Chapter 120 - 120 He still Feng Teng

"I do Wei Wei. Just not as much as you did," she denied.

"Oh, you could've fooled me." I scowl.

"Daling, you should know this. Feng Teng hasn't so much as looked at another woman since he met you. He is really crazy about you. Even his best friend never thought he'd see the day that Feng Teng will put all his attention on one woman and give met more than once." She says.

"Lol. His friend can say what he wants. But it's doesn't change the fact that he even killing a human being without malice aforethought, or to murder. How many lives that he has taken before, I don't even know," I shudder, feeling fears and sick at the thought after seeing his expression at that time.

"Daling, you can't punish him because of his past,"

"It's not his past, though, is it? He still does the killing, and I witness it." I scowl.

"Wei Wei, he is a powerful man of Feng Corp the first elite family this S city and of course they must involve in that kind of things. It's part of his business. Have you forget your boyfriend status?" She says as she reminds me of Feng Teng background.

"Oh, leave me alone." I spit.

Her defending all of this is just pissing me off. She should be supporting me, not trying to justify Feng Teng misdemeanours.

I feel her weight lift from the bed on a sigh.

"Huh, he still Feng Teng whenever he with you," she says as she leaves my bedroom, and me alone to mourn my loss.

I lay in silence trying to rid my head of all the inevitable thoughts. It's no good. My brain is assaulted by flashbacks of the last few weeks. Of our first meeting when he floored me, the texts and the calls and then the stalking…and the proposal.

I flip myself onto my stomach, sinking my face into my pillow.

SiSi words keep pin-balling around in my mind "he's still Feng Teng".

But do I even know who Feng Teng really is?

All I know is a man who swept me up in his intensity and blindsided me with his physical being.

Another piece of the puzzle falls into place when I recall him telling me that he has no contact with his mom since the parent divorces. After his father died, his grandfather the one who took full responsible parenting him.

It makes sense now. He said he was trained by his grandfather since then and he has been in the army. I remember it when I've seen his scars. He banned me from asking it. 

Gosh! He is definitely darker than I know. I remember the black man holding a shooter beside him, and the little girl, based on him too. They have a very high skill in martial arts.

Oh, God. Who exactly is he?

" Hi. Miss Bei,"

I look up and see Kevin stood in the doorway, looking as deflated as he was earlier.

Oh. He still here.

" Sorry, I don't want to be a busybody but since it was concern, my dear friend. Actually, he beat himself up on a daily basis trying to think of how he could tell you. I've never seen him like this before apart from works." He says.

"You mean?" I say sarcastically.

"I mean he crazy about a woman." He says sincerely.

"Oh, he's crazy all right." I laugh.

Kevin frowns, shaking his head.

"Sure, but he only crazy about you." He nods.

"Uhh. NO, he is crazy about controlling, manipulating me away from the truth,"

"Do you mind?" he asks, standing at the edge of my bed.

"Help yourself," I grumble uncharitably.

He perches on the edge of the bed. He looks so serious.

"Here listen to me, I've known Feng Teng for more than twenty years. Not even once have I seen him behave like this over a woman. He's never had a relationship beyond s.e.x, but you came along and it's like he found purpose in his life apart from being a powerful man. Yes, sure his job is more than the common people but he never kills and innocent people. All his carried a dutied as a ruler from the underworld and of course in business there a lot an enemy wanted him to fall down. As I could see Feng Teng has changed after meeting you. Sure, he's different from the others man, and while you might have been frustrated over his protectiveness, but I was a friend to him, I was happy to see him finally has a soft spot and care so much to behave like that. Please, give him a chance." Kevin pledge for his friend.

'He wasn't just protective, Kevin.' I say tiredly.

Protectiveness is just the start of a long list of unreasonable ways.

"He's still Feng Teng." He repeats SiSi words, looking at me pleadingly.

"Ordered an executed other lives is a part of his business nature. Yes, he doesn't tell you how dark his job other than being a president at Feng corp but he had no choice to change his profession as the only eligible heir from Feng Family. After he takes over all Feng business as The President and the Owner of Feng household from The Grand Elders Feng he never know what's care and mercy is. But it all changed when you fell into his life." Kevin speech his friend life.

"Hey, can you just stop here? I really can't wrap my head around all of this," I say weakly/

He smiles, picking my hand up in his.

"If you can tell me that you can walk away from him, no second thoughts or regrets, then I'll shut up now and leave. If you can tell me that you don't love him, I'll walk away. But I don't think you can. You're just having shocked and I realise that. And yes, he has a history, but you can't ignore the fact that how much he has adores you, Wei Lin. The truth it's written all over his face, expressed in everything he does just for you. Please, give him a chance. He deserves a chance and happiness."

Kevin pleading speech on behalf of his friend sounds like it's been well prepared and rehearsed. Maybe it has. They must have known I'd find out eventually.

How can I get pass of this shit?

I know I'm not doing myself any favours laying here, kicking my sorry arse around in circles. I'm trying to deal with something I just don't understand and probably never will.

He is the president involved in murdering. This crap doesn't feature into my idea of a normal, happy ever after.

Could I ever trust him? Does he care enough to behave like this? Does he really adore me? Do adore equal love? I ignored all of Feng Teng pillow talk in the beginning.

All of the "you're mine" crap and his declaration of never letting me leave rubbish. He said the word love a lot, but not in the context I so desperately wanted to hear. "I love you in lace", "I love sleepy making love with you", "I love having you here".

Should I have looked further into all of it? Was he telling me what I wanted to hear but in a backwards way? He persistently sought reassurance from me that I would stay. If all he needed was a comfort that I was staying put, then I did that plenty of times, didn't I? I always told him I would stay. But I didn't know about his real job other than being a president then.

And now I do know his darker part which is beyond from my though, but I've left after seeing his real nature.