Arc 6 – 53, '—A Voice, Chimed”

Arc 6 – Chapter 53, “—A Voice, Chimed”

The volitant tail stinger which came flying towards them shattered the stone aisle, causing an eruption of smoke as the destruction spread rampantly.

Feeling the spectacle seemingly in slow motion, Subaru witnessed a petite young girl in a dress jump into the core of the vortex of the terrible destruction unfolding before his eyes.

With her vertically rolled hair fluttering, jumping into the destruction head on had been Beatrice.

Courageーー no, foolhardiness. Though a matter of course, the petite young girl’s build was fragile, it had much less capacity to withstand the tail stinger’s blow than the stone monument. Should she even try to act as a shield, the young girl, with her stature, would not be able to obstruct any strike above Subaru’s chest.

In other words, it was naught but an impulsive action, naught but a death futile.

Just as how the sobbing Subaru, with his face stained with nasal mucus, had grasped Echidna’s sleeve.

Just as how he had ultimately called out Julius’ name, who had been scorched in the flames of deeds.

Just as how he had tried to slam Ram’s head into the wall, and had not abided by the illusionary young girl’s advice.

Beatrice too, had overlooked the『Impossible』, and tried to receive and halt the tail stingerーー,

Subaru: “Woah!?”

Beatrice: “ーー『Incomplete EMT』in fact!”

At that instant, Beatrice, who had appeared forth, grasped Subaru’s hand and held her empty hand aloft ahead.

At the same pace with the young girl’s shout, something invisible to the eyes similar to energy flowed out of Subaru’s body. Before Subaru, whose head was tottering, the tail stinger’s blow was blocked by a seeming light screen which had been activated in front of Beatrice’s pointing palm.

“ーーーー”

The shockwave, which gave one the impression of this being the last thing one gets to see was blocked by the defensive wall which had Beatrice’s palm as its centre and it unrolled the damage onto the environs, seemingly avoiding Subaru and the others.

The launched tail stinger did not end with a single blow, and rained upon them continuously. However, all of it was blocked by the shield which had taken the form of the young girl named Beatrice, and led the damage onto their rear.

The terrible shock wave blew violently, one of the scattered fragments of the aisle grazed Subaru’s cheek.

The noise became further distant, in the situation where his field of vision became white and as he squinted his eyes due to the pain of his cheek, Subaru had his glance robbed by Beatrice’s back.

The titanic scorpion which had been visible for a single instant, if this was indeed that scorpion’s tail stinger which had rained incessantly upon them then it was a matter of course that it was a mortar which could effortlessly turn a human body to dust.

Having that be shielded by a young girl with such a small build, gave Subaru the chance to pick up his life.

An instant before, he had been thinking of what unimaginable hell must he endure, having continued to wish for salvation from god.

Subaru had no room to be cursing his own misfortune, and close to his awareness, an existence separate from Beatrice or the scorpion had been present in the corner of his field of vision.

That was Echidna, who had been dragged into this attack and exposed to the same damage.

She had once declared acting separately and tried to part ways with Subaru and Beatrice, but immediately preceding the commencement of the attack she had been restrained by Subaru, and thus dragged into this situation.

Fortunately, she had also been in the location which Beatrice was protecting so the tail stinger’s damage had been obstructed by the light screen and did not reach through. However, that was all.

What Beatrice had blocked was merely the direct damage that had been rained upon them by the tail stinger.

She had not been able to defend against the secondary damage that the tail stinger brought with itself.

In other wordsーー,

Echidna: “ーーWo, ah!”

Raising her voice faintly, Echidna lost her balance and collapsed backwards. Though she stepped back in order to support her body, there was no floor to support her legs.

Shattered by the tail stinger’s attack, the aisle crumbled halfway. As a result, the structure of the tower’s aisle was damaged and due to the collapse of the? floor, ceiling and walls, Echidna lost space to step on. Upon being abandoned into an unknown space, death due to falling would be inescapable.

Instinctively comprehending that fear, a sense of impending crisis levitated in Echidna’s eyes.

Subaru: “ーー~hk!”

Subaru instantaneously stepped ahead and grasped Echidna’s hand, preventing her from falling to death.

Echidna: “Natsuki-kun......!?”

Beatrice had grasped his right hand, while he grasped Echidna’s? with his left hand.

Thanks to Reid’s coercive surgery his shoulder was still in, the pain was deep-rooted, his shoulder may get dislocated if overused. Without handing the responsibility over to Beatrice, who was busy desperately catching the tail stinger, Subaru braced his legs as he gnashed his molars and had no choice but to muster the entirety of his strength in order to restrain Echidna’s body weight.

Subaru: “Gh, ya~a~a~a~......!”

Regardless of her small stature, Echidna possessed the weight of a human. Lifting up a human is not an easy task to begin with. Much less with a single hand, much less by a wounded person, much less with the other person being uncooperative due to this crisisーー even upon being pulled, the danger of falling had not been reduced.

Though that was something which was well understood even if not given any thought. Why, he braved this risk.

Echidna: “......Don’t do something which, will make me surmise something about you.”

Subaru: “Like, I care......! It was just instantaneous......!”

Echidna: “That response...... does seem fitting of Natsuki-kun, as well!”

Overlapping the exhausted soliloquy, he refuted Echidna’s remarks, whom he had saved reflexively. Though unshapely she turned her body around and with the support of Subaru’s arm, somehow laid foot upon the crumbled floor.

Somehow supporting her actions until the very end, Subaru looked down onto his arm.

ーーLetters engraved as wounds, patterns of black speckles covering it which he did know happened when, painful and fierce white scars all over his body remained which had been carved by his own volition.

Subaru: “It, moves better than, what’s in the limits...... of my memories?”

His arm’s functioning being better than what he remembered, or the countless scratches on them. His physique, which had become slightly stronger, narrowly managed to save Echidna from falling to death.

Though his body was too defective and limited for the execution of the『Book of the Dead』plan.

Echidna: “Somehow I managed, to get back up......! Beatrice! How’re things on your end!?”

Beatrice: “About to, hit the limit, I suppose! About time......”

Putting her unfitting emotions somewhere else, Echidna, having climbed up, called out to Beatrice with a grim expression. At her call, Beatrice stiffened her lovely cheeks and responded and at the very next instantーー,

“ーー~Bishaaan!!”

The scorpion, which must have unleashed a rapid-fire of the tail stinger, clung to the ceiling and pointed its enormous pincers towards them while letting out a cry.

Subaru: “ーー~hk.”

With the seemingly scything down pincers closing in, Subaru had his thoughts slowly washed away.

According to his ordinary knowledge, when speaking of a scorpion rises a strong image of a venomous? stinger but the truth is, over the thousands of species of scorpions venomous species were only a few dozen in number. In that case, what would be the weapon of a scorpion which hunts without venom. ーーOf course, those pincers would be its weapon.

Sharpness, or perhaps it should be called cutting strength instead. It may seem less hazardous when compared to a venomous stinger, but should the scorpion be this large its killing ability anyhow cannot be made light of.

That was also made clear through the spectacle of the walls or floor of the tower, which had managed to barely hold their structure, being minced like tofu being cut with a knife.

Beatrice: “ーーMurak.”

Beatrice evaded the spectacle, seemingly a symbol of destruction and massacre, by jumping and rebounding with an unbelievable leapーー no, by flying unnaturally, as if abusing the laws of inertia.

It was a queer sensation, of seemingly escaping the effect of gravity with Beatrice at the centre. Beatrice grabbed the lower back of Subaru and Echidna’s clothes, taking a large distance away from the scorpion’s attack.

And with the new distance in between, Echidna prepared the fingers of her right hand in the direction of the scorpion’s face.

Echidna: “El Jiwaldーー!”

White lines of heat were fired from each of her five fingers respectively, the five beams mowed down the aisle like the claws of a giant and scorched the face, right pincer and shell of the scorpion clinging to the ceiling.

Perhaps due to being unable to endure that strength and damage, the scorpion vehemently waved about its tail stinger and right pincer, and whilst slipping into the dust which erupted due to the aisle’s destruction, retreated to the rear.

Echidna: “Jiwald! Jiwald! Jiwa~ld!”

Subaru: “Wait! Calm down, Echidna! It ran away! That thing ran away! It ran away!”

While the scorpion drew back into the plume of smoke, Subaru bound Echidna’s arms back, who all the more refused to halt her attack.

Even after that Echidna continued struggling for some time, desperately glaring towards the other side of the plume of smoke, finally relaxing her body and entrusted her body weight onto Subaru.

Echidna: “Hah, hah, hah...... d-did it, do it?”

Subaru: “......Not, totally. It probably ran away.”

Subaru shook his head horizontally before Echidna, who was short of breath and in an unbelievable condition. The plume of smoke was yet to clear away, but it gave the impression that the scorpion’s corpse was not present there.

In fact, even right now he was trembling with the fear of the tail stinger’s counterattack from the other side of the plume.

Subaru: “But, isn’t that...... eh? That one just now was......”

Beatrice: “A Witch Beast, in fact. A boorish fellow, which suddenly appeared onto this fourth layer. The tremors in the lower floors, and the Witch Beast of the fourth layer. On top of that, the abnormalities in the upper layers.”

Subaru: “Up, down, inside...... are there problems happening everywhere?”

Subaru changed his expression and turned around upon Beatrice’s report, as she made a serious face.

Certainly, Julius was continuing the battle in the lower floors, and the existence of that scorpionーー that Witch Beast had become clear. It was also convincing to believe that the abnormalities in the upper floors were happening due to Reid’s descent.

Echidna: “......Though it seems you do not realise, that one of those problems is you.”

“ーーーー”

As if trying the very basis of Subaru’s thoughts, Echidna stood alone, having distanced herself from Subaru’s chest. She wiped the sweat off her forehead, gazing at Subaru with vigilance she found impossible to eliminate.

In her pale cerulean eyes was vigilance, suspicion, along with anxiety, perplexity.

Echidna: “Just what...... what, are you? Where do you stand, what do you want?”

Subaru: “I, don’t know the details. I said, didn’t I. I don’t know what occurred, and what’s happening either, the same as you. After all, I......”

Beatrice: “ーーーーAmnesia.”

Subaru’s muttered weakly in response to Echidna’s question, unable to respond with nothing but the same former perplexity. The one to claim the last one was Beatrice, who had been lost in thoughts with a serious expression.

ーーAmnesia, Subaru had opened his heart to subjects regarding that only before the two of Emilia and Ram. In other words, Beatrice and the others are aware of the cage as well as Subaru’s excuses.

And despite knowing, this was the attitude Beatrice possessed.

Echidna too, thought as she nearly ran out of words.

Echidna: “How did you, escape from the cage?”

Subaru: “......When I took notice, I was lying outside with a broken shoulder.”

Though he answered straightforwardly and honestly, he did not expect to be believed. However, overlapping lies with lies leading to gradual deterioration is what the current situation was.

Though his self had even prayed to god with a dripping nose to award him with punishment, but there was no longer any point in keeping up appearances and pretences.

With that mental state Subaru responded to Echidna without any falsehood, making her hesitate to say something for a brief period. But, after that she immediately closed her eyes, and resumed without looking at Subaru.Geett the latest novels at novelhall.com

Echidna: “......Why, did you save me, just now?”

“ーーーー”

Echidna: “Had you not offered your hand, I would have unmistakably died. Taking Ana’s body with me, it surely would have been a death terribly filled with regrets.”

As if other human affairs, the question distanced him away by a single step.

However, the reason she dared to do that was the same as the reason why she abstained from looking at Subaru’s face, eyes. Namely, a last resort to ensure she did not err her judgement due to her emotions.

With Echidna’s such judgement before him, Subaru pondered. Why had his self, offered his hand to Echidna. ーーWas it because Julius, had entrusted him in the end.

And if that’s so, then『Natsuki Subaru』, who made her disappearing self make that expression, should vanish from this world without leaving the slightest trace behind.

And due to the process of elimination after Beatrice’s disappearance, Subaru escaped by dragging Echidna with him, who had still been breathing.

As if for atonement, as if for redemption, or perhaps in an effort to be rightfully punished by the offender.

And Subaru’s such actions, were restrained by the feebly breathing Echidna. Telling him that it would be pointless for him to do this, she, who had been so enthused about returning Anastasia’s body.

That too was a matter of course. ーーBoth of her legs had been blown off from the roots.

“ーーーー”

At this point, she had almost stopped bleeding.

Pulling the body he felt to be lighter than even Beatrice’s, in a state where she had not received any immediate medical attention, what kind of a future must be awaiting her.

Subaru: “Ugh, ah ~hk!”

When such thoughts filled his mind, Subaru stumbled upon the debris, and collapsed at that very spot. At the same time, Echidna, whom he was dragging along, was also thrown down onto the aisle and she toppled over.

Momentarily, merely the wails of two people, seemingly cursing the entire world, echoed through the aisle.

Echidna: “It hurts...... ah, it really, hurts. The human body, truly, hurts......”

Subaru: “M-My bad...... sorry, sorry...... no, rather than that, I......”

Echidna: “Don’t apologize, sincerely, Natsuki-kun. Also...... I, no longer have any face to show Ana...... This pain, is my sole, repayment to Ana.”

Subaru: “Re, payment......?”

Remaining collapsed on the ground, Echidna assented, unable to even move her body, as Subaru shook his eyes, unable to comprehend the words she had spoken.

Just what, did repayment mean. Looking at Subaru’s puzzled expression, Echidna said “After all, isn’t that so?” by loosely opening her mouth slightly.

Echidna: “If I, return this body to Ana now...... she would have to taste, this doomed pain, and the fear of death...... That would be, hell. I should be the one, to taste it alone.”

Subaru: “Ah, ugh......”

Echidna: “Unable to return this body to Ana for her sake, and unable to assist Julius...... It is fitting, for me to fall, into hell like this.”

He could understand that emotions of self-derision and self-reproach were vehemently scorching Echidna’s heart.

Even Subaru was able to grasp that Echidna’s lifeless eyes, after having recited this, had commenced counting down to her gradually approaching『Death』.

Without having done a single thing, the powerless, insouciant, incompetent oneself.

With those regrets, Echidna shall die. ーーShe shall die, leaving Subaru behind.

Subaru: “Wai...... ~hk.”

Echidna: “Please don’t, think about making it....... easy, okay? I am, yeah, fine like this......”

Echidna’s fading life force, dreading it, Subaru raised his voice first. However, her words suddenly bestowed a new choice upon Subaru, who had been unable to do anything.

ーーHe shall, make it easy. His actions, at this point, were far too slow to call it a comforting death, yet, assisting her by shortening the time of suffering and hastening her『Death』was something even he was capable of.

“ーーーー”

Subaru forced his agonizing body to stand up before Echidna’s sidelong glance, as she breathed lightly, faintly, and he picked up a broken piece of the crumbled aisle, confirming its weight.

Of a size which could be grabbed with a palm, about the size of a fist at maximum. However, even this could surely serve as a weapon for taking away the life of a young girl on the verge of death.

Subaru: “......Echidna.”

Echidna: “ーーーー”

Keeping the piece of rubble in his hand, Subaru called Echidna’s? name and got on his knees beside her, and denied her condition.

Not a response, she did not even open her eyelids. But, it could be understood from her expression that she was not unconscious, having faintly stiffened her cheeks and pursed her lips.

She perhaps no longer had any willpower left to even stop him.

Should Subaru raise the piece of rubble overhead and swing it down energetically, her life would be taken easily.

Meili:『Smashing someone’s head with a stone, even I haven’t done something like thi~s.』

So heard Subaru, the echoing sweet voice of the young girl within his mind as he held the piece of rubble in his hand. However, this action was not for the sake of reading the『Book of the Dead』.

That may happen in terms of results, but as of this moment, Subaru did not have that in mind whatsoever.

He was being, a suicide assistant. A suicide assistant, for the sake of making someone’s parting, who was already on the verge of dying, as comfortable as possible.

If someone had the right to take away that life, then surely this moment alone was sincerelyーー.

This was the sole opportunity of atonement for Subaru, who happened to be present here, for Natsuki Subaru, who no longer was capable of doing anything.

It was the sole opportunity, and yetーー.

“ーーーー”

His hand, trembled. The depths of his eyelids called out to agony, his throat forgot respiration and ossified.

Raise it overhead, swing it down. An exceedingly easy action. The present Subaru, was unable to do that. His body would not move, as if he had forgotten how to move his body.

Subaru: “......Ah.”

Spilling out a husky sigh, the piece of rubble fell to the aisle’s floor, giving rise to a report.

Conceding defeat to that report and his powerless knees, Subaru crumbled down at that spot.

Subaru: “......No way.”

Can’t you even do something so simple, Natsuki Subaru.

Swinging down a weapon for the sake of making it easy for someone who was suffering and heading towards? death, are you not capable of even that deceit.

Atonement of mere words, guilt which was merely an expedient, if that’s wrong then how would you explain this plight.

Echidna: “......Natsuki-kun.”

Subaru: “I, am......”

Echidna: “For helping, with suicide, you...... can’t even, clasp a stone......”

Raising her thin eyelids, powerless pale cerulean eyes looked at Subaru, who was knelt down, and whispered. Thinking that weak voice, akin to a sigh, had put Subaru’s weakness to blame, he halted breathing.

However, as Subaru drew back his body, Echidna unsuitably loosened her lips,

Echidna: “......Forgive me, for doubting you.”

Subaru: “ーーーー”

Echidna: “ーーーー”

As she lost her breath, she apologized.

Echidna, apologized to him. She apologized, for having doubted Natsuki Subaru.

ーーAnd before he could ascertain her true intent, she died.

Killing Meili and hiding her corpse, acting without saying that he had lost his memories, continuously piling up nothing but others’ doubts, escaping out of the ice cage he had been trapped in, unable to fulfill the wish entrusted onto him, protected by the young girl who tried to save his heart, and finally, unable to stain his hands with blood for the sake of the dying young girl, as Subaru knelt down in his own disgrace, Echidna apologized to him and died.

Subaru: “ーーーー”

He wanted to die.

He wanted to forget everything that had happened just now, and die.

He wanted the people all over the world to point their fingers towards Natsuki Subaru, saying that he deserved to die, and be sentenced to death penalty. Natsuki Subaru despaired upon oneself, that he had committed a sin befitting of that.

He, despaired.

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Despair, feasted upon and eroded away Natsuki Subaru’s heart.

Subaru: “ーーーー”

He could not move. He had no right to move. Nothing good would happen even if he moved.

It had been proved. Natsuki Subaru had proved his own incompetenceーー no, calling it incompetence would be rather cute. Instead of that, furthermore, Natsuki Subaru had proved that he was a jinx, a pest, an angel of death.

Subaru: “ーーーー”

Should despair nest into one’s chest, kill one’s heart, what gets eaten to ruin even before one’s life is one’s soul.

If that happens, then no longer would it remain possible to stand up. No longer, would it be possible to fight against anyone. Should he realise that he himself was the genuine source of anguish without being able to defy it whatsoever, it was a natural consequence.

I want to disappear. I want to vanish.

Should’ve decided much earlier. Before things turned to this, in this different world. Should have known, must have known before coming to a place like this different world.

Why, do you trouble other people’s hearts by simply existing.

There’s no way you could ever have the right to solely occupy a part of others’ hearts, no matter how small it may be. You filthy wall stain. You, an existence like the dust accumulated in the corner of a room, like the maggots which swarm over a pile of pure garbage, like a scar which never disappears located in an eye-catching spot.

Natsuki Subaru, why won’t you die.

Even after dying, all that awaits is redoing? Who decided that. Who made sure, that it would continue eternally. If once isn’t enough, then die ten times, die a hundred times

Die until you disappear.

Die until you vanish from anyone and everyone’s memories, until you’re no longer able to affect anything at all, until your name, your existence, your vestiges no longer remain in the hearts of anyone.

ーーI love you.

Shut up. Disappear. Erase me.

ーーI love you, I love you, I love you.

Keep quiet. Don’t talk to me. Don’t get in my way of disappearing. I want to disappear, just disappear.

ーーI love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you.

I want to die. I want to disappear. I want to be smashed to pieces. I don’t want to leave a single trace. I want to become something which never existed. I want to erase my existence. I want to disappear from history. I want to disappear from memories. I want to disappear from remembrances. I want to disappear even for the girl who said she won’t forget. I’m worthless. I’m meaningless. I won’t leave anything behind. I don’t have anything worthy of leaving behind. All, anything, everything, disappear, vanish away from this world.

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As despair ruled over his heart, the world surrounding him and everything else was concealed by the black shadow, the hollow confession of love was poured onto him ceaselessly as it drew near in order to bestow punishment upon the garbage which took the form of a crouched human.

Should he be swallowed within it, would he finally disappear.

Would he sink within nihility far greater than death. Would he really be abandoned within a convenient place, like a dark space which no eyes could ever reach.

If I can die there, then, I willーー.

I willーー,

Natsuki Subaru, headed towards the despair which seemingly painted out everythingーー,

???: “ーーThat’s as far as you go.”

ーーA voice, chimed.

A voice, akin to a silver bell, denying the end of this world, chimed.