Chapter 190： Difficult first step

190 The Hard First Step

Shen Mange struggled for a long time. After seeing Ye Nanxian's calmness, he decided to speak up.

If after saying it, Ye Nanxian could not tolerate or accept it, then she should die.

Perhaps the fate with Ye Nanxian is not as strong as he thought. Perhaps no man will tolerate this.

Shen Mange is betting, but she feels that Ye Nanxian will not be such a superficial person. These two emotions have kept her entangled and uncomfortable.

Seeing Shen Mange's uncomfortable appearance at this time, Ye Nanxian whispered: "I said don't force yourself, when you really want to tell me, just tell me, I don't have to know now. How Like? Do you need to eat something and try again? "

Seeing Ye Nanxian's encouragement, Shen Mange was somewhat encouraged.

"it is good."

Ye Nanxian got up with a smile and went to make a bowl of millet porridge for Shen Mange.

Xiaomi porridge is sticky and looks sweet, but Shen Mange still feels sick, but under the eyes of Ye Nanxian, she pours it into her mouth a little bit.

It should be regarded as indoctrination, because she does not know how to eat.

Anything she ate since these days made her feel tasteless. She even thought that there was a problem with her taste, but only later discovered that everything was her own psychological role.

She really couldn't pass her level.

Shen Mange continued to pour in his stomach, but tried his best to hold back.

Ye Nanxian was very distressed to see her so.

"Don't force yourself, take this thing slowly."

"I know, it's not as strong as it used to be, maybe you can take it easy."

Shen Mange smiled lightly, but Ye Nanxian could see that she was in the top two.

"Mange ..."

What else did he want to say, but the sound of the doctor's footsteps sounded outside.

"Mr. Ye, please come out. I want to talk to you about Miss Shen's condition."

This Miss Shen is definitely not Shen Mange, but the sinking.

Ye Nanxian's eyes tightened suddenly.

"Go ahead, I'm fine here."

Shen Mange also knew that Luo Luo's condition could not be delayed, and quickly urged Ye Nanxian to pass.

"then you……"

"I'm okay, even if it's okay, just spit it out, it's important to fall, I can't go to see her like this now, you can take care of her for me.

Shen Mange is anxious and worried. No mother can be calm when she learns that her daughter's condition has changed, and she is no exception.

It is a pity that now she appears in front of Luoluo like this, and she can only scare Luobo.

Ye Nanxian saw Shen Mange's strong eyes flashing, and said softly, "I will come as soon as you go. Do you have any discomfort and quickly find a doctor to know?"

"Got it, rest assured."

Shen Mange quickly came to the bathroom and vomited when Ye Nanxian left.

She was a bit discouraged, maybe she really can't get through the psychological level?

But if she continues, can she have what she wants? Others want to ruin her happiness by all means, should she let those people do?

Do not!

No!

She tried to stop herself, and then stood up a little bit by the wall.

Shen Mange is very weak now, and it is very likely that she will be blown by a gust of wind, but with her perseverance, she walks back to the ward step by step.

Ye Nanxian hasn't returned yet, and he doesn't know how the sinking is going.

Shen Mange couldn't bring it down for a moment.

She has been back for a few days, but she has never seen Luoluo, and she does n’t even know what Luoluo is doing now.

What did Luoluo experience in her missing days?

Why live in St. Petersburg Hospital, Ye Nanxian will bring this nursing home?

Is it because Tang Ziyuan did to Luoluo or Ye Nanxian?

Shen Mange suddenly found that many things were out of her control and even exceeded her cognition.

Tang Ziyuan is no longer the Tang Ziyuan I knew before, which determines that the Tang family and the Ye family are likely to be incompatible.

And what happened during this time, she must know.

Thinking of this, Shen Mange stood up gently, pushed open the door of the ward, and walked out of the door of the ward for the first time.

To get out of here, especially when she walks out of this room by herself, she needs great courage.

When she just pushed away from the house, Shen Mange felt that people from all directions were looking at her, like she was on a ship, those pairs of eyes that looked like wolves and tigers, those pairs of pairs who wished to use her eyes to pull her clean eyes, made her feel Creepy, uneasy.

The foot she had just stepped out of was collected again, and she even wanted to close the door and be an ostrich and turtle for a lifetime.

In fact, this is not bad, right?

With Ye Nanxian present, no one dared to come in and hurt her, and he would not do anything to her.

But the moment Shen Mange closed the door, Ye Nanxian's eye was again shown in his mind.

He will treat her well because of love, because of responsibility, and because of guilt. But how long can one's emotions last?

How long can she squander Ye Nanxian's feelings like this?

People are always tired.

Now that Zi An's whereabouts are unknown, this is what Luo's is like, and she has also become a human being, not a ghost or a ghost. Could these burdens rest on Ye Nanxian's shoulders?

Shen Mange thought of what he said just now to be confident and to match the upper Ye Nanxian, but how did he back down at this moment?

She leaned against the door and gasped heavily, even shaking all over her body. No one knows her fear of the crowd now, nor does she know that she is anxious about the outside, but she has no choice.

Either be an ostrich protected by Ye Nanxian all her life, and enjoy the Ye Nanxian's contribution to her with peace of mind.

How to choose between the two choices? In fact, I have long thought about it, but it is just that the first step is more difficult to take.

Shen Mange took a deep breath, worked hard to build his heart, and then suddenly opened the door.

Because of her sudden appearance, many people gave her a subconscious look.

Those eyes made Shen Mange feel like sitting on a needle felt, but she clenched her teeth and insisted.

Can't hold back!

Can't go back!

She is Shen Mange! Ye Nanxian's wife! It's a mummy! Now everyone needs her to stand up, everyone wants her to get better, doesn't she?

Shen Mange gasped, feeling cold sweat dripping down her forehead a bit, and her legs were as heavy as lead, but she still didn't step back.

Everyone glanced at Shen Mange and then withdrew their gaze. Why should they go? After all, this is a sanitarium. They have seen strange patients, and Shen Mange is just too thin and weak.

When those eyes evacuated, Shen Mange's back was soaked.

She is like a freshman.

Seeing everyone do their job, she suddenly wanted to cry.

In fact, taking this step is not as difficult as I thought, is it?

Shen Mange was terribly excited. She wanted to tell Ye Nanxian that she could do it now. She did it, but thinking of where Ye Nanxian was now, Shen Mange was silent again.

Drop down!

The doctor is talking about his condition.

Shen Mange was a little anxious at this moment, and she quickly lifted her steps towards the doctor's office.

Someone still looked at her on the road.

At the beginning, Shen Mange would suddenly stop and feel that it was difficult to move, and later he overcame it. Although the pace was slower, it was still calm. Although the back was cold and sweating, the palm of his hand was pierced by his nails, but She persisted.

Slowly, she discovered that many people actually just looked at her and went elsewhere.

Shen Mange gasped, trying to ask where the doctor's office is, but he didn't have the courage to speak.

She suddenly discovered that this change made her lose the desire to talk and talk with others.

She was against everyone, except Ye Nanxian.

This perception made her very frustrated, but she did not flinch.

Ye Nanxian's love and falling sickness are an encouragement and spur to her.

She gritted her teeth and turned, and finally saw a familiar figure.

Ye Rui!

Ye Rui is actually crying!

This stinky boy is not crying like before, and his shoulders are twitching, but it is more distressing.

Seeing Ye Rui, Shen Mange couldn't help thinking of Shen Zi'an.

Where is that stupid boy now?

Shen Mange's psychological pain, but still walked over.

Ye Rui was crying too attentively, holding a watch in his hand, and Shen Mange's heart hurt when he saw it.

It was Shen Zi'an's watch, a birthday gift to Shen Zi'an on her four-year-old birthday, but now it is in Ye Rui's hands.

Ye Rui's cry was very depressed.

Shen Mange reached out his arms and gently embraced him in his arms.

Ye Rui was suddenly startled and quickly looked up, but he was stunned at the moment he saw Shen Mange.

"Are you an aunt?"

Shen Mange was too thin. After returning, Ye Nanxian did not allow anyone to disturb her in the past, so Ye Rui was the first time she saw Shen Mange, but she was shocked by her appearance.

Shen Mange in memory is so beautiful, so dazzling, but now Shen Mange is like an old man, lifeless.

"Am I ugly?"

Shen Mange wanted to smile at him, but he couldn't laugh at all.

Ye Rui shook his head quickly, reaching for his tears, but it seemed to wipe more and more. He choked back and said, "Auntie, I'm sorry, I didn't like the boss. I lost the boss. You hit me. You hit me hard. I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

He took Shen Mange's hand and hit him in the face, but Shen Mange stopped him.

"Don't do that, Ye Rui, aunt knows you didn't mean it."

"But the bad guy is my mommy. Aunt, it's all because of me, because my boss is treated like mommy. No, she's not my mommy, she's the devil. Auntie, beat me, you beat me I will be more comfortable. "

Ye Rui's stress in these days has exploded when he saw Shen Mange.

Why isn't a good mom like an aunt not his mom?

Why did his mommy become so bad?

why?

Ye Rui tried hard to let Shen Mange punish him. In that way, Shen Mange suffocated her heart. She hugged Ye Rui and hugged him tightly.

She knew that Ye Rui suffered no less than anyone else in this incident. What could be more sad in this world than a child who witnessed the atrocities of his biological mother?