CH 52

Naturally, there was nothing impossible.

But Yun Qingci had his own ideas. He could no longer be the same as before, when he wanted to pour all his enthusiasm on Li Ying, making everyone feel that he was cheap.

Although he knew that Li Ying in this life would definitely not dislike him, but… Hey, the main reason was that Li Ying’s invitation was too sudden.

He was still a bit unsettled

There were thousands of thoughts running through Yun Qingci’s brain, but Li Ying didn’t know it. Seeing that Yun Qingci didn’t move for a long time, he sighed secretly. Yun Qingci was just toying with him again.

He said, “Then go back to the palace first.” 

Yun Qingci: “…”

He was in a daze for a while, wondering if Li Ying did it on purpose. Just, does he always have to take the initiative to do something? Couldn’t Li Ying take the initiative?

If Li Ying said that he had to sleep with him, then he had to sleep with him. He, Yun Qingci, was reborn, did it mean that he didn’t want any face at all?

Did he say no?

Li Ying’s face really just changed too quickly. He could give it up once, but not twice? When he was sticking to Li Ying, he never asked for face.

Yun Qingci felt very aggrieved.

Li Ying was so tired that he didn’t notice Yun Qingci’s anger. Yun Qingci stood up with his expression cold, turned around and walked all the way to the bead curtain. Li Ying didn’t call him as he expected, so he turned back to look at him again.

Li Ying didn’t lie down, but his eyelashes drooped quietly. His whole body looked wretched and tired from the inside out, and his profile was so thin that his cheeks looked sunken; only his nose seemed even more upright.

That nose.. it was really attractive.

Yun Qingci suppressed the suffocation in his heart and changed his way of thinking. He wouldn’t sleep with Li Ying for Li Ying’s sake but just taking care of his health. What was there to feel aggrieved about, it’s not like he was sacrificing his ego.

What’s more, Li Ying had been taking care of him for so long. Maybe, maybe there was actually some fear in his heart. Li Ying must be afraid of causing his anger, that’s why he didn’t dare to ask for the second time.

Yun Qingci finally comforted himself. Trying to appear unperturbed, he walked over again and ordered: “Go a little further inside.” 

Li Ying seemed to be in a daze for a while, then propped up his body again and moved a little bit inside.

There was more than enough space outside for one person to sleep, but Yun Qingci was still dissatisfied: “Inside more.” 

Li Ying had to move inside again. Only then did Yun Qingci take off his robe and lift the quilt. He laid flat beside Li Ying for a while, then quietly reached out, groped, found and touched Li Ying’s hand.

His fingertips gently traced Li Ying’s palm, and his body followed, moving and moving, moving and moving, a little closer to Li Ying inside.

He looked at the top of the bed and curved his lips, then turned sideways to face him.

The tip of Li Ying’s nose was just in front of him, and the two of them could feel each other’s breath.

His eyelashes trembled uncontrollably and then his eyelids closed silently.

Yun Qingci held Li Ying’s hand with both of his, feeling him unconsciously curl his fingers and squeeze his.

Yun Qingci stared at him for a while, then pushed the tip of his nose with the tip of his own; Li Ying remained motionless.

Pushing him with the tip of his nose again, Yun Qingci whispered, “Li Ying?” 

Li Ying stayed motionless.

After Yun Qingci spoke, he realized that the man was asleep.

……are you so sleepy? Or, did he plan for them to simply sleep together from the beginning?

Yun Qingci was a little lost for a while, and a little distressed. How long has it been since Li Ying slept? When he moved closer, he could see how deep the shadows under his eyes were and his lips were pale and bloodless.

He really lost a lot of weight.

Yun Qingci leaned towards him, pressed his body against him and hugged his waist with both arms. With this hug, he found that Li Ying’s waist was much thinner.

He suddenly remembered Li Ying, who had become so skinny in his previous life, and slowly pressed closer to him, burying his face on his chest forcefully.

Fortunately, Li Ying was not that skinny now.

Yun Qingci naturally couldn’t sleep, but Li Ying was out cold. There was a sound of the bead curtain being lifted from outside. Liu Ziru looked worriedly and found that the dragon bed curtain was closed tightly, and immediately retreated again, reassured.

Yun Qingci’s face turned red unconsciously.

Liu Ziru probably laughed at him. He said that he was here to get the letter of separation, but he actually fell asleep with Li Ying.

He silently let go of Li Ying and sat up quietly. As soon as he opened the curtain, there was a movement behind him.

Li Ying, who was still sleeping soundly just now, frowned slightly and his breathing became heavier.

Yun Qingci instinctively took his hand, leaned over and patted him.

The deep wrinkles between Li Ying’s eyebrows smoothened and his heavy breathing calmed. Yun Qingci looked at him carefully for a while, deliberately let go of him and then leaned back, confirming that Li Ying really couldn’t sleep well without him. His heart suddenly overflowed with immense joy.

“That inseparable from me?” The corners of his mouth lifted, then he finally stuck to Li Ying contentedly.

Li Ying slept very deeply that night, too deeply. At last, Yun Qingci’s stomach was growling but Li Ying was still sleeping.

Yun Qingci was not very happy but held back without moving.

Are you so sleepy? Didn’t you sleep when you laid next to me?

He had been sleeping for a long time, it was time to take a break from this sleep.

Yun Qingci pushed him: “Li Ying, I’m hungry.” 

Li Ying didn’t say a word; Yun Qingci looked at his face that was slightly bluish and pressed his palm to his stomach.

He was really, really hungry.

“Then, you have your sleep and I’ll go get my food.” 

Yun Qingci withdrew from his arms, lifted the curtain and put on his robe. Liu Ziru, Yinxi and others were waiting outside. Upon seeing him, they immediately said, “Lord Empress is awake.” 

He didn’t sleep much at all.

Yun Qingci said coldly: “Go get me something to eat.” 

Liu Ziru smiled, and Yun Qingci’s face turned even colder. He could stay if he wanted to and leave if he wanted to, how dare he laugh at him.

Seeing his expression, Liu Ziru suppressed his smile. Heaven and earth can be his witness, he was not laughing at the Lord Empress.

He said respectfully: “Someone has already gone to prepare food, please sit down for a while.” 

Yun Qingci flicked his sleeves indifferently and sat down at the table. When his face looked cold like this, everyone had to respect him. Even the Empress Dowager of the previous life would rush to coax him while others naturally dared not say anything.

Jin Huan brought water for him to clean his hands and then wiped them with a dry cloth. Yun Qingci kept sulking with a blank face.

Before the meal came up, the bead curtain moved, and Li Ying, wearing a thin shirt, lifted the curtain and looked at him.

When Yun Qingci saw him, he became even angrier.

He was hungry and laid with him for so long, and Li Ying couldn’t wake up. Now that he was gone, the other party woke up. He didn’t believe that Li Ying would really not be able to sleep well without him. This was simply unreasonable.

He was more inclined to think that Li Ying had woken up a long time ago but only followed him after he had left.

Maybe he also heard the sound of his stomach growling.

Was Li Ying this low? When Yun Qingci ignored him, he rushed to find him. Now that he took the initiative, he played with him again.

….After that Yun Qingci began to reflect on whether he was also very lowly. When Li Ying refused to separate, he didn’t want him. Now that he was going to separate, Yun Qingci was sticking to him.

Li Ying asked him to go back to the palace, and he even went and tumbled down next to him.

No wonder Li Ying didn’t take him seriously.

“Ah Ci.” Li Ying walked over. He knew that it must have been thanks to Yun Qingci that he had been able to sleep so well. He sat down next to Yun Qingci, and suddenly there was the sound of a chair moving on the floor. Yun Qingci pulled his chair and sat far away.

Li Ying didn’t know what he was thinking, but he clearly noticed that Yun Qingci’s attitude was a bit abnormal and he was a different person from Yun Qingci who had hugged him to sleep before.

“It’s coming, it’s coming, dinner is coming.” A group of people from the imperial dining room quickly filled the table with delicious dishes, many of which Yun Qingci loved to eat. Li Ying glanced at Liu Ziru, who immediately understood and said, “Okay, okay, let’s all withdraw.”

The lights in the room were as bright as day, and Li Ying glanced at Yun Qingci. The other party was willing to stay and rest with him. Obviously, he had him in his heart.

But why did he wake up like this?

He reflected earnestly, then moved his chair closer to Yun Qingci, but Yun Qingci pulled further away from him.

Li Ying: “…I’m sorry, Ah Ci.” 

Yun Qingci turned his back on him and ignored him.

“Did I make you angry?” 

“What am I angry about? Am I not able to be grateful to you with tears in my eyes? You can regret what you have done wrong, then spend a few days with me and have me come back for you, Li Ying, do you feel particularly accomplished?” 

“I didn’t… but thank you for today, I slept well.” 

“You slept so well that you woke up as soon as I left. Are you still conscious when you sleep? Yes?” 

“Don’t be angry.” 

“Then you explain to me.” Yun Qingci looked at him and said, “Make it clear, what’s going on.”

“I made a deal with someone, so I can come back to you.” 

“Then what?” 

“There is a price.” Li Ying lowered his eyes. He knew that Yun Qingci wouldn’t believe it if he told him. Maybe he would even ridicule him. He said discreetly: “My body is affected with backlash. If I leave you, it hurts.”

Yun Qingci searched in his memory. Li Ying in his previous life had never said that there would be any backlash after returning to the past. He suspected that Li Ying was lying.

The price paid by the other Li Ying was big enough. After twelve years of suffering Lingchi, the final sacrifice was ten thousand insects turning his body into bones.

He clenched his fingers, and suddenly felt that Li Ying’s face in front of him was loathsome. He hadn’t experienced all this at all, and all the costs were paid by another Li Ying.

“You tell me.” Yun Qingci said, “After the light turned red, you came here, and you came here before you died… Then will the other you still be alive?” ”

“I’m here, and there is only one me in this world.” Li Ying’s face turned pale, but his tone was calm: “There is no other one.”

“Don’t lie.” 

“I didn’t lie.” Li Ying insisted: “There is only one me, from beginning to end, there is only one me.”

“Don’t you understand why I slept for so long?” Yun Qingci took time to stuff a bite of food in his mouth to fill his stomach a little. He swallowed and wiped his lips before looking directly at Li Ying. “Let me tell you, I went back and returned to the side of Li Ying who was cutting his flesh and feeding snakes, who was scarred and bony and who finally sacrificed himself to ten thousand insects.” 

Li Ying’s pupils dilated and he knocked down the chopsticks as he hastily retracted his hand.

Yun Qingci continued: “I have been with him for more than a year. I know that he often goes to the underground palace to see me. I know that he cuts himself thousands of times. I know that he wanted to break the lamp after the light turned red… Li Ying, that person, is it you?”