192 “The Past: One And Only”
[A/N: This is the last chapter about the past timeline. I added this past pov’s to explain why the current lifetime’s Eleanora and Cathain are different from the past ones.
Why Eleanora remembered the past despite being different from the past Eleanora and how Cathain saw visions about their past.
How the sacrificial worked and how the present Cathain recalled the past life now because of his past life’s powers, which was inside the current Eleanora returned to him by healing.
As Eleanora remembered the past because of the past Cathain’s powers, the current Cathain recalled it too as he got back those powers from her.]
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Cathain’s heart started to feel stuffy as he continued to thought of the life with them, which will never come true.
The eldest son as the crown prince, the second son would be the next duke of Dalton.
Where the little girl would be the empire’s princess, loved by everyone.
But now, he can never hug them, show them love or... Tell them that he is their father, the father who can be count as their killer.
.....
Eleanora turned her head slightly to glance at the kneeling Cathain and decided on something.
“...We don’t need you, but; they need your help.”
Cathain raised his head as he couldn’t understand her words.
But no matter what she tells him to do, he is ready.
“...As you can see, am also struck in abyss as i failed to get reborn in another timeline. Even my powers aren’t enough to merge into my younger self like you either.”
“But it’s still enough for my younger self to remember this life events as a certain someone kept transferring his powers into a dead soul and that ritual you all performed...”
Eleanora paused on her words, before she started to speak again.
“You can only get reborn with your memories when you have enough magical powers or reborn without your memories when you don’t have enough magical powers.”
“...And people like us, who doesn’t meet none of those two conditions get struck in abyss. We can only show up in their dreams and life-”
“As ghost to scare them?”
“...”
“SHUT UP, ALESSANDRO!”
Eleanora lightly punched her younger son’s head for speaking nonsense again.
“But this is what the spirits teached us!”
“You never learn what i teach you but remember every nonsense from those stupid spirits!”
“Augh! S-Sorry, Mommy!”
Cathain felt a unknown warmness spreading in his heart after a long time, as he knew that she was happy in abyss.
Really happy, away from the people who demanded her death; away from him, who didn’t believed her.
‘But why do i feel sad, seeing you so happy without me... Why does my heart aches, realising that as long as you are not with me, you can be happy?’
Cathain clenched his fists tightly as he felt so suffocated that he wanted to die.
But he can’t even die now.
“...Anyway, Both of us are different...She didn’t suffered what i went through.”
“So, I don’t want her to lose the meaning of life and sacrifice her happiness for revenge. I do wish that she punishes the people who wronged us...”
“But i don’t want more then that. I can’t show up much as i don’t have much magical powers. And i also transferred my holy powers to you before d...”
Eleanora paused as she was about to utter the word ‘Die’ but then decided not to.
“The powers you had transferred is inside of hers, which will make her remember this life. So, help them. Don’t let our story repeat again...”
“You will lose your remaining powers like that, and might get another chance...to reborn,”
“Then, what about you?”
Cathain asked immediately, if she isn’t with him then there is no meaning of another life.
His tearful red eyes brighten up a little as he heard her words, they might get another chance.
“...i don’t have much powers left anyway, am only holding back for them, till they gets reborn... I don’t wanna leave them alone.”
Eleanora’s eyes become gentle and she spoke as she looked at the boys clinging on her legs like koala.
And the little sleeping girl in her arms.
“...if i help them, will you give me a chance?”
Cathain knew that it was shamless of him to ask this but he couldn’t help his urge to be with her.
The most painful thing was to live with regret, when you personally kill all the possibility of being together with the person you love by your own hands.
And when you realize, it’s all too late.
He might have been poisoned, controlled; but they only succeeded because he was insecure about himself and his feelings.
He wanted to be perfect, showing that he deserves her and he isn’t inferior to her; but this was all his low self-esteem because of the people around him.
Who wanted to mislead him.
She never thought of him as incompetent, it was her who worked hard and harder to be perfect for him.
So that he can be proud on her.
Both of them wanted to be perfect for each other, and missed the lovely moments of ‘imperfectness’.
Couples complete each other by making them perfect, they don’t need to be personally perfect.
Their affection grows and they become close in the process of helping the other one to be perfect.
Nothing in this world is completely perfect, but we can make it perfect by working together and giving our best.
Cathain stood up on his feet as he realised that she probably doesn’t want to give him another chance.
He laughed at himself for asking the obvious and approached her from behind.
“Then, let me hug you one last time... Think of it as my last wish,”
Cathain burried his face on her neck as he hugged are tightly, like he wanted to melt inside of hers and whispered in a low voice.
“I love you... I really loved you.”
Eleanora didn’t moved from her spot and kept standing as a tear drop left her eyes.
This are the words, which she yearned to hear all her life and she finally heard them... When it’s already too late.
“I know, i don’t deserve to say this... But i just wanted you to know.. I loved you too...”
Cathain felt his throat becoming sore as he tried to speak painfully and Eleanora blinked her eyes repeatedly to hold back her tears.
“Thank you for everything you have done for me...”
“...Am sorry, for treating you like that; You didn’t deserved that,”
“...I wish to meet you in my every life and i promise that i will treat you better,”
“I will treat you better... Love you better,”
“You will always be my one and only Empress.”
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[A/N: END OF THE STORY... THANKS FOR GIVING THIS STORY SO MUCH LOVE TILL NOW ^_^]
[Just kidding- Happy April fool everyone!!!]