CH 33

Jul 08 2022

Confession

Chang Le’s attention was still on finding Yu Qingze, but after hearing what Yu Qingze said, he realized he was clutching his hand, his face went hot, and his left hand subconsciously sought to pull back.

Yu Qingze had expected his reaction, he held it tightly, and quickly added: “I almost couldn’t find you just now, there are too many people, let’s not get separated, I don’t know how long it will take to find you next time. “

Speaking of getting separated, Chang Le remembered his panic when he couldn’t find Yu Qingze just now. Translated on ho lo lo novels dot com. With so many people, it was really easy to get separated. If the two held hands, there was no need to worry.

Looking at his hand being held, Chang Le’s heart thumped incessantly. Brother Yu’s palm is very wide, a lot bigger than his own, and the temperature is higher than his own. It feels very warm and reassuring to be held by him.

The little sprout in his heart, which had originally had its head but was brutally suppressed, seized the opportunity and stretched up. A pair of tender little leaves grew.

Chang Le was overcome with emotion. He could feel his heart racing as they held hands. The apparent happiness and anticipation were not misleading, and he couldn’t stand to ignore it.

But then he thought about it… If two unmarried man and a ger holding hands like this, what if they are seen and misunderstood by others? It will affect Brother Yu’s search for a husband.

Pursing his lips, Chang Le pressed down the eagerness in his heart, and quietly observed the people around him. Seeing that no one noticed them, he quickly gestured with his right hand, meaning to let Yu Qingze let go, for fear that others would see a misunderstanding.

Yu Qingze took Chang Le to a secluded corner behind a small stall, let go of Chang Le’s hand, held his shoulders with both hands, looked at him with burning eyes, and asked, “What’s the misunderstanding? That we’re together?”

The big palm holding his left hand suddenly withdrew, causing Chang Le to feel lost for a while. The fingers of his left hand curled up a little, then pulled it back into a light fist and wrapped it in his right hand.

Hearing Yu Qingze’s words, he nodded lightly.

“I hope that this misunderstanding is true.” Yu Qingze said quietly.

Chang Le suddenly raised his head and looked at Yu Qingze in confusion and shock.

Yu Qingze glanced at the small corner they were at and sighed. He originally wanted to find a beautiful and romantic place, pick a good time, and then make a nice confession, but he didn’t expect his plan to be disrupted.

He stretched out his hand and pulled the hair on Chang Le’s cheek back, then looked into Chang Le’s eyes and said, “Brother Le, I didn’t hold your hand just now because I was really afraid of getting separated, do you know why? “

Chang Le’s heart skipped a beat, his eyes looking at Yu Qingze were a bit complicated. He felt that Brother Yu was going to say something shocking.

Yu Qingze stared at Chang Le’s eyes and said profoundly: “Because, I want to hold hands. I want to hold hands with you to watch lanterns, watch juggling, and go shopping for snacks together. Go to play small games, and go to the pier together to set up lotus lanterns. Also, hold hands together for the rest of our lives.”

Chang Le’s heart was thumping, the sound gradually changed from a small rattle to a big drum.

What is Big Brother Yu talking about? What does he … what does he mean? Yes, is that what he means? No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, how could he have that meaning? I must have thought too much! Must be!

However, what Yu Qingze was something that Chang Le had been yearning to hear.

There was a buzzing in his mind like thousands of little bees were flying at the same time. Chang Le couldn’t find the right expression and reaction, so he could only stare blankly at Yu Qingze’s mouth as if he had lost his normal thinking ability.

After speaking, Yu Qingze waited for Chang Le to respond, but found that Chang Le had a blank expression, and he couldn’t tell what he was thinking.

“Brother Le?” He stretched out his hand and shook it in front of Chang Le’s eyes, and asked, “Do you hear what I just said?”

Chang Le suddenly woke up and realized that he was embarrassed into a daze. With a flushed face, he stretched out his hand and gestured, and asked Yu Qingze why he thought so.

This guy, it’s so obvious, why haven’t you figured it out yet!

Yu Qingze lightly poked Chang Le’s nose, with a laugh,he looked at the other party’s fluttering eyes, and said bluntly, “Because, I like you. Brother Le, I like you!”

Chang Le was stunned again.

Brother Yu said he liked him? He even said it twice?

Brother Yu said he liked him!

The heartbeat instantly changed from folk drums to war drums!

Boom! Boom! Boom, boom, boom…

As if thousands of troops were galloping, Chang Le inexplicably softened his legs and staggered a step.

Seeing this, Yu Qingze quickly held him up and asked, “What’s wrong?”

Supported by Yu Qingze, Chang Le stood up straight and took a step back, almost leaning against the wall. He felt very complicated in his heart – shocked and apprehensive. He didn’t know what expression to use to face Yu Qingze.

Big Brother Yu said he likes him. He was very surprised and happy. He was excited enough to go crazy. It turned out that Big Brother Yu also liked him; however, the inferiority complex accumulated over the years made him subconsciously deny and doubt himself. How could Big Brother Yu like him? I don’t deserve him at all.

He was so happy that he wanted to laugh, but he was also so entangled that he wanted to cry. Chang Le couldn’t understand it at all. After struggling for so many days, he never thought about the possibility that Yu Qingze would like him even a little bit.

Maybe he once fantasized about the life of the two, but it was also based on his own fantasy about the current life, not because Yu Qingze liked him.

How could he believe what big brother Yu just said? Big brother Yu, who was so good in his heart, would like him… a defective person?

Yu Qingze, however, didn’t give him much time.

Seeing that Chang Le was habitually lowering his head again, Yu Qingze simply pushed him against the wall, stretched out his hand to hold Chang Le’s face, so that he could no longer escape.

“Brother Le, what do you think? Can you accept me? Do you like me too?”

The noisy and lively lantern festival continued, but at this time, it has turned into a prosperous background board, and a quiet world of two people, separated in this small corner.

Chang Le raised his eyes, which were a little red, he looked at Yu Qingze. His appearance a little pitiful as it was shrouded in the hazy water.

“Why are your eyes red? Did I scare you?” Yu Qingze stretched out his thumb and stroked the corner of Chang Le’s eyes.

Chang Le shook his head vigorously, raised his hands, and gestured twice with a slight trembling.

Chang Le: Didn’t you say that you have someone you like?

Yu Qingze said softly, “The person I like is in front of me now.”

Chang Le’s heart trembled. It turned out that the person big brother Yu said he liked was himself?

Filled with joy and nowhere to hide, a smile escaped from the corner of his mouth, drawing an upward arc.

After a while, Chang Le regained his clarity and pursed his lips and gestured: But I can’t speak.

Yu Qingze smiled: “I can understand most of your gestures. Give me a few more days, and I will understand all of them. Don’t worry, this will not become an obstacle to our communication.”

Chang Le worriedly touched his forehead again, the scars protruding there were so obvious.

Chang Le’s eyes dimmed, and he lowered his head and gestured: I’m ugly.

Yu Qingze took his hand lightly, and reached out to lift Chang Le’s bangs. Chang Le ducked his head sideways, but was blocked by Yu Qingze’s other hand, unable to dodge.

Yu Qingze touched the scar lightly and looked at it carefully. His thumb followed his eyes and stroked the scar from the middle of the eyebrows to the hairline.

Chang Le’s eyes flickered, it was the first time anyone of the opposite sex looked at his scar like this, which made him very embarrassed and dejected. He couldn’t help but want to lower his head, but Yu Qingze lifted it up again.

Yu Qingze knew the knot in Chang Le’s heart and said seriously: “Brother Le, the beauty and ugliness of a person is not only about appearance, but also about their heart and character. What I want is to be able to love each other and build a life together through joys and sorrows. A husband with a harmonious family is not an empty shell with only appearance. This scar may not be good-looking, but you should not devalue yourself because of the scar. Brother Le, you are not ugly, you are beautiful, you know? “

Chang Le’s heart was a little touched, but this was a psychological issue he had suffered for many years, how could it be so easily relieved.

When Yu Qingze saw it, he asked him, “Do you think the scar on my shoulder is ugly?” The wound on his shoulder had just healed, and the scar was ten centimeters long, and it looked quite hideous.

Chang Le heard the words and shook his head decisively. He didn’t think Big Brother Yu’s scar was ugly, it just made him feel bad.

Yu Qingze said: “So you see, I don’t think your scars are ugly, I only feel sorry for the injuries you have suffered.”

The gloomy eyes brightened slightly, Chang Le twisted his fingers, summoned up his courage and gestured: I, I may not be able to have children.

After Yu Qingze understood this gesture, he couldn’t help laughing out loud.

Chang was happy to see him laughing, but felt even more ashamed and sad, lowered his head and said nothing. There was no man or family who would not care about this problem.

Seeing this, Yu Qingze quickly stopped laughing and explained, “Brother Le, I’m sorry, I’m not laughing at you. But, Brother Le, I’m very happy, you have already thought about having a baby in the future before we get married. Now, does this mean that you also like me, you want to have a baby with me, and you want to live with me for the rest of your life, eh?”

Hearing this, Chang Le suddenly reacted, his eyes widened, his face blushed, and he shook his hand vigorously. He, he didn’t think so far, he was just talking about his body! How could Brother Yu say it like this! So embarrassing!

Seeing Chang Le rushing to explain, Yu Qingze chuckled, reached out, and grabbed the hand that was constantly gesturing in front of him. He thought about it and said seriously, “Brother Le, I never thought about having a biological child before, I always thought that it would be impossible for me to get married and have children in my life. It was not until I met you that I had the idea of getting married.”

For a pure gay, it was indeed impossible for him to have children in his previous life. As for marriage, it was still not legal in China. Translated on ho lo lo novels dot com. Same-sex couples who wanted to get married could only go abroad to get their licenses. However, Yu Qingze couldn’t even find a lover, and there was no such thing as marriage.

Hearing what Yu Qingze said, Chang Le looked at him curiously and hesitantly asked why.

Yu Qingze paused and said, “Brother Le, I haven’t told you about my family, have I? My father…he…”