Chapter 13.10: Woman With a Downcast Look X
I didnt want any more sorrowful beings like Hyuga, whom nobody noticed.
Please
I pleaded with my head on the ground.
Please dont die.
The fact that I was pleading in a tearful voice, being pathetic about my unfulfilled regrets, and being unable to deal with this issue on my own made me realize that I was not cool, but I still was an idiot that did not want to back down.
Please dont die you mustnt die
I simply kept on repeating it. This was the only word I could find.
It was impossible for me to wrap my arms around her feelings in such a state. I was not skillful enough to reassure her of someone elses sentiments.
But that didnt mean I could simply let her leave. I couldnt leave her alone.
Sorry. Sorry that this was the only thing I could say.
If I claimed to grasp how daunting it was for you, it would be a falsehood. Your suffering was not something that I could fully understand. If anything, I doubted that a convenience store staff like me could understand it.
Sorry. But still
Dying was not good. Dying was horrible.
Please dont die.
I dont ask you to live.
Just dont die, please.
I had to stop this somehow, I had to do something.
I had to, I had to, I had to
Thats enough.
How long had I been doing this? Her voice regained a little bit of composure, and this time I raised my head.
Her face was still a mess, and she had red eyes with puffy eyelids. She nonetheless shut her tear-filled eyes. She said to me in a small voice, Its been a long time That someone looked me in the eye and spoke properly to me
I am sorry I simply said, and staggered to my feet, powerless.
After getting up, another large drop of tears spilled out of her eyes.
Dying to be at ease I thought it would reset things and make me a different person. The moment of death may be painful and agonizing, but if I could just endure it for a moment and end it all I thought it would be totally fine Because Im a no-good, stupid, good-for-nothing person who is inevitably mocked and no one will ever really say a word to me Im not worth living
Her nose was running with snot on top of crying.
But you a staff member, a complete stranger to me, was able to say the proper words to me. I could feel your desperation it was amazing I didnt think I, such a trash, would be told not to die Im still still alive, even though Im still a useless trash of society!
Dont forget that.
Was that what you meant?
Hyuga.
[Earlier today. A woman (20), an office worker, was discovered dead after a resident reported that she had hanged herself in an apartment in XX City. According to the police investigation, the corpse had been there for several days and based on the suicide note and other evidence found at the same time, it is suspected that she had been sexually assaulted by several of her bosses. The case is being investigated as a possible suicide]
Several days have passed since then.
I was under the assumption that everything had been settled neatly.
But
My body, which had been feeling at peace, was paralyzed by the news broadcast that I had been watching on a random TV channel that I had turned on since this morning.
Because the words that appeared in the coverage were all too familiar to me. My mind was racing with vivid memories of that day.
XX City.
A place fairly close to my local area.
An office worker, a woman.
Age, 20 years old
Sexually assaulted by several bosses.
Suicide note
In her apartment
Suicide by hanging
[Im going to try a little harder]
No way.
No way.
No way
It couldnt be
A lie.
The somen that had been hooked onto the chopsticks fell into the soup with a splash.
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