* Diamond Hearts by Alan Walker - might break your heart, but we're all in the same pot atp ????
[RUKIYA]
With the blood rain, and Mbali still in Sicario, Malika knew she had to do something. Now that they had figured Hawi was probably alive somewhere, she knew she had to find her and make sure she was alright. Stay with m _v _l _e _mp _y _r.
She had managed to push through the mind links and was met with emptiness, the kind that was so sad and had so much grief. It was like there was so much pain that for a moment, Malika faltered.
She was supposed to be strong, hell, she always was, but grief had a way of crippling even the strongest. That was also how Malika knew that Hawi was feeling worse than she was and that she needed to find her Mistress.
'She'll give me the answers even if I have to choke it out of her,' Malika said to herself as she went to Rukiya's camp. She had managed to figure out why Rukiya was being evasive earlier and it was because the woman was feeling everything Hawi was feeling.
There was no point in her looking for Hawi, given she knew where the woman was and Malika wasn't going to waste any time. She would find her mistress, and she would take away her pain, just like she always did.
But perhaps a nicer approach would determine whether her dark thoughts of killing Rukiya Greyson in the worst of ways would be justified or not, despite the knowledge of Rukiya being Hawi's interest — or it being a red zone for anyone alive or dead.
"Rukiya! It's raining blood in Sicario. We need to be ready for the rage of the white wolf. If only I knew where she—" Malika let out in one breath when she saw Rukiya Greyson hunched in front of someone.
The Greyson alpha looked genuinely busy and occupied, given there weren't even any warriors with her on this side. However, that could wait, because this time, Malika was going to use the blood oath against Rukiya, if she had to.
"Huh?" Rukiya responded subconsciously as she turned to look at Malika, a move that got Malika to realize that there was no point in looking further anymore. The woman she needed was here, and that should have been comforting, so why was Malika scared?
"—Was," Malika said, completing her sentence as she took in the sight of Hawi.
In all her years serving the moon goddess and the realm, Malika had never encountered this much hurt. She had never imagined it possible for anyone and honestly, she finally understood why it was raining blood.
"Please don't shut off your mind links this time?" Malika pleaded with Hawi, knowing how crazy she had almost gotten because of this woman. However, she wasn't doing it for herself, but because she needed to know if Hawi was okay or not.
"I won't, not unless I'm fucking Ruru senseless," Hawi said, with a straight face while Rukiya choked on air. She loved the idea of Hawi fucking her but this was certainly not how she had expected to what this.
"Careful love, I got something better for you to choke on. All you gotta do is ask for it, and I'll deep-throat you as far as you want me to go," Hawi added and Malika was done listening.
"Y'know what? I get the idea," Malika complained as she stared at Hawi whose face was still blank and cold. The tears in her eyes were still finding their way down, and she didn't even seem bothered by it. She was numb to everything.
"I don't even know why you're still here when you got Kane wishing you were finding your way through to her ovaries right now," Hawi said, and this time, Malika just created a portal and went through it, leaving a shocked Rukiya and a broken Hawi behind.
"Hawi, we can get Hudhayfah to perform his rituals," Rukiya said softly once it was just them and a dead Sicario that Hawi hadn't let go of yet.
"It hurts so bad I can't breathe, Ruru. I... I didn't think it would hurt. I feel like my heart is exploding over and over, my chest hurts so bad. I thought I could handle myself, I... I don't want to feel like this, Ruru," Hawi said as she furiously wiped her tears.
Hawi's emotions were so raw that Rukiya was nearly taken aback by how vulnerable the strongest woman she had ever met had become. There were days when all Rukiya wished to see Hawi let herself be vulnerable.
However, now that she was seeing her like that, Rukiya felt like going on a murder spree herself. She finally understood why Malika wanted to take out Jer and never let him live to see the next second.
"I'm so sorry, baby," the Greyson alpha said as she sat beside Hawi, gently guiding Hawi's head to her shoulders.
"Tell me what to do, my love. Tell me what you want me to do and I will do it, no questions asked," Rukiya said earnestly.
"Ruru... Please take my pain away," Hawi said in a broken voice before adding.
"Make it go away. I'm so tired of the endless pain."