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"The girl cried herself to sleep."

"What do you remember?"

"I can hardly do it anymore...But I told her that Mrs. Catherine had passed away a few years ago, and she suddenly collapsed.”

It's been a while since we saw each other. I tried not to bump into him as much as I could. I only met Youngjoo and tried to go back quickly, but I met Karen. Before I knew it, Karen looked tall and ladylike in her adolescence. It is said that they forget more and more often.

The plan was proceeding steadily.

Karen's search for memories has become increasingly rare and unfamiliar to familiar people. Nancy said Karen gradually acted as if she had become a princess in a fairy tale. A little more gentle and a little more gentle.

"That's funny."

When I was young, Karen wasn't good at all. Duran remembered Karen, who was using evil. Then I remembered Karen, who had locked up Dulan and freed the dogs. Duran opened the door and looked down at Karen, who was asleep. The eyes were swollen, and the chest slowly went up and down to show that it had fallen asleep deeply.

Now it's enough to be called a 'woman.' Now, when you grow up a little more, you'll be a dazzling beauty enough to look back on. And if she meets a good man in the midst of so many people she will meet...It's going to lead to death.

"…carren."

“…….”

"Caran…Hyer.”

I called my name, but I won't wake up. I feel relieved about it.

No matter how hard I thought about it, I couldn't resist myself. Why do we have to die? Why should time pass? There is a man under his hand who can enjoy eternal life.

Karen has a chance to live forever. Catherine spilled it like a bad joke, but Duran thought it was a real blessing. This beauty will be kept forever.

Catherine's face was miserable.

The face of those who are dying of exhaustion in life is terrible. It is even more terrible for Karen to find a man at once and live a life of an ordinary person who succeeds in pregnancy, gives birth to children and dies.

Here is eternity. The vast amount of knowledge and history Catherine had spilled on him was far and wide.

Why give up eternity?

Why should a person die?

Catherine is dead.

But Karen won't die.

forever

Duran knelt down. Then he prayed. about what one does

And he confessed himself to being a heretic.

His god was this girl who was asleep in front of him.

***

"Father, Father Duran."

I can hear someone calling him. Duran knew that he had slept in his seat. Duran opened his eyes and saw the man coming in. It was Bowen who worked in the mansion.

"I'm sorry. If you're sleeping, I'll tell you later."

"Oh, no... It's all right."

Bowen was a butcher in the past. It is only a little special that not only animals but also people were slaughtered sometimes. His mother still had to take Dulan's medication to survive. Bowen tried to change his attitude as much as he could, but he sometimes used harsh language while quietly running Dulan's errands. It was not wise to show disarray in front of him.

Duran stood up and looked at Bowen.

"Lady Karen sent me a letter. I hear you're in the capital with Miss Icela Evans...The lord wants to have a car with the priest. Would you like to have a car with him?"

"…yes."

"Yes, I understand. Then I'll tell him you'll be there soon. And before you come, you'd better change your clothes. The new clothes are in the closet."

"Al, I get it."

Duran came to his senses by rubbing his rough, dry cheeks. It has already been two days since I arrived at the land, but I am still busy. Duran opens his eyes and looks in the mirror. There was a skinny, stooped young man. There was a sick man who was possessed by eternity.

There was one thing I was curious about.

"Why… of all things was me?"

***

"I heard there was a fire in the monastery. Are you okay?"

"That's okay. Lord."

Duran looked down at the car in front of him and looked up at Yeongju. Even if Karen rejects Duran, it does not change that Duran becomes the next lord. Duran's return day ended with a little delay.

But in the meantime, everything happened to Duran. From trivial things such as things disappearing and reappearing, I was suddenly sleepy, or my back almost fell and caught fire.

"It's over now."

Now Duran's job is not in the monastery. Duran kissed the teacup as he heard about Karen leaving for the capital. The lord opened his mouth carefully as he saw him.

"The man I'm going to introduce to you soon... They say they do.”

"He, he, he is."

"Yes…. I might not like it, but I want you to congratulate me."

Duran could see why the lord called him and spoke carefully. Do you think he might think he lost Karen? Duran smiled inwardly. Yeongju, Catherine, and I had a strong illusion.

Why are they afraid of implementing the deal? They found it difficult to accept the process of implementing it. He was not comfortable with Karen, and he speculated that he was self-interested. Duran's eyes are on Karen's choice of someone else. Why are you so angry?

"Of course."

It was something to celebrate.

No matter who Karen meets, it was a blessing.

Because what you do doesn't change.

What you've been doing hasn't changed.

"So why don't we just leave it to nothing we talked about with Catherine?"

"I don't know what you mean."

"So, touching your memory... Stop. Catherine....”

The lord's face was slightly flushed. The purpose of his call for Duran was to tell this story.

"I lost my wife, but I lost my daughter. I don't want to lose my family again."

Duran struggled with his chin on his shoulder.

The lord said it to persuade Dulan, but his words only gave Dulan confidence. Karen herself said she was living again. To his father.

Duran threw a gold coin and grabbed it again. Poof, pck, and repeat the coin floating and falling in the air. Duran thought. I had to think.

Is Karen living again? Duran believed it. But Duran was a little confused because Karen regained her memory and had nothing in her hands. Karen should have held something. Didn't Catherine say?

"In order to be sure I'm living again, I'll have to remember first, but then I can go back with the mark.”

Catherine once told Duran.

"I can start with what I have in my hand when I die. Something small enough to fit in your hand...In my case, it was a finger at first."

Fingers? Duran looked down at Catherine's white, slender fingers. Catherine raised her hand and folded one. My fingers. I cut it and brought it back. It's rotten now, so it's it away.

"Do you know that? A person's finger has a pattern.”

Do you mean the texture of the skin at the fingertips? Duran looked down at the tip of his hand, but the medicine had made it smooth. But later, as Catherine said, everyone knew that they had their own patterns and that they could distinguish each person.

"Is it because pregnancy is the answer? If I hold a part of my body, it comes back. If it's not my body, this is the most obvious one.”

Catherine picked up a gold coin.

"This is the best thing to do without repulsion. Other things keep getting in trouble."

"I see."

"So you can make sure that Karen is holding on to it later to see if she's dead or not."

"What if you don't hold anything when you die?”

Catherine stabbed Duran.

"You can hold it."

“…….”

"I don't mind if it's right after I die. Someone can hold the coin in the hand of the dead child....”

***

So you have to be a new officer.

Because you have to guide the child's death.

***

Karen said she was holding nothing.

Is it because this is her first life? Duran thought so at first. However, Duran was suspicious of the lord's words to leave Karen alone. Karen persuaded the lord to leave the house. And in the process, he said he lived again and again. But why didn't he hold anything in his hand? Duran could not understand that he had not given her gold coins in the past. If Karen had died, she would of course have a gold coin in her hand. But this time, Karen has nothing in her hand.

Duran felt a little more itchy in his head. I wanted to get out of my head and organize it.

Karen said she remembers. And there was no coin.

Coins.

Duran thought of what he had been repeating over and over again.

Karen is not in the mansion now.

Can a man who's been in a mansion all his life, and whose memory is not intact, show such behavior? It hasn't been long since she left.

Nancy, who was taking care of her, ran away with the money. There had to be a strong bond between Karen and Nancy. At least Karen had to be swayed by Nancy to some extent. I took that medicine and took care of her. Karen, however, did not return home even after Nancy ran away.

to be weird

Can a person behave like that? Is Karen living again? And she's already introducing a man? Duran clasped the coin tightly.

Karen's actions did not belong to anyone who lived a single life. He could hardly be regarded as a man who lived in a mansion all his life. He's good ability. Duran wrenched his lips and laughed.

And I could see why his last days at the monastery were dangerous. I could see why the item disappeared. Karen made someone do it. It was clear that he had tried to find out something from himself.

Karen is not new to this life.

He would also have dug up the truth from himself to some extent.

I succeeded in the past.

No matter how hard Karen struggled, he never wanted to let go. Duran felt themselves whispering next to him in the past.

Forever.

Are you trying to run away.

From eternity to death? With eternal rest?

But she won't be able to do that.

Whoever she chooses. Duran got up and began to push things into his bag. Any man, any man, any man, was fine. It doesn't matter to anyone. His behavior does not change.