Chapter 191 - 191 "The Past: Abyss"

191 “The Past: Abyss”

Cathain couldn’t see anything as his surrounding was pitch black, no matter where and how long he continued to ran... There was no ending.

‘What happened just now? Where am i...’

He recalled seeing his body being possessed by someone and a big dragon destroying the imperial palace, but then he suddenly lost conscious.

‘Am i really in abyss... Can i meet her here?’

‘...I know i don’t deserve her, but i can’t stop myself either... from wanting to be with her so badly,’

Cathain thought as felt frustrated and sadness filling his heart, he couldn’t go back in time.

He might not even see her face again.

Also, that ‘he’ might do the same things as he did as he failed to go back in time.

He might hurt her again too.

.....

‘Where are you, empress...’

“Why are you here?”

Cathain become stunned as a cold but familiar voice rang behind of him.

He felt like his body has started to tremble with happiness, as finally...finally he heard her voice again.

No matter how much he talked in the past four years after her execution, a dead body could never speak.

He yearned to hear her voice, see her bright jewel like blue eyes.

Cathain’s red eyes widened with surprise as he slolwy turned his face to look behind and tried to approach her.

“...E-Empress?”

Eleanora, who was in the abyss till now coldly glanced at him and before he could touch her, she stepped back.

Her blue eyes, which he yearned so much to see again was full of coldness and… disgust.

Cathain’s hands froze as his red eyes looked desperate, his heart beat faster with fear.

“Am not your empress... You took away your name from mine before pushing me here, Your Majesty.”

Her words kept ringing on his mind as he felt suffocated, he tried to speak but no words came out from his mouth.

‘That’s right... I took away my name from hers...’

But then Cathain’s gaze finally fall on the pink bundle at her hands and after looking at it clearly, a tear drop left his eyes silently.

A beautiful newborn baby with silver hair was sleeping peacefully in her embrace.

Seeing Cathain’s shocked expression, Eleanora took a deep breathe as she coldly spoke.

“..She is the child who died at your hands with me,”

Cathain blankly stared at the baby girl with regret, her skin was milky white as her chubby cheeks was pinkies.

Her long eyelashes and thin eyebrows was exactly like her mothers.

‘...Our child, my and hers;’

“Woah, is this how brother will look when he grows up?”

Cathain become stunt again as he heard a child’s voice, and after gazing down, he found a little boy with silver hair and blue eyes speaking.

This time, his body completely frozed as another boy who was slightly older then the silver haired boy peaked on him by tilting a little.

Black hair and round red eyes, he would be the first child of them if Eleanora didn’t fall down from the stairs.

‘...No, if i managed to catch her when she had fallen down, i could have saved him;’

“Shut up, i will be more handsome then him but, don’t you know we don’t age here?”

The eldest boy, Carsein; spoke as he observed Cathain, whose head dropped down as he kneeled infront of them.

He looked like a four-five year old boy, where he would actually be eight years old if he was alive.

As they were in abyss, he could keep growing as long as their mother, who gave him the life would be alive and remember them.

But as Eleanora died four years ago, they stopped growing from then on.

His little brother, Alessandro was two years old in abyss, and would be six years old if he was alive.

And the little girl on Eleanora’s embrace, stayed as a newborn.

Eleanora paid no attention to her kids gossiping, as she looked down to speak with Cathain again.

“...Why did you sacrificed yourself?”

“You knew that you would be struck here, didn’t you?”

Cathain remained silent with a heavy heart as he recalled if all of those things didn’t happened, the empire wouldn’t be destructed.

Eleanora wouldn’t die if he was competent, not swayed and controlled by others; their children’s would be alive.

They would have live happily.

“...Yeah, i-i knew it;”

“Then why?”

“To see you...”

Cathain replied with a heavy voice.

“But it was you, who killed us...”

Eleanora spoke in a cold tone, her blue eyes still glaring at him with no emotions.

“Yeah, i...did, and...i regret, regret it...”

“Your regret can’t take us out of here, Your Majesty. Can it?”

“Now we even have to tolerate and see your disgusting face from now on...”

“Am sorry... am sorry..”

Cathain didn’t knew for which sin he was apologising to her as he started to sob.

For not treating her better?

Kill her?

Or for showing up here?

“We’re afraid to accept your apology, We don’t dare to expect anything from you.”

Eleanora spoke as she turned around but then paused on her steps, Where her two boys was curious about the identity of the man behind them.

“Brother...who is he?”

Alessandro, the boy with silver hair asked his older brother.

“How can i know? Perhaps he is one of the people killed by mommy too? Just how cruel mommy was to kill so many people?”

Carsein, the older boy with black hair and red eyes spoke as he was used to see passersby knight spirits scolding his mother for killing them in battlefield.

“...”

Where Eleanora become speechless as her boys was making a serious moment turn into a joke.

“We meet a lot of vengeful knight sprits who died at the hands of mommy in battlefield though, perhaps mommy was a... Blood sucking vampire?!”

Alessandro murmured but then he abruptly paused as he sensed danger.

“…If you two don’t want to be the next vengeful spirits, then shut your mouth; i will really kill you two if you wake up your sister!”

Gritting her teeths, Eleanora spoke as she lost her patience with her sons.

Immediately, both of the boys closed their lips to not talk anymore as they don’t want to hear their sister’s loud crying.

Cathain looked at the harmonious family picture infront of him, where he can’t belong too.

He stared at her back view as the two boys hold the hem of her dress to get away from scolding.

‘How i wish... To be with them, stand beside her...’

But he knows that he can’t.

She will never forgive him...

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