Chapter 189： In this life, I am Ye Nanxuan

Chapter 189: Ye Nanxian Must Be You in This Life

Shen Mange was relieved, but there was not much joy for Ye Nanxian. He could feel the resistance in Shen Mange's heart, but for him, she was compromising.

This Shen Mange is like she who was five years ago. She has no ego at all. She lives on Ye Nanxian's preferences. Once, Ye Nanxian enjoyed such a time very much. But now he also fell in love, only to find out how powerless and sad it was to lose himself for someone he loved.

Ye Nanxian stood still in front of the bed, and Shen Mange was somewhat surprised.

"what happened?"

"Don't care about me, you can do whatever you want. What I want is a wife, a complete you, not you who gave up for me. No matter what you want to do, I will accompany you."

Ye Nanxian's voice was not loud, even with a trace of low and hoarse, but Shen Mange was very moved.

She suddenly realized that her contribution five years ago might not be as great as she thought.

At that time, she always followed behind Ye Nanxian, looking at his back, dreaming about when Ye Nanxian could stop and look at her humble, but she never realized that this love is Perverted is a kind of humble into the bone.

If you want someone to fall in love with you, you have to let him see your good, not for his complete loss of self.

Five years ago, Shen Mange was a puppet doll, with no soul and no thought. All he did was for Ye Nanxian to be able to look at her, even the slightest pity.

Once upon a time, she was also the pride of heaven. Throughout the school, in the department, she is also a character in the class of Fengyun, but since seeing Ye Nanxian and falling in love with her, she has completely lost herself.

In the past eight years, in retrospect, there seem to be very few fragments that are truly worth remembering.

She did not actively strengthen herself, improve herself, and strive to make herself worthy of Ye Nanxian, keeping up with Ye Nanxian's footsteps. Instead, she has been humbled in the name of love in the years and steps.

How can she deserve Ye Nanxian?

How does she deserve to stand with him like this? It is right to say that she is Ye Nanxian's wife?

Ye Nanxian was born with a golden spoon in her childhood. What kind of woman do you want? Is it because she loves him that Ye Nanxian should pay for her love?

Do not!

She does not have any capital that Ye Nanxian can stay for her!

God has mercy, Ye Nanxian is now tempted by her, emotional, guilty or true love, Shen Mange does not want to think about these useless. She only knows that she can be next to Ye Nanxian now is an opportunity.

No matter how terrible she used to be, no matter what she had missed, now she has a great chance to start again with Ye Nanxian.

After Shen Mange figured it out, he suddenly felt how cowardly he used to be. If I figured it out earlier, wouldn't she and Ye Nanxian look like this today?

She was grateful for the fire five years ago, at least so that she did not lose the man Ye Nanxian. She is also grateful to herself. Five years later, her feelings for Ye Nanxian are still rock-solid. She is more grateful for the disaster now, because it made her truly realize how rare Ye Nanxian is. It is a worthy partner for her to dedicate her life to, and work with him for a lifetime.

Shen Mange has never understood what he needs like this.

She wants the man in front of her!

Not only does he want him by her side, she also wants his heart, his love, his life!

But she did n’t ask for it. On the long way of life, no one can pay for others for no reason, even if that person is her favorite person, so if you want to compete with it, you must make yourself completely strong. This must be tested. Yourself.

Shen Mange sighed, but his eyes became brighter.

She withdrew her eyes from Ye Nanxian's body and looked at the scenery outside the window. She suddenly felt that the sky outside was very blue, the sun was warm and the scenery was beautiful.

Why should she refuse to reject everything so beautiful?

Shen Mange smiled slightly, with a kind of relief in his smile, a kind of let go.

Ye Nanxian was a little foolish and confused.

He hasn't seen Shen Mange smile for a long time, at least she has been suppressing herself from the beginning until now, living carefully.

Now she smiled.

The whole world seemed to change color for her, so gorgeous.

The dark clouds floating in his heart slowly left.

Ye Nanxian did not know what Shen Mange had figured out, but the tranquility and relief at this moment made him feel relaxed.

He sat next to Shen Mange and asked in a low voice: "Do I need a psychologist?"

Shen Mange shook his head and said: "The psychiatrist can only guide, if I don't want to face it, the water will not work. Ye Nanxian, thank you."

This sudden gratitude puzzled Ye Nanxian.

"Thank me?"

"Yes, thank you. Thank you for not giving up on me for five years. Thank you for falling in love with me. No matter how much guilt is in this love, but at this moment, I take it seriously. I will ask you again, this life you Are you really planning to join me for a lifetime? No matter how difficult the future is, no matter who opposes you, you will never leave me. "

Shen Mange looked at Ye Nanxian, his eyes brightly unusual.

Ye Nanxian seemed to be looking at the beautiful starry sky, deep and charming.

He took Shen Mange's hand and put it on his chest. It was shocking where his heart was beating like thunder. The warm body temperature followed Shen Mange's fingertips and filled her body a little bit.

Warm and hot, as if to have the whole spring.

This is the feeling of heart, this is the feeling of love.

After a lapse of eight years, she finally once again experienced that kind of heart-pounding moment. The difference is that she was unrequited love eight years ago, and they were together after eight years.

Ye Nanxian looked at her very seriously and said, "In this life, I have to be Ye Nanxian."

"I will leave your decision without any regrets!"

Shen Mange showed a confident smile.

Although she was haggard and thin, but at this moment, Ye Nanxian seemed to see Shen Mange half a year ago.

At that time, Shen Mange's painting skills were regarded as the pride of the entire art department. He still remembers the moment when she saw Shen Mange at the first moment.

She is full of youth and full of confidence. At that moment, it seems that the world can change color for her.

That is the look that made him remember the girl named Shen Mange.

Behind the scenes, the two actually happened to be caught in bed in the hotel. Seeing her, Ye Nanxian didn't have much rejection.

The youthful girl, who is worthy of his indifference, may bring him a bit of excitement.

At that time, he decided his marriage so that no one said it was useless. He said that he was responsible for his own behavior, that Shen Mange had slept in public, and had to get married. In fact, Ye Nanxian knew better than anyone that his heartbeat at that moment really existed.

But after the marriage, Shen Mange was like changing a person, only to promise, respect him, and even completely lost the confident look.

Ye Nanxian once thought he might have recognized the wrong person and got the wrong marriage, but what can he do?

Shen Mange loves him so much, and has not done anything that apologizes for him. Is he unable to divorce his wife?

Therefore, Ye Nanxian no longer ignored Shen Mange, even though she knew that she was always giving, so that she lost herself, but he just couldn't get used to it. However, after the fire five years ago, it was found that although Shen Mange had lost himself, some feelings penetrated into his life through the years and radiated into his soul.

Perhaps the departure of the child also made him more guilty and blameless. Now seeing Shen Mange's self-confidence again, he suddenly felt that his heart had recovered six months ago.

For half a year, I walked a lot of detours, but at this moment, the two hearts hugged tightly together, even a single look made people feel particularly warm and bloody.

Ye Nanxian held Shen Mange in his arms and whispered, "Do you know? The first time I see you, you want to be the master of heaven, and no one can compare with you. All of them have become green leaves. At that time, I was still thinking, this little girl's film is really brilliant. But in the next eight years, I have never seen you like that, I even think that my marriage has made you look lifeless, I made you lose all vitality. Now seeing you like this again, I know that you can overcome your own right? "

Shen Mange was surprised, and quickly asked: "Aren't you the first time you saw me at the reception?"

"The first time I saw you was on the podium where you won the top prize in painting."

Ye Nanxian surprised Shen Mange for a long time.

It turned out that he had seen her long ago.

It turned out that their first acquaintance was so brilliant.

Shen Mange suddenly smiled with satisfaction.

"Fortunately, it was not at the reception, otherwise I would be ashamed."

Ye Nanxian gently hugged her and said softly: "If it was the first time at that time, no matter if you were a sleeping daughter, I would never marry."

"So what have I been doing for these eight years?"

"Everything has passed, we have to be good tomorrow. Trust me. Our daughter will have a successful operation, we will have my son and I will find it, Ye Rui will grow up happily, our days will get better and better . "

Ye Nanxian did not avoid Shen Zi'an's disappearance.

The child is gone, it's not that you can get it back without saying it. They are a husband and wife, and need to bear the children's affairs together, even if it is such a thing.

Shen Mange's mood was somewhat sad.

Shen Zian has no news so far, which is not good news for her, but she also knows that it is imperative to heal herself first.

If she collapsed herself, how could she continue to walk for the child and Ye Nanxian?

Shen Mange sighed and said, "Do you particularly want to know what I have experienced so that I can't swallow it like this?"

"If you do n’t want to say it, do n’t force it. When you want to say it, I ’m always there. No matter what you say or not, you ca n’t change anything. I want to stay with you, guard you, this heart is always Will not become. "

Shen Nange was deeply moved by Ye Nanxian's words. She took a deep breath and said, "I will tell you, maybe I will open my heart if I say it."