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05. Villain

"Marriage."

Raymond didn't see Karen's face. But he would have expected Karen's expression to be vaguely good. Or a little dazed. But I gave Karen to Raymond and made a face. It's cliche. I see. The idea was over.

For Karen, Raymond's marriage request was not so special. Therefore, it was not new to me. It was hard to admire the way he was there when he was asked to marry by the same opponent dozens of times.

'It's annoying.'

But this time, I felt a little weird. Karen was a little surprised by her feelings.

Why? There was only boredom over the double digits, but it changed a little. First of all, he was looking at Karen with a cold look that he had never seen before, but Raymond's attitude changed so quickly. Until recently, Raymond treated Karen as if she were being interrogated quietly with suspicious eyes. As expected, Sir Raymond has a problem. Karen sighed, listening to Raymond's slightly excited voice.

What are they thinking? Nevertheless, he proposed again this time. In this life, he proposed to Karen again, and his decision was sincere. It is not a word or two, but a document proves it.

This is probably love.

***

Lady Ryan opened her eyes wide when she saw the numerous letters in front of Karen.

"Wow…."

"Sigh…."

Karen sighed. A wedding schedule and a list of people to send invitations to. The cluelessness of when to use it up bothered Karen.

"That's amazing. Are all these people coming?"

"I'm sure."

"And Prince Louis?"

"I suppose so."

Since we've been here so far.

"I'll have to ask my mother to get me a new dress right away! Karen, can I be your best man?”

"It's an honor for me, but I have to get permission from Mrs. Elba first."

"I'll get it!"

Lady Lian ran out of Dodo. It was a graceful step, but it was as cheerful as it was. Donna approached cautiously as the child left the room.

"…Lady Karen, aren't you happy with your marriage?"

Donna asked.

"Did it show?"

"…yes. A little."

He himself has lost his patience. Even if a child doesn't recognize it, an adult will notice it. Karen replied lamentably to herself, losing her patience little by little by little.

"I'm not sure.”

Karen answered frankly. Neither Raymond nor Duran. There was no reason to cheat. Donna consoled Karen by bringing her hot tea.

"It's probably because it's my first time."

No, it's because I got married too much.

But Karen didn't say any more, but she cleared the list and fell on her desk.

"My head is a little complicated....”

This time again.

Karen struggled with boredom and suffering ahead of the wedding. Again, he is no different. This time, it is similar. Again, Raymond proposed to her again in a way that Karen could not understand. Karen doesn't understand, but that's probably not the point. What needs to be cared about is the immediate list.

"It's because you have so much to think about. If the lord and the lady were alive, they would have helped us a lot....”

"Should I?"

"Yes, if you were alive, how could you have... Black…."

Karen held up her teacup and drank gracefully, ignoring Donna's small crying.

"Maddy, too."

If it's a drink, you run into someone and say, "Oh, shit, mother! Mother! Take responsibility for it!' I would have shouted. Then Karen burned her tongue in the hot tea.

Cool, cool.

"Oh, girl. Are you all right?"

Karen waved her hand, blocking Donna from reaching out. I was a little embarrassed.

"…yes. It would have been different if I had a mother."

This is what parents have to do. Karen remembered how frustrated she was when she first got married, seeing what she had to do. They pledge to marry at a gathering of thousands of soldiers, nobles and royalty. After that, it becomes a simple temporary relationship or a relationship that is not a trap.

"It's a real hassle....”

Karen doesn't believe in other people's vows as she doesn't believe in her feelings. There are not enough men to count Karen's relationship, but less than a tenth of them have proposed. The person who held the ceremony and even stamped it could count with two fingers. Marriage is a danger to men, too.

"You're still happy to marry Raymond, aren't you?"

Karen falls down on her desk and sees what she has to do. Preparations for the wedding, which has been repeated dozens of times, are exhausting and annoying. Karen stretched her arms. He knows himself. Very few men are about the size of Raymond.

"I know he's a nice guy."

I know. Nobody knows it better than Karen. Karen knows objectively that he is a good husband. Regardless of appearance and personality, it was hard to find a man as much as Raymond. It was not a story of a book that I don't remember well, but a judgment that Karen made with her own memories. Isn't that the bridegroom whom Verdick chose well for her daughter? Although he didn't choose Isella.

"But I don't think I'm happy.”

Because time doesn't go by.

Their marriage doesn't bear fruit. Emotions don't move forward. Always meet again, always confess, propose... Dying and repeating it again.

Declaring that two people will be married in society. There's nothing left. But that's only true for Karen. Not for others. It remains to others at that moment. Is this not enough to prove true love? But Karen doesn't know what's better than that.

Marriage takes risks. a few double pledges of importance over engagement Karen thinks of the men who got married. Among them was Duran.

"My mother would have done this before she got married.”

You don't believe in love, and you don't know who to choose to die.

Through my father, I knew that I did not need absolute love like a fanatic. But why did Duran put true love in his mouth? How much emotion did Raymond propose to Karen?

"True love."

"Then."

"I'll help you."

"…you'll give up if you kiss at the wedding."

Is it not enough? Karen twisted her hair.

But if I show you the first night, Duran's going to die of a heart attack. No, maybe it's that kind of taste.

"Dulan? Are you still in touch?"

He winked and whispered to the frightened maid.

"Don't tell Raymond."

Donna's face turns white. Donna asked in surprise.

"What? Are you serious?”

"Secret."

Donna's face turns a little red when she finds out she teases herself. Karen smiles at her and sees her work again.

"Since Count Elba's wife is going to introduce you to her, you can take it off the list of things to do....”

Karen stopped talking and turned her head.

"What's wrong with you?"

"Oh, that flower, wait a minute."

Karen saw a flower with Donna in it. It's a flower that Raymond gave to him while waking him up. In fact, it didn't make much difference as it was given any other day. It was a little bigger, just a little more.

"Lady, should I put the flowers in a bottle? Or should I dry it right away?"

"…just put it in a vase."

It doesn't matter much anyway. Is it faster for flowers to wither or for Karen to die?

"Are you still feeling bad?"

"Do you see that?”

"…yes, it looks complicated."

Donna answered cautiously. Karen shook her hand at her nervous maid and forced a smile.

"It's just weird to think that I'm getting married."

The day was coming whether you wanted it or not. Karen didn't have enough time in her life. I don't like the middle very much, but the result is marriage proposal anyway. Karen decided to settle for it. What matters from the beginning was Raymond's feelings. What matters is the advice given to Dulan. Duran should give himself an answer. Let's just think about that.

"It's my first time, so I'm very nervous and anxious."

No, not the first time.

Karen knew why she was frustrated and anxious. This is because this is not the first time. Because it is the same as the first time. Karen sees a vase that Donna is holding water. I see hydrangeas stuck in it. And I see flowers that fill the room.

"There are so many flowers."

"Isn't that touching?”

"Yes."

However, even his expression was annoying to pretend that he was excited. Karen looked at the flowers. innumerable petals

"I used to get flowers.”

Raymond had given flowers at first. It was. Karen realized why she felt strange and a little upset.

Karen's first 'really' proposal gift from Raymond. Karen remembers. When Raymond first proposed, really first. He brought flowers then.

"Just... I saw flowers in the morning, and suddenly I couldn't stop wanting to propose."

Karen laughed.

"We're already engaged.”

But Raymond looked at Karen again and said,

"But I wanted to say it again."

It's a story from a long time ago.

Raymond is the same. Raymond is not affected by time. He doesn't remember. He has done so before and will do so this time. But Karen didn't know very well. I didn't know Raymond well. Even this time.

I want to split your stomach and get into it. Then can we know? Karen thought while looking at the flowers. White petals crumbled from Karen's hand. I wonder if you really love me. I don't think there's much difference from before. No, not this time. This time, it can't be the same.

This time he looked at Karen so coldly, and suddenly his attitude changed at some point. Like before. Like his old life, he says he loves Karen again this time.

Why. Karen was scared. Because it's unknown. Because I can't understand.

If Karen's thinking of Raymond, he shouldn't have confessed his love to Karen. His eyes have to get cold day by day and eventually point a gun at Karen. If that's what Karen thinks. Karen was confused by her feelings. He was nervous. Soon Karen knew why her feelings were like this.

"…I have no answer either."

He demanded to be loved and in fact wanted to be stabbed.

I thought it would be more fun.