CH 6

I didn’t see Xu Jiamu again during the whole vacation. He traveled far and went to many places, he traveled for a whole month. Later, when he was finally back, I had already started attending my preparatory classes.

I don’t know what I was thinking, but I don’t want to follow his advice.

Utopia: “I don’t want to; I want to taste the pain of love.”

I would yell at him in anger at that time but he wasn’t annoyed. The only sound that came from his microphone was his hearty laughter. My anger then would also disappear in that laughter and I would laugh with him.

I think that was the happiest period of time in my life for me. There was no sound of my parents’ quarrels, I made true friends and there was Xu Jiamu who would joke and laugh with me. It was a time I can never go back to.

The semester went by too fast and the winter vacation arrived in the blink of an eye. Xu Jiamu’s flight to come back home was on December 30th. I did some calculations; my school has a social gathering that day so I would be able to go home earlier. Xu Jiamu’s flight arrival time was even earlier then that so I would not be able to go pick him up at the airport. But his family might go pick him up so I shouldn’t go anyway.

But I really want to see him.

On that day, I sat in the audience and enjoyed the performances. When my friends came on the stage, I applauded fervently. I was even harassed by my classmates to participate in a few games. The atmosphere of joy gradually erased the sadness of not seeing Xu Jiamu. But when I thought of how I was happily watching the performance here and Xu Jiamu was lugging his suitcases riding the train alone, I couldn’t help but feel sorry for him. I recorded a few interesting programs and sent them to Xu Jiamu, I hope he won’t feel too bored on the road.

It was about six o’clock when I left the school, I was chatting with Xu Jiamu with my head down.

Utopia: “Are you back home now?”

I saw that his parents hadn’t arrived yet so I pulled him to chat at the door of the restaurant.

“The university life is so rich, have you been in a relationship?” I’ve been wanting to ask is this question all night.

I hid most of my face in the scarf, afraid he would be aware of my emotions. I waited anxiously for his answer.

“No, I don’t like anyone.”

I was so happy in my heart but still rebuked him out loud, “What? You’re waiting for a fairy or something? “

Xu Jiamu laughed, when he turned to look at me, his eyes were bright, “Yes.”

I looked at him suspiciously.

“The girl I like must be like a fairy.” He turned around again; the sunlight turned his hair into a warm brown color.

It’s hard for me to express my feelings at that time. There is a saying on the Internet that “A man is a teenager until he dies”, which is mostly used to ridicule some men, but I looked at his eyebrows full of youthful spirit, and remembered that his childishness of not willing to wear a mask even if the tip of his nose was frozen red. At that moment, I felt that some people will really always be teenagers.

Xu Jiamu is such a person.

It was getting late and Xu Jiamu received a call from his parents saying that they had gotten off the plane. It was time for me to go home. I said goodbye to him but he insisted on taking me to the station. I got in the bus and watched Xu Jiamu wave at me, suddenly remembering that day on my middle school graduation ceremony but at this moment our positions were reversed.

After the last person got on the bus, the bus started moving slowly. I watched him turned around and felt a sense of courage in my heart.

“Xu Jiamu!” I opened the bus window, the blue scarf covering my face was blown off by the cold wind.

Xu Jiamu looked at me with puzzled eyes.

“You must wait for me! Wait for me in Shanghai!”

Before I could see his reaction, I closed the window. The bus had already pulled out of the station and the people on the bus looked at me with teasing eyes. Only then did I realize what a daring thing I had done.

I tightly surrounded myself with the scarf again, and I could feel the heat on my face that was hidden behind the scarf.

There was a notification sound on my phone, it was from Xu Jiamu.

“Okay, I’ll wait for you in Shanghai.”

I’ll wait for you in Shanghai. At that moment, no words can be better than these six words.