappearance. And there was no way Lewes could have failed to consider how Garfiel would react to her disappearance.

[Subaru: Which means, there are only two conceivable possibilities]

[Otto: Either she wants to avoid both Natsuki-san and Garfiel and decided to go into hiding, or...]

[Subaru: Knowing that we’ll be looking for her, she’s waiting to be found......?]

If it was the former, then Subaru and Otto might as well give up here. If petite Lewes really wanted to hide, she could easily hold out for half a day. The only one who’d have a chance of finding her would be the sharp-nosed and agile Garfiel.

But, if it was the latter, then Subaru and Otto’s chances against Garfiel were fifty-fifty.

In that case, Lewes must certainly have made her arrangements accordingly.

――There must be another way to find her besides blindly searching.

[Subaru: We should search somewhere related to Lewes-san]

[Otto: But we’ve already searched her home...... and her actual home was where Emilia-sama went missing, so that doesn’t......]

[Subaru: Yes, right. I doubt she would’ve went to Roswaal, and the Experimental Grounds...... was probably the first place Garfiel looked. Which means......]

If Theta had to choose a place that Subaru and Garfiel would have an equal chance of finding, one which Garfiel wouldn’t immediately investigate――

――If such a place existed, it would be,

[Subaru: ......Otto, I think I got it]

[Otto: R-really? You got it from our little exchange just now? You sure you aren’t jumping the gun here?]

[Subaru: Don’t know why you’re being so negative on me, the likelihood is pretty high. In fact, if this isn’t it, then it’ll be time to throw in the towel]

Nodding to the stumped-looking Otto, Subaru drank down the remaining water in a single gulp. He wiped off his lips, stood up from the ground, and gazed in the direction of the place he had in mind.

If Theta was there, then she wasn’t running away. She was simply waiting in the spot most appropriate for this conversation.

Waiting for Subaru, or perhaps waiting for Garfiel.

[Subaru: Don’t realize it just yet, Garfiel. ――Let me wrap up this interview with your guardian first]

[Fortuna: We’re about to have an important talk, so just wait here for a bit, okay?]

[Emilia: Yes, mommy Fortuna]

Emilia obediently replied to Fortuna, who had brought her to the Princess Room and told her to wait there.

Seeing the smile on Emilia’s face as she saw her off, Fortuna couldn’t help but slightly widen her eyes. She patted Emilia’s long silver hair and relinquished a worried sigh.

Before, Emilia would always look a little upset about being left behind in the Princess Room. As much as she tried to hide it, the way she puffed up her blushing cheeks and turned her face away left no doubt that she was pouting.

Before she knew it, all her pent-up dissatisfaction was about to boil over.

As usual, she didn’t learn anything useful about her parents, and her exciting grand adventures outside the Princess Room were becoming routine and stale. Worse, the same adults who talked their tongues off about the things Emilia mustn’t do were lying and keeping secrets behind her back. So many examples of this had surfaced in so short a time.

――Maybe it’s time she got back at them a little.

Who could blame Emilia for thinking this?

Back then, no one ever chastised Emilia’s budding mischievous spirit and only allowed it to swell and grow, which only hastened the coming of “That time”.

And that was why, so many years later, the only person left to blame Emilia was Emilia herself. She would endlessly fault herself for her own stupidity back then, though it would not be enough to lighten the weight of her sin.

――But that belated regret did not reach the young Emilia.

While Emilia was rolling up her sleeves in her misdirected gusto, Geuse and Fortuna’s conversation had come to an end. After unloading all the goods without a hitch, Geuse’s group bowed farewell as the adults saluted their departure.

Seeing this, Emilia swiftly flew down from the tree branch and rushed back to the Princess Room. Quickly squeezing through the gap in the roots and into the hollow, Emilia hurriedly set about composing her alibi.

She made some quick drawings, changed her dolls’ clothes, and gobbled up her sweets.

Once all that was done, she swiped off the sweat on her forehead and heard Fortuna’s voice outside the door.

[Fortuna: Emilia, sorry you had to wait. Have you been a good girl today?]

[Emilia: H...... h-have I been a good girl? I have. Mhm, yep, I have]

[Fortuna: ――――]

Convinced that she was fooling Fortuna with her expert performance, a satisfied expression rose on Emilia’s face. But, seeing Emilia like this, Fortuna quietly squinted her eyes, giving her a look.

Getting a bad feeling about that sharp gaze locking onto her, Emilia figured any misstep here would only deepen her suspicion,

[Emilia: Wh-what is it, mommy Fortuna? Even if you stare at me like that, I didn’t do anything? I just ate some sweets, drew some pictures, and played with my doll a little. I didn’t go outside at all. Really]

[Fortuna: ――Is that so... well alright]

It seems Fortuna was completely deceived by Emilia’s acting. Although she felt guilty about lying to her mother, Emilia reminded herself not to be bothered by it too much and focus on plotting her ruthless revenge instead.

Fortuna and Geuse were talking about a “Seal” deep in the forest. As far as Emilia could remember, a “Seal” should be a place used for hiding something.

That is, for hiding something that’ll be trouble if it got out.

――And so, the manner of Emilia’s revenge on Fortuna and the adults was decided.

She will find the location of this “Seal” deep in the forest, and whenever Fortuna or anyone else wants to scold her, she could use it in her rebuttal as her bargaining chip.

If they ever catch her slipping out of the Princess Room, the location of the Seal would be her trump card.

Emilia was so excited about her ingenious plan that she completely failed to notice the irony of trying to escape the guilt of leaving her room by sullying her hands with something even worse.

Holding her mother’s hand, they left the Princess Room. Once she had brought Emilia home, Fortuna said she had some things to do. Going by her conversation with Geuse, Fortuna must be going to check the “Seal”.

And so,

[Emilia: ――I’m counting on you guys]

Emilia winked to the pale-blue lights, bidding them to follow her mother.

A glimpse of Emilia’s later beauty that could enchant a person with a smile alone had already begun to bud on the little girl’s cheeks.

※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※

This was the second time Subaru visited this place, but the first in this loop.

The lonely building stood atop a small hill. It wasn’t especially run-down, but was more like an average home with no notable characteristics.

Comprised of a bedroom and a living room, there was a basic kitchen in the lounge area, much like a small apartment unit in Subaru’s original world. It was enough for a single person to comfortably live in, but it must’ve been cramped for an adult and two kids.

That was the sentiment Subaru held as he ruminated on the significance of this building.

Standing outside the door, he gave it a few knocks. Then, after a brief silence, he heard [Come in] from inside and was relieved to know that he was right.

But he immediately put away that sense of relief as he placed his hand on the knob and opened the door.

The faint fragrance of old wood grazed his nostrils. And, feeling the lukewarm air meeting his skin, Subaru stepped inside,

[???: It took you longer than I thought]

In the back of the room, there sat a figure on the austere bed. Apparently, they were just getting a refill of tea, pouring boiling water into their cup.

That was probably the reason behind the dampness pervading the room. Subaru confirmed that there were three cups on the table―― but only one was filled,

[Subaru: So I’m the first guest to arrive?]

[Lewes: That’s right. You’re the first, Su-bo. Hope you like your tea a bit strong]

[Subaru: Doesn’t really matter. Weak or strong, leaves just taste like leaves]

[Lewes: A comment like that makes me wonder why I even bother brewing for you. Now I understand what Ram’s always grumbling about]

Wryly smiling at Subaru, Lewes―― Theta took an empty cup and proceeded to fill it with boiling water. After throwing in some tea leaves to soak, she pushed it over to Subaru,

[Theta: Here, you must be thirsty. Go on, drink up]

[Subaru: I think if I down the whole cup like this, my remaining HP is gonna drop straight to zero. But... thanks]

Theta furrowed her brows, a bit confused by his joke, while Subaru blew on his tea to cool it before bringing it to his lips for a sip. The thick flavor of grass passed over his tongue and down his throat.

No matter what they’re called or who brewed them, leaves are still just leaves.

[Subaru: I couldn’t even get used to Rem’s tea...... my body really doesn’t take well to this stuff, seriously]

[Theta: I should’ve guessed... well that settles it. I’m never gonna brew tea for you again]

Watching Subaru scrunch up his face and stick out his tongue, Theta gulped down her cup of tea in a single breath. Then, giving her own hair a few pats through her dangling sleeves, she plonked herself back on the bed and faced Subaru once again,

[Theta: I was hoping to lighten the mood a bit before our talk, but didn’t think we’d end up with more disagreements]

[Subaru: When you put stuff from the side stories into the main text, readers who happened to skip them will get confused so let’s have no more of that. Switch gears switch gears, let’s just get to our conversation]

[Theta: You say these things like it’s no effort at all......]

Giving an astounded sigh, Theta held her little palms to her forehead. Then, her gaze passed through Subaru, as if to stare beyond the door,

[Theta: Setting that aside...... so it was you, Su-bo. I thought as much. Rather than Gar-bo, chances were, either you’d come here alone, or neither of you would think of this place before my rotation ended]

[Subaru: ......The odds were pretty stacked against Garfiel, huh. If that guy hears what you just said, he’ll probably be wailing]

[Theta: Wailing, bawling, is that all it’ll be? ......I was imagining a more serious reaction. If Garfiel finds me here, that is. But I’m not too worried about that]

With a lonely smile on her face, Theta looked towards the living room wall.

Subaru followed her gaze and saw the metal shields hanging there, gleaming with their silvery sheen―― the two shields crossed over each other, adorning the wall just as he had seen them last time.

When they were little, the siblings Garfiel and Frederica would play ramming at each other with those shields, filling each dent and crevice with memories―― simply put, this was Garfiel and Frederica’s childhood home.

Subaru couldn’t quite understand why Theta chose this place for their final conversation.

But he did remember from a previous loop that this place held a special significance for both Lewes and Garfiel.

Banking on that memory, Subaru came here and found Theta waiting for him, just as he thought.

[Theta: It’s good you came alone, Su-bo. After all, this isn’t something I’d want people to hear]

[Subaru: Yeah, I left Otto behind. Didn’t think I should bring him along for what we’re about to discuss here]

While the statement sounded like he was leaving a warrior behind for a fight that was out of his league, that wasn’t Subaru’s intention at all. It was just that Lewes’ past was a subject that would necessarily involve the Witch. It was enough for Subaru to have to bear this alone.

And so, he had tasked Otto with another role.

[Subaru: Theta-san, is it safe to say that you’re the only Lewes-san who’s been inside the Tomb?]

[Theta: They...ta?]

[Subaru: Ah, my bad. I’ve been calling you that for convenience’s sake. Yesterday was Sigma-san, and the other two are Alpha and Beta. If you don’t like it, I’ll stop......]

[Theta: ......No, it’s fine. I see, so that’s what it meant. Aah, I see, I see...... surprisingly, I don’t dislike it]

Muttering [They-ta, they-ta] over and over under her breath, Theta’s face softened as if embarrassed. She closed her eyes, and, after several seconds of silence, opened them again,

[Theta: What I’m about to tell you is everything I have seen of the Sanctuary’s creation...... and a part of the events leading up to Lewes Meyer being sealed inside the crystal]

[Subaru: ――Right]

[Theta: As for what you’ll think once you’ve heard it, and what you’ll want to ask me...... as one of the four representative Leweses of the Sanctuary, I will leave that up to fate]

Declaring this grave responsibility, Theta smiled as Subaru held his breath,

[Theta: Is your heart up to the challenge?]

-=Chapter 100 End=-