Chapter 394 - 390 I'm Sorry Jasmin

((( RHIO POV's )))

Deo has still not come that night.

I've already emptied three bottles of liquor.

I knew I should be drunk at that state but why was I able to see Jasmin so clearly?

Why would she never leave my mind? Shit.

"Dad..."

When I saw my son, I wanted to cry.

"You're not sleeping yet."

He shook his head. I brought him closer to me and hugged him.

"What's wrong Dad?"

"...It's all my fault...I'm sorry...sorry..."

"It's okay, Dad."

"It's my fault why Mommy gave up on us...it's my fault..."

"Didn't you say Mommy's coming back?"

"...no...she will never be coming back."

"No, Granny Nanny Sya said mom will come back to us...because no mother can just abandon her child. And I think Mommy missed us too..."

"I miss her so much, too. Did you know I want to hug her so tightly when I saw her?"

"You saw her?"

"But...she suddenly drifted away...although she was so close to me...I still can't reach her. She was smiling so widely."

"Mommy's happy!"

"Right. Mommy's happy with her family..."

"Family? What do you mean Dad?"

"...Kevin...she has forgotten us."

Kevin shook his head as he started to cry. Both of us were weeping pathetically.

I didn't want my son to expect too much… But I guessed I ruined his hope too much.

I loved his mother unfathomably.

So in turn, it hurt me unfathomably.

But in our case, I was the one who hurt Kevin too much.

Truth hurts but it's better to know it early than to live up on lies.

Kevin fell asleep in my arms. Tear-stricken as me.

"Kevin..." It was Ivy.

"W-what ar-."

"Shhh. Father and son indeed," she said softly. Ivy sat in front of me.

"You know...I've been a loving mother to Kevin. He was so kind and obedient. But I pitied him every time he calls me 'Mama'. I considered him my own child because he really liked to have a complete family. "

Complete family.

I kissed Kevin on the forehead.

"Well, by the way Rhio...I'm leaving next week. I don't want to see Kevin sad so I'm leaving secretly."

I looked at Ivy. Was she crazy? After getting my son to be used to her presence, she'd be leaving?

"I love your son Rhio...but I loved you first."

I was not surprised. It was obvious but I ignored it.

"You know why I'm here...to fill the role that Jasmin vacated. But when I heard that Jasmin was here again, I chose not to suffer any more. So while it's early, I'd better leave."

I didn't want to let that happen.

Kevin knew painful things too much. I've made him sad so I'm not going to let more things hurt him anymore. He needed a whole family. I took a deep breath.

"I know what could stop you from going." She stared at me.

"While I wasted my time waiting for her, you were there taking responsibility for Kevin. Please marry me so I can give my son a complete family." Ivy's eyes widened. "Two weeks from now, the wedding will happen. The sooner, the better," I said and stood up to bring Kevin in his room.

"But one thing I will never promise to you is my love. I will only fulfill my responsibility as a father in this family."

Then I started walking.

I'm sorry Jasmin.

It was time that I prioritize our son over you.