CH 43

Louise Barsheikh lives in regret ①

Translated by KaiesV

Edited by KaiesV

「Louise.」

——I am the voice of Aloige calling my name. I am tempted to block out that voice.

My name is Louise Barsheikh.

I used to think that I was going to be a queen and that there was nothing wrong with what I was doing.

——Ottilie Shefinko as the villainess, Nathe Weshia as the heroine… and I was absolutely convinced that this was a world of an Otome game. But that is just an assumption, and I finally realized the fact that this world is real and therefore doesn’t progress like the world of Otome games.

One of the reasons for my failure to realize this fact, which is obvious when I think about it, is probably due to Aloige.

Someone might say, “Don’t blame others for thinking this way.” But… Aloige always continued to affirm me. He did what I wanted to do.

It was only when I was in this situation that I realized, or rather, realized for the first time… I wasn’t the only one who could move people around by being called the『Fairy Princess.』

I also did a lot of reforms using the memories of my previous life to make this country a better place. But that was only as a result of my passing on the knowledge I knew and the people around me moving on.

I was happy that I could help people in the world I loved. I was proud that I was making this world and this country a better place by doing so.

I was full of self-confidence, and all I could think about was how I was going to use my power to make the people I loved happy.

Ever since I was reincarnated into this world and realized that this is the world I knew—— For me, this world was only the world of the Otome games that I loved so much.

In hindsight, I just didn’t think so because Aloige was supporting me to the best of my ability, because people around me recognized me… and it just worked.

I was wary of Ottilie Shefinko… what we call “the villainess” in that world, because that’s what she was in the game. I was very wary of the “villainess” in that world. So no matter what she kept showing me, no matter how she said she wasn’t a “villainess,” I kept her on my guard.

It was an act to make everyone happy… I couldn’t believe it.

But it was different.

I believed it to be absolute, and I couldn’t believe that this was the world of Otome games, and that people were behaving accordingly. When I thought about it, I was unaware of such an obvious fact that a little influence can change a person’s life.

——I felt terrible as I realized that this was a reality where one’s actions could affect many things.

Until now, I had been acting as I pleased as the crown princess. I had no doubt that it was the right thing to do, I was just working with good intentions.

But it was an assumption, and it ruined many people’s lives. It was the same with the target I wanted to make happy.

I dread to think of it.

A world completely different from my previous life. A world with an established status system, where everything is decided by a single word from a superior. I think I have always been flustered by my reincarnation into the world of Otome games. I kept thinking just that, and arrogantly thought that I could make the people I wanted to make happy happy.

——I was never like that. In my previous life, I was nothing special. I realized after I did that that there was no way I could have done it that way just because I was reincarnated.

My actions have ruined my life, but Aloige doesn’t blame me. He just looks the same as before and smiles at me.

I feel that this is a frightening situation.

Why is Aloige smiling when he had to step down from his position as Crown Prince and it was my fault that he did so? On the contrary, why is it that he seemed so happy to be alone with me? I didn’t know what Aloige, who was taking care of me in my doldrums, was thinking.

Aloige probably knows that I feel a bit of dread like that, and that my emotions are changing. But knowingly, Aloige is smiling at me.

「Louise, today I have prepared a well-known pastry.」

Even after stepping down from his position as the Crown Prince, Aloige seemed as if it was nothing, as if it didn’t matter, as usual.